Im begining to hurt again.
I thought everything was fine..
I thought i could make my self happy
Yesterday is my natal day
It was so much ordinary
I celebrate it all by my self
Until the last minute of that day
I was all alone eating my cake and
Reapeting the "happy birthday" song
Reapeting the blowing of candle..
It was so sad that few of them remember it.
But its okay.. im getting use of it
I was fine
ohw! Im not after all..

She keeps me
From keeping thoughts
In my head

She smothers out
My flames of chaos

Why didn't I take the chances I got?
Why am I such a coward?
I could've confessed.
I could've told you
But I didn't.
I'm a coward
And now I'm paying the price.
My heart aches for you
And you're all I can think of
Because I didn't tell you
And now I'm paying the price.

As a lost little bird
I can confidently say
That being alone in this nest
Is a terrifying ordeal.
My mother taught me how to fly,
But I'm afraid to jump.
Will I hit the asphalt?
Or will I find success?
I could live out my life
In this tiny little nest.
It is comfortable,
And I enjoy being here.
Or I could jump.
I could find out if I can fly.
But this could also be the day I die.

It just doesn't feel right.
The weather is rainy
And I'm huddled in my feathers.
Do I still have a chance to jump
If everything feels wrong?

I never regretted anything more  in my life
than that night you asked me to go on a date
two days before you decided
that your love was meant for someone else.

I feel young again around these girls,
This constant attention,
Playing the dating game.

Wooing and flirting and wanting,
I feel like I'm eighteen,
Which is convenient because I am.

It feels so nice to have no strings pulled,
I am liberated from concrete
And allowed to be me again.

Watch out ladies,
Here I come.

For the first time
I smell jealousy on your lips
instead of alcohol-induced love
(although I think that's in there too)

You tell me your sister
thought I was trying too hard
in my favorite dress
(which I bought for $15)

We do not touch
but we laugh
for longer than expected
(over something so painfully small)

My heart pounds
and the world stops spinning
as I wonder if I'm in love
(quickly I suppress the thought)

another fail
i am not holding my breath
so please do not bother
bringing me down gently
i am already not breathing