I don't know who I think I am, but I ain't
Ain't shiit, ain't a saint, track record ain't great
I battle free will and fate over ornate quips with no stake in reality but won't vacate
I'll always acknowledge everyone that has filed a legitimate complaint
I eat nonstop, still too much on my plate
With this much weight, it's gonna break
Losses stacking at an alarming rate
Losing track of where I'm at in this debate
The one on good and evil and people that doesn't seem to translate
Breathed life into a mistake
I'm what I thought he couldn't make
But here I am
With almost nothing left at stake
Never heard the last boarding call whistle for moving on, left stranded at the departure gate
It never has before, I don't know why I thought it would wait
And being in the state of mind I'm in, my best guess for what the **** is happenin' is not elaborate
I was simply destin to be too late
Or maybe it was destiny that was early but I shouldn't fixate
'Cause either way, the screen says game over and on the board...
...checkmate

©2024

To the girl whose childhood wasn’t the best and who didn’t have anyone show up for her in the time of need I’m proud of how far you’ve came. The obstacles you’ve managed to overcome despite wanting to end it all despite wanting to give up you still pushed through—I feel like that says a lot about you.
To the girl who wakes up everyday battling within herself and struggling internally everyday wondering when is it gonna end? Wondering if it’ll ever end? Just push through a little more I know you’re tired baby I know it feels like the world’s heaviest blanket weighing you down but I believe in you so much.
To the girl who always longed for love because she never fully received it from her parents so she seeks it in others. When will you start loving you? When will you pour into you? I hope one day you come to the realization where you in fact love you just as much as you love others. I hope one day you see that your first love and your last love should always be you.
To the girl who’s afraid to let love in—it’s okay to let it in come to terms with the fact that no one is ever really “yours” there are people out there that don’t wanna hurt you and in fact wanna love you while you’re simultaneously loving yourself and learning yourself all over again. Don’t allow your past to hinder you from what’s yours and from what you are deserving of. When it’s genuine and it’s authentic magic it’s beautiful what can be made. Let love come in—in all forms let it embrace you it’s scary I know but love shouldn’t hurt.
To the girl who is struggling to live I hope it gets better for you. For us. I wonder what the future looks like for you if you just keep fighting—I know it’ll be beautiful. Please keep fighting.