December air is rather thin, chilling.
Usually, as am I around this time of year.
Somehow between endless car rides or sitting in parking lots,
something about you keeps me warm.
A promise never really meant as much
as it did when it slipped over your lips,
a hug never made me feel so protected.
You have pulled me out of this snow.
Not only this, but you have given me a hiding place.
A haven.
The thick scent of cigarettes fills the gaps
between our words,
alongside a form of comfort and communication
I never thought I'd have again.
It drifts through the air like a summer breeze,
making itself known in presence.
Making itself welcome.
For once in my life, I am not afraid of the snow.
For once in my life, I do not dread the kiss of frost
which greets me when I walk through the door.
For once in my life, I'm safe.
I have fears that you will not stay.
I don't want you to push me away.
I want to give you a reason to get up come morn,
aside from repetitive routines of
work,
eat,
sleep,
I do not want to be a routine.

They said it was A PUSH
I said this **** is APES
Bananas

Do they know what this system does?
It's all just stress
So they can assess
What you've learned
Meanwhile, they've only turned
A generation into stressed out perfectionists
Or students dropped out, burned out
So many notes, assignments, & essays to write
It's all lead to carpal tunnel in the wrist
Why does this system exist?

Instead make students hunger for knowledge
Instead of stressing out about college
Somewhere over the hedge
The rainbow
Where the grass is greener
I picture students happier and keener
With the love of learning being what we live for.

When I die, if you want to be closer to me
don't take a plane
because I'm not im Heaven,
I'll be out at sea


When you die, no one will spill a tear or a drop of blood
Because life goes on
even when they think it won't
they just have to trudge through the mud


When we die, we die together
maybe all at once, maybe seperately
but we all do
and dreading when it happens won't make it any better

Let's set sail
and float without fail
even if we go blind we'll read whole books in Braille
and life will never get stale
we'll drink tea and we'll live free as she and he
her and him let's do it on a whim
you'll be thought of before me
I'll even sign a decree
or a contract
it's love when we come in contact
and I believe it as fact
so let's make a pact
to set sail and never come back

It was the opposite of romance
when we did the two person dance without pants
We said **** it and took a chance
You know what they say, when in France...
In Rome, whatever
when you seduced me it was clever
Now I wish I could flip it like a lever
instead of live with it forever
Cause the next time we see each other will be never
Call it a one night stand
but it left me feeling the opposite of grand
cause now life is boring and bland
With all the pieces falling like sand
and nothing has balance
I can't believe I took this stance
I must have been in a trance
It was the opposite of romance...

Can you not?
Tie my heart in a knot
because it hurts
when all the guys you talk to are total flirts
just for you
it's hell I go through
trying to fill those guys' shoes
so I hit the joint and drink the cheap brews
**** it. I have nothing to lose

Instead of your touch I want to feel your words
because they fly out your mouth like graceful birds
but carefully thought forth
and they send my heart straight north
up, yup, I'd hate to interrupt
but I love the echo of your words when your mouths cupped
it's like a symphony
so keep talking and set me free
and even if I go deaf
I'll read your words that are written and count your every breath

The night's too cold
The fog just clogged
The moon's up high
I forgot it's December

The wind took me
To my bed sheets
I curled, it's cold
I forgot it's December

I can't think of
Words to defy
Why I just keep
Forgetting it's December

I can't find it
Searched everywhere
The place that brings
Cold nights when it's December

I saw your face
Two teardrops raced
So warm but cold
I forgot it's December

Just now I found
You are the word
The reason why
I forgot it's December

I saw the place
Of cold embrace
It was my heart
In the night of December

I remember
Sweet and bitter
Yes, it didn't last
I lost you last December

nothing quite like it
so crisp and pure
angelic, almost.

sent from the heavens
drifting every so slowly
white solitude.