she's yelling at her reflection
as tears run down her pretty face
"you're happy, you're ******* happy"
she screams at the mirror
"you're ******* HAPPY
you have parents
and a home
a boyfriend
and a best friend
so what if daddy's packing his bags
and he's forgotten all the promises he made
and mommy's stopped talking
isolating herself from everyone
even her little girl
and that life under your roof is a living hell
because everyones coexisting
but no one speaks to each other besides over text
so what if your boyfriend lives miles away
you don't get to hug him everyday
it kills you knowing you can't hold him close
and that your best friend hasnt eaten in weeks
her hair's begun to fall out and and she's lost her personality
you have money and shelter and resources
you rich *****
BE HAPPY"

I saw the ***** in you
She walked out and said hello
She smacked me upside the head And almost ended me, like I was Macbeth or Cyrano

I saw the ***** in you
She looked me in the eyes
With a heart full of jealousy and lies
Took advantage of my emotions And left me drowning in a tear filled ocean

I saw the ***** in you, she was hard to find
The ***** that said I'm less of a man,
For breaking down to cry.

I'm staring at a blank page because
There are no ways to express these emotions
Towards you.

My tongue
Can't cut through and
The venom from my words can't
Make you see reason.

I guess that's what it is.

I get so frustrated
With the fact that
You aren't mine
That I turn to violence.

I want to physically and emotionally hurt you
As much as you're hurting me right now
But nothing I do or say can outweigh this pain...

So I'll flip the page,
Let my blood ooze from this pen
To tell this book everything that I
Could never tell you.

Im in love with you.

Maybe it's the old you
Because I don't really know you
But I'm in love
With what we used to have.

I'm angry with you
Because you let me let you
Slip through
My fingers.

I hate you

Because you never let me appreciate
All the things you did for me from
The way you would look at me
To the way you would touch me.

How your Nobel finger tips
Would caress me too gently like I would break
To digging your pads into my skin
As if I would slip away...

But I did.

I guess you didn't hold on tight enough.

All this time I've been blaming you
For not loving me enough when
In theory you loved me too much but
I never looked at it that way thinking that I could never be loved.

Yet now the tables have turned because
I NEED you
And you're fine in your own.

All I really need is an answer.
Why don't you love me anymore?

What I'm realising now is that it was Always you
That I would throw the blame onto always
Your heart that I would rip at

I'm sorry for being an evil *****
But I'd rather thrown the blame than face
Reality:
I'm the reason you don't love me.

My actions are what caused you to
Loose your loving grasp.
My self satisfaction
Made you leave.

I'm the only one hurting,
I'm the only one in the wrong.

I love you
But now is too late of a time
To tell you.
I'm still in love with you.
                                                      ( K R W)

You sat there, trying to convince me
Make me believe in you
That you wanted to do something
Fix things
Gain some kind of redemption
Then the next day came
And you had given up
What the hell is wrong with you?
There is no redeeming
How can you expect that when you think this is trying
That bad taste, just gets worse and worse
And I just get let down
more and more

(SE01EP01)

Showing up late
Was worth the wait
I just can't stand it
I was made to believe
Low battery
What can I do?
Patience
How long?

"Please be seated."
According to my legs

But then from afar
I've just seen a face
And I realize
I'm high and lucky
The good times
That night was;
We all had this ten
When I almost reached heaven
We all had this ten
Maybe we should do this more often