What is my motherland?
Is it the dust that ravages my lungs
Or the bones of my ancestors
Humming softly the old and forgotten
What is my motherland?
Is it where I was born?
A piece of land, a group of people?

Or is it the place where
It's mothers are graded
In layers
Where some wombs only give birth
To sub humans
Where some wombs are scarred
Born from the ashes of a thousand dreams burnt down
I'm a survivor
Of all they could throw at you

Of all their insults
The predicament
My mother's womb that withstood all it could
And some more

They tell me this is my land
That it is my mother
The birth giver and sustainer of life
I spit on their faces
My motherland never was this piece of land
Or the people who **** on its soul
Each and every day
My people lived in a different world
On this piece of land where we were  worse than animals to you

Where is my motherland?
I have none
Robbed of it since my birth
Where is my motherland?
But in the hearts of all who are like me
Set in stone
Yet defying gravity

A soft touch of your lips
Caress my ears
Pouring life into my veins
My soul brought back as redemption
The world swirls around you and I
Dropping all concern or restraint

I feel all that I could feel
I feel all that I ever wanted
Your eyes hold me down to this earth
Your eyes make me fly

The snow melted
As the sun rose up raging
Creating and destroying
All of its creations

She came by with a smile
Into the cold damp place
That was my heart
Filling up the space

She whispered quietly
Do you want to build a snowman?

Awakening from
the dust
Leading me into the open
Each time I heard her say
Do you want to build a snowman?

The sun and its storms
Can't destroy it all
Everything perishes eventually
Yet the last inch of you remains
That is what your heart contains

Deepening my
long lost trust
Of this world so frozen
Each time I heard her say
Do you want to build a snowman?

Speeding down paths I never knew existed.
My troubled mind and troubled heart always had you for company. I could have died in your arms. I was at home finally when I was close enough to your heart that I could hear its beats.

It seems odd now that I have to stay away. That your arms are a shield around the very heart I helped mend, which was as much yours as mine. That I never took back my heart from your *****, where it will always stay.

And though I may become bitter, or I may try and erase you from my head, you will always be there. Like a meteorite on earth, you hit me at full speed, right down to my core. I was changed in ways I couldn't have imagined possible.

I'm homesick now. I try find you in other people. I try building new homes. But I buried my heart near yours and that is where it will always stay. I could have died in your arms. I was at home. Finally.

Crawl crawl
Burning through
Obsessions
Rotten stew
Crawl crawl
Through the pain
Remission
Is a joke
And life was a game
But is a remainder
of screwups and screwdowns

Crawl Crawl
Burning through
Possessions
Deadbeat crew
Crawl crawl
Forgotten stains
Permission
Is always denied
And rebuttals dumped
In trash cans full
of screwups and screwdowns

Drilling a hole
Finding geodes where a core was
Cold and dark and empty
Drilling a hole
Finding loneliness inside
It is who you are

Extinguished supernovae
Could have contained
And still the darkness would have stayed
Crawl crawl
burning through
your house of cards
melting all definitions
You're a screwup
Still alive

Scream out
with my brave heart
on the edge
Inside, a rage

Perception,
is unworthy itself
judged to death
Stop smokin' ****

Tick tock
A bomb inside
Fall apart, the second you look at me
A billion suns rage in my heart
Poseidon roars in my head
Worlds fall apart
And we're back to the start

Stuck
The tape keeps on repeating
No disgust or hate
I just cannot relate
Anymore
Any longer
Stuck
Here I can't escape
Even though I ran
And I changed
I stayed the same

Too tired to sleep
Too afraid to dream
Stuck in a bowl
A delicate stream holds me
Down to sanity
Stuck
Here I can't escape

Tried courage
Valiant I was defeated
My dreams won't let me in
Stuck
Here I shall never
Escape my fate
Insanity cackles
Taunting each vein
I'm still running
Too tired to wake up
Too tired to fight
Stuck

Butterfly
Fly close
Close to me
Flutter By

Reminders
Coming up
Sinking back
Remind us

Running
Away from
Who you were
Who you are

Floaters
Not for you
Suicidal
the hearts bled

So Butterfly
Keep close
To this heart
Flutter by

Blamed it
Irresistible gravity around
Blamed it
Sinking in the ground
Faster than the speed of light
Blamed it all
On a tunnel of hyperspace
Faster than the speed of light

