When I kiss him
It feels as if it were the sun and the moon, when they kiss at dawn.

How many times will I have to repeat? Laying half asleep, feeling half dead.
I watched you across the room, your staring right at me. Eyes dark like the sea, heart like stone. It surrounds
Me, slowly engulfs me. I'm left alone, I'm left alone.
I wish you knew how I loved you, how I still do, and always will. But what is love if it's not selfless? When everyone's selfish. I don't know, I don't know.
Sometimes I feel so lonely, like no one really knows me. They don't feel what I feel.. And it's hard to wake up from this daydream, when my life seems to dark to be real, it can't be real..
How many times will I have to repeat?

Sometimes I dream I never existed. That I was just an echo, an essence.
Life was not meant for me.
I feel alone in the shadows, forever a dark cloud above me. Will it always rain acid?
Does it even matter anyway? When it burns my skin I can't feel it anymore.

Staring at the ceiling
Feeling like nothing
Sticky stars that don't glow
The chipped polish on my toes
I don't know

Leaning barey breathing
Feaning to feel something
cool breeze from the window
The way my guitar echos
I don't know

Grieving never sleeping
Trying to stop sighing
But this heat is overwhelming
Where do I go can you tell me
You don't know

And with one last breath she said his name, with one final step not made in vein.. A glassy glance at a picture in hand, a final dance, but not hand to hand. Her tears run hot, down her pale white cheek. she just wants to close her eyes and fall asleep..

Can you love me, just for tonight?
Hold me close, squeeze me tight. Oh

Lets pretend I'm nothing like those other girls, lets pretend I matter  in your world. Oh

All your secrets are safe with me. I see much deeper than what others see, in you.

Would it make a difference if I wrote you a song? How did I get so used to being so wrong, with you.

knowing you is not easy.
All you scars deepened within me.
Oh
ill be right here if you need a friend.
I'll be here, until the end..for you.

Can you love me, just for tonight?
Can you love me just for tonight?

I still hear your voice sometimes. Or maybe I'll feel your hands running through my hair, your hair. I look
Like you, I have so much of you in me. I wish you could watch me grow, but you'll never know me. I didn't know you when you died.. I knew the person you used to be. I still miss you sometimes. The pain isn't getting less worse, just less heavy..

Life falls
Hits the ground.
It Fills up all the empties.
Fall into me, fill me till I'm full.
Scatter across my face and hair.
I welcome you and I won't hide from you. I know you give me life.
Beauty, eternity, natures magic.
Pour all down on me.

Endure this..
Yet another piece falls.
Forgiveness, has taken it all.
My sanity? My hope? Yet clinging still is my song. Found somewhere in the back of my head. This plays on repeat, like a faint echo of what used to be a symphony.. If I let it completely go what will be left? Just an empty hollow hole where all
My love used to live.

I kissed the spiraling sunlight when it traced my teared cheek. I felt the glow, way down below, graze upon my feet. I lifted lips and limbs until I reached the sorrowed sun. It whispered flames, and fumes to say, "it's only just begun.."

He's got eyes that I can't deny make my heart skip a beat.
And he's got a smile that every once in a while makes me not breathe.
Take me away.

I breathed you in, to take a piece of you.
I stitched you into my skin.
I want to feel you next to me warm and deep within.

Your warm brown eyes they follow me but you don't make a sound.
and when you are not next to me I still feel you around.

I'm laying in the dark walls I'm hiding from your love.
and when I dream your true of heart, I'll descend from up above.

I'll wait for an eternity but not a moment more
And maybe this time around it will be better than before..

Drink down in the basement, dont forget to close the door.
Following your eyes, till im staring at the floor.
Reaching out for you to take my hand but it can't feel, the mess I made inside of you I pretend that Im not real.

Standing like a ghost right outside the door.
wondering if this little heart, and mind could take much more.
This agony, and uselessness gets really hard to bare.
I don't want to tell anyone, because nobody will care..

You say you don't know what you want, and I know who I want to be.
You say you don't know what to do, or you barley speak to me.
It's getting harder to move on, and it's getting hard to see..
Because the only path I have to walk, is the one you made for me.