My mind is telling me to smile,
When i just want to cry,
I broke a girls heart,
Broke it even more when it was already broken,
I just want to cry,
I just want to be in tears,
Let all the pain flow out;
Into the river of tears.
I’m so very sorry,
I made a mistake,
I should have told you earlier,
It is my fault,
I feel like I can’t live anymore,
My heart is sore,
When such a mistake shatters our future,
I just want to be with you,
Is that too much to ask for?
Feeling depressed while my heart remains sore,
Alone & sad; Might not recover,
Apologize doesn’t matter,
Now I don’t know what to say,
I just want to hold you,
No! I can’t wait to hold you,
But there’s always a delay,
I made a mistake; I should’ve told you,
Hoping you may forgive me,
I think i’ve lost you,
Every mistake makes a bigger wall,
Sunshines on me no more,
Wall hangs on me,
With clouds rain on top of me,
Hoping I make it up to you,
The mix feelings you have for me,
Is starting to disappear,
When I want to say I love you,
But you wouldn’t want to hear,
Love is such a strong word to use,
But if you really mean it,
Say, I love you,
You don’t even know what to do anymore,
Will you leave me?
Will I not hold you anymore?
My heart, soul, & mind chose you,
Now my arms is trying to reach you,
But can’t extend anymore,
I am afraid,
I am sad,
I made a mistake
A mistake I cannot pass,
I am so sorry!
I chosen to be a fool,
Instead of being smart,
I said nothing!
I let it go on about,
You told others you was going to meet me,
But I didn’t come,
I didn’t cancel,
Stayed in your room all night,
Makes me feel pitiful,
I cry myself to sleep tonight,
I do not pray, no wish, no hope,
Because it won’t get me no where,’
If you so happen give me another chance,
I’ll believe a little more,
I write your name your name in a hundred colors,
Your favorite is red and blue,
Your hair is red and your eyes are blue,
My favorite colors are red black and blue,
The mistake I made is a tragedy,
I felt guilty & I felt ashamed,
Life is not a joke, Life is not a game,
I feel like I lost you,
Now you’re fading away,
With every hope of being with you,
Has now been broken,
I’m so very sorry my love,
Now you think i’m joking,
Everyday I think about you,
More than any girl I ever thought of,
Me thinking of you make my heart feel warm,
But when I see you might heart stops,
Not because I don’t want to see you,
It’s because you make me so happy,
Make me excited,
You give me a reason to smile,
While I give you a reason to leave me,
I am lost confused and don’t know what to do,
I don’t care what nobody says about you,
No matter what,
I’m a man of my word,
I don’t know what else to write,
I’m in the bottle of a whole ,
Too dark,
No way to get out,
No way to be free,
Please shine the light on top of me,
So I can see,
I am so very appalled,
Full of dismay;;;
Is this the part that I finally pray?
I feel like I am begging for forgiveness,
Even though I don’t deserve it,
I am so very sorry, What can I do?
It’s time I close the book,
And start a new.
it's long, but It's one of the best poems I ever written. If you have patience then you wouldn't mind reading this long poem.