Waiting for explanations
Hope and retributions
Waiting for you

A moment passes
Or is it a year?
Questions become mundane
A moment passes
Inimitable carrier
Waiting for explanations

Faster than the speed of light
Blamed it
On nothingness
And blamed
My existence
****** in with no escape
The tape stuck in my head
My resistance
Slowly being replaced
By despair instead

Two pieced
My bones are wilting away
****** inside the wonderland
Two pieced
My two souls are drifting away
Stuck inside a corner on the edge

Up and down is immaterial
Only thing real is then and now
Two pieced
My heart has been tormented
Pieces don't recognize
The wholes of themselves

Like shattered remains of children
From a warzone dismissed
Everything is broken
Two pieced is my name
This way I still remain

Alone here
Another soliloquy in my head
Only desires live
and the living dead
Alone here
An abyss for company
Only desires live
and the dreams faraway

Million voices swirl
A black hole in a milkyway
They sparkle and shine
While I drift away

Million voices swirl
The Sun and the Moon and the stars
Collide to condense
****** in an apocalypse
Licking their fresh scars

Darkness cuts into the deepest corners
Living off the bright
Out of mind
Out of sight

Alone here
As the fates divined
Dark and Light
Intertwined

Rivets of words
Like swords in a gunfight
Silence roars
Like love, without light
A singularity
of frightful might
Ravages the desert
and storms the memories, in
That little backyard of your own

Stories you shall tell
of places far and near
Reminiscence is cute
But it won't last, dear
A billion sparks
Drive you close to tears
Won't I wonder, whats inside
closing your eyes, its
That little backyard of your own

Denial is just a game
Still you run forever
Looking back again
A dreadful fever
Nobody wants to die
Nobody can live forever
Won't you hold my hand
For a moment, in
That little backyard of your own

Unruffled,
those feathers tell me
how rough its all been
But it can never be
can never be,
the same again

Disastrous
Your skin is so cold
Take away
All you're told
How can it ever be
Can it ever be
the same again

A silence in the breeze
A hope thats reeled
Just a steely mime
But I have no regrets
No regrets
This time

Not equal
We are not born equal
I'm born in a naked cage
Open hostilities
A crown of thorns etched into our being
Namelessness is considered a gift

We are not born equal
The weight of expectations
The brunt of brutal suppression
Of our existence
Is incomparable
The pain that we never deserved
Yet is destined for us

Religion defined me
Contained me
Yet changing it
Abandoning it
Does not break my chains
Often I wonder
When people cannot realize
The wholesale selling of humanity

There is a pain inside my chest
It slowly unfurls
To show its hideous face
And yet its not hideous
It terrifies me
Because its no manifestation of a physical condition
It is the child of the small imbalances triggered by the moving of a thousand suns and their descendants
In mysterious ways

There is a pain inside my chest tonight and I cannot tell you how much it hurts to have not felt this before
To see and think and feel the way a hundred thousand have done before and I'm going insane
Stuck in this battle inside my head
Roars of machinations faraway and souls so close to my own it terrifies me

There is a pain inside my chest
It wants me to live again
A demonic beast
With a distilled heart of magnificent proportions demands action
And it lives inside all of us
We simply learn to live with it, like some lifelong pain of heartbreak or the smell of flowers you liked or the the warmth of the sun upon your skin after a long winter night or

The smile on a face so akin to mine
I'm looking for definitions but I'm out of words now
I need a gun and bam
Shoot myself where it hurts the most
But I won't
The pain inside my chest is a story
Of a thousand years
Of pain
Of suffering
Of loss
And the slight cracks from where light escapes and flirts with the darkness
And the life that emerges out of nowhere to defy all
To defy even god
The pain inside my chest is the same as the one inside yours
Veiled by a smile
Or thoughts
Unavoidable disasters
Manifesting its own life, its sorrows and tears
Its own joy, its own love and its own sun

There is a pain inside my chest
Guess this is what it means to be human

Rag picker on the street
Dust eater and maggot breather
She can tell the smell
Of burning plastic and paper
Of turning dung to soil
She knows the ways
Between the hills of refuse
Between the footfalls of her children
But who cares who she is
The lost and never found
Inherited a kingdom thrown away

