Some people enter
your life like a dream but then
leave like a nightmare

6:50 PM
8/10/22

I saw your beauty,
majesty
I was beside myself
with the deepest envy...
I wanted
the light that shined with you
the life that shook them with laughter...
And I found...some of it

Long sacred
It now is unguarded
A sacred discarding
With allies now caving
I ask in this world
Is our nation worth saving?

Another day
Another try
Another failure
My heart is dead

In silence,
I suffer
through a painful kind of violence

I opened up so you could see
a broken piece of my humanity

should i sob?
my attempts are not working
i tried to find jobs
and should i keep searching?
what i do on this earth
never seem to be working
as day after week,  my depression, it worsens.
there are things that i dream
that I long to be free of
i try as
the blade
reaches deeper and deep in