I want you to talk to me
But you're shutting me out
Like the world does with impending doom

But do you think that it's helping
Cause if you do, I bet you've doubt
You're not the only person in this expanded room

I'm here, waiting, with my arms open wide
When you come to me, and I comforted you, don't be surprised
I only want you to feel love, joy, and cared for

I will never leave you to fight the battle alone
Because I've been living in this world as a ghost all on my own
I am forever your best friend, and I am your ally in this war.

They ask me why I am quiet but I don’t answer, I am not quiet I am silent

In my dreams there are smoke
detectors and crashes and lies.
There is a kiss in an atrium right
before it catches fire. There is placate,
stay straight, evacuate.
Neodymium nitrate always smells
a certain way and always looks
a certain blue. Why does an alarm
go off after I dream I've kissed you,
but never if you kiss me?
What doesn't my brain want me to see?
As Orion slinks into view
I stand mixing solvents at the centrifuge.
There is always a healthy dose
of things I don't know. Always something
for Orion to pin with her next arrow.
If I am not here, asking questions of the world,
demanding answers from what I put
into test tubes,
the next thing could be you.

Hello, spring flower.
Bloom for me.
Treat me kindly,
love me tenderly,
hold me close.
Stay, spring flower.
Even when the fall arrives,
don't go.
Even when the morning comes,
don't leave me alone.

you have this fear of answers
but cant stop overthinking questions

the first time he told her he couldn’t love her she asked

       what did i do wrong?

the first time he told her he would never love her she asked

         why am i not enough?

-part 2

the first time she told him she loved him he asked

     how

she looked him in the eyes and said

     how could i not

-part 1