#crying poems on Hello Poetry

J Nov 2020

so. so what?
it's like every ******* time that i need you you're desperate to leave.
but god forbid i think of my own emotions once in a time of crisis.
because ****** lord knows that whatever the **** i am doesn't ******* matter
oh but you do J
you're such a beautiful person
you're so smart
i love you.
******* ******* *******.
what the ****. nah.
nah what the **** is wrong with you.
you've had it happen before.
so i ask for help, i tell you that i don't want to be here.
so you leave me on opened and then the next day you're telling me
telling me what? that you got MAD?
you got MAD at me for it? tell me where that makes sense.
you're mad because i wanted to die?
are you ******* me? I WANTED TO DIE!
I wanted to die! i wanted to die!
and you're MAD?
"it's not directed at you."
I'm ******* mad.
I'm ******* ******. I'm beyond hurt what the ****.
I'm so ******* tired of feeling alone. I'm so tired of being alone.

I'm so tired of feeling this way.
why do you keep leaving me alone
why do you keep leaving me alone.
please don't leave me alone.
please answer
why won't you ******* answer oh my god
I'm not safe.
why couldn't i have just succeeded?
i can't even **** myself right
I'm so tired of feeling like this.

i wish it was more than just some extra time to sleep in.
i wish it was forever.
i could rest forever.
i could sleep forever.
forever forever forever.
please answer the phone

it's the feelings he gave me,
i can do it
i
I CAN'T
I JUST I
just can't i just
can't.
god it
it feels so good to cry.
i don't want to stop.

this ******* *****, yknow.
the way this feels.
i just want to scream.

I'm blocking you. everywhere. you can't get me now.

alone again.
naturally.

i blocked her everywhere. i just need to be alone. i can't do this anymore.

#breakup #suicidal #alone #hurting #crying #blocked #stop #cut #sadness #depression

Bre Nov 2020

Death Came To Be My Friend

Death came knocking on my door, the day of the funeral. It wanted me to write my name in ink, instead of tears. I would have never thought I had all these years to say goodbye. To say goodbye to life, my children, my family, friends, and of course myself. Death came and told me a story; not everybody has the courage to say goodbye in this life. But you are the good one who stayed, and put up a fight! So here I say to you, sleep tight.

crazy story, meanwhile I wrote this one because my Dad is laying in his death bed as we speak.

Hold your loved ones close!

#love #life #sad #death #time #friend #courage #family #crying

aha Nov 2020

numb

i don't like to cry in public
but the numbness after is worth the shame

it's just like that sometimes

#numb #crying #socialanxiety

SquidInk Nov 2020

admitting it

im scared
im scared that one day our long embraces will evolve to just a faint smile
im scared that one day we will merely wave when we see each other
im scared that one day we wont even wave
we might just glance at each other
not so long ago, we spent every waking minute together
not so long ago, i laid in your bed and laughed all night with you
not so long ago, we dreaded for the time i had to go home
not so long ago, we told everything to each other
not so long ago, we always had something to talk about
not so long ago, we would go on long walks just because
not so long ago, we would sneak off at 2 AM to watch the stars
not so long ago, we laid on my shed roof in the middle of the night
just to watch the sky and talk
not so long ago, we laid on your kitchen floor rolling in laughter
not so long ago, we cried in each others arms
not so long ago, we composed hilarious songs in your room just to belt them out so that your dad would hear how dumb we were
not so long ago, we laid together and watched the fault in our stars
not so long ago we say
but it seems so long ago
it seems like a distant memory

remembering you

#admitting #sad #losingyou #depression #comeback #ineedyou #why #crying #sadness #remembering

SquidInk Nov 2020

losing you

what we promised would never happen is happening
messages slowly being left on read
we run out of things to talk about more everyday
we awkwardly walk each other to class because that's what we always did
we have 3-minute phone calls instead of 3 hour-long phone calls
we cry about what's happening behind closed doors but it gets worse still
we are supposed to cry in each other's arms, not about each other
we unpin each other because we don't message much anymore
im starting to forget how it feels to laugh for hours over nothing
im starting to forget how it felt when we would rage about boys
im starting to forget the genuine happiness i felt when i could see you
im starting to forget how pure our true connection had been
we said twin flames
the flame is flickering
we used to be too close
now it seems like we were never close enough
we promised
we promised this would never happen
we promised that we would never drift
we promised that our friendship was one in a million
so why
why is that one in a million friendship crumbling
we were meant to be best friends
we were meant to wipe each other's tears and hold each other
we were meant to laugh until we couldn't breathe
we were meant to be attached at the hip
we were never supposed to forget how it felt to be so close to someone
so close that we never hesitated to call each other our best friend
but now we do
now it seems we are just neighbors
neighbors who used to be really really close

the worst feeling in the world

#itgetsworse #losingyou #lost #sad #crying #stop #fixthis #imissyou #depression #imlosingeverything

Amanda Kay Burke Nov 2020

Red Prints

I have been crying all the time but you don't seem to care
Every day and yet
Remain unaware
A heart covered
Lingering scars only I am able to see
Over years
Drop by drop
Blood spilled out of me
Leaving trails of splattered mistakes in my wake as I go
Prints of regret showing which to not follow

Yet I never seem to correct my mistakes

#life #live #mistakes #red #prints #crying #time #care