I trusted you.
I trusted that even if I let go of your hand,
you'd never let go of mine.
I trusted you.
I trusted that you would listen to understand,
not listen only to retaliate.
I trusted you.
I trusted that you were my go to person,
not the one who had to walk away from me.
I trusted you.
I trusted that you would argue until it's fixed,
not punish me with silence and distance.
I trusted you.
I trusted that you would stay with me,
not walk out of the house and not come back.
I trusted you.
I trusted that you would come back wanting me,
not back only coz I asked you to return.
I trusted you.
I trusted that you want me even through this,
not just be with me coz you have to.
I trusted you.
I trusted that you love and care for me,
not just said so and still had the courage to walk out.
I trusted you.
or maybe that wasn't trust.
Perhaps...
I assumed you.
I assumed that you'd hold my hand,
even if I'd let go.
I assumed that you listen and understand me,
even if you're only going to retaliate.
I assumed that you were my go to person,
even if you wanted to walk away from me.
I assumed that you would argue until it's fixed,
even if silence and distance were mere threats.
I assumed that you would stay with me,
even if you wanted to walk out and not come back.
I assumed that you would come back wanting me,
even if you would only return coz I'd have asked.
I assumed that you want me even through this,
even if you were only being with me coz you had to.
I assumed that you loved and cared for me,
even if you had the courage to walk out.
I assumed you. And thought I'd trusted you.
Coz isn't that what you do,
when you love and think you really know someone?
Trust them and assume them?
Maybe that's where I went wrong.
I should've trusted you for who you are.
Or assumed differently.
Maybe I should learn the difference between the two.
Maybe I should learn to love better.
Maybe I should...