Who cares what she thinks
She finds meanings in a bottle
Looks at a glossy magazine and wonders
Her slightly bent back aches
Sun ravages her skin each day
Brazen with resistance like herself
Her skin glistens with labors each day
Filling her heart with hazy dreams

Who cares what she sees
She hears those kids play faraway
A world insulated from her own
Where plastic is used and thrown away
And the worst smells won't make you sway
She sees the worth of this world
For what it truly is
She lives in the belly button
Never forgetting it was the beginning
And it may be the end

But who cares what she says
She's just another sweeper
Another rag picker
Treasure hunter and bounty filler
She sings old forgotten ballads
Songs with no beginnings
Songs with no creators
As she looks for something
An old school bag, a plastic earring

But who cares who she is
Just another one of these
Souls in an eternal sea
They never were
They never will be
An entire generation
Of nonentities
Forgotten children of Destiny

Here lay the souls of the dark
Under the deadly nightshade
Here the fair are sundered apart
Doomed are those who tarry

Sleeping under the Sorcery
The Necromancer is biding
A living desolation
The brave and the fair are falling
Here lay the foes of life

Its too dark in here
And I can't seem to escape
The burden created
All let off on my nape
While the soulless go on quietly

And as we slowly march on now
Sunshine from our hearts bellows
A warcry never heard before
Of the Flood of Mutiny

See the blinding flash
The ray of hope falling around
And I can feel the rush
As though the sirens sound
The doorstep of destiny

Over the meadows that I played
All the sunshine, all the rain
All that made our life worthwhile
Taken from us

All the things I loved and lost
All the things I want back now
You know how you feel inside
As the sirens sound
For the Flood of Mutiny

That silence crept up behind you
And you didn't have a chance
Unfailingly it shall remind
The seas you've crossed
The times when greed made you blind

Stopping round the corners where
You find some missing parts around
Where you find these lovers abound
That is when you know it all
And you just go stop and stare

One hand up and one hand down
Scooping up the stories around
I've got them in a bag inside
While I twist fate in a frown
Gathering all the dreams inside

That the story left incomplete
And left you wondering
What might have been and what may be
The skies you've seen
The times of utter frivolity

Strange creatures all making homes
Light and dark all make it gray
Calling you for a permanent stay
That is when you don't realise
And your heart still roams

One hand up and one hand down
Searching all the hearts around
I've got them in a bag inside
While I twist fate in a frown
Gathering all the dreams inside

In a rapture, you just forget
You sway and tumble in a haze
Startled you keep steady yet
You want to stay eternally awake
Till your dreams would let

Over the storm and rocks you swam
Till you find the place you want
Its as though fate brought you here to taunt
As you don't have all whom you love
Was it all a ******* scam?

One hand up and one hand down
Keep gathering the stardust around
I've got them in a bag inside
While I twist fate in a frown
Gathering all the dreams inside

Your memory lingers around
Like the soft smell of wet earth
Like the persistence of old parchment
Of burning rubber and gas stoves
Of cinnamon and crushed cloves

I can feel you
Even in the very air
I can breathe you in
So far
Yet so close

A cold star with a fiery heart
Words like flames that rip apart
all shields of this fallen heart
Your words hang around
Unsung sonnets and sounds

I can hear you
Even in the core of my being
I can touch you
So far
Yet so close

Drilled and enforced
You're nothing but
Dependent and controlled
And you like being told

Humanity uncloaked
Firefights stoked
Denial is justice
Denial of malice

You're the children
of hammered satire
Automatons on fire
Automatons and liars

You run around the world
But you're not asunder
You're the atlas too
The weight is on your shoulder

Prententious thoughts
Remembrance is fraught
Denial is justice
Denial of malice

You're the children
of limbless desire
Automatons on fire
Automatons and liars

And thats all you are
All flesh and bone
Only an automaton
Only an automaton

The smell of death burns the lungs
Of a hundred thousand innocents
Steel on steel, minds on minds
Destiny is out of your hands
And you're the only one standing
A million women are still weeping
Their sons who shall never wake
What is it that you'll still take?

Do you think you are still alive?
Give up all your pathetic chores
Surrender yourself to the sword
Lay your heart down to the God of War

Sticks and stones can **** you now
Even though you escape somehow
Don't tell me it was all mistakes
You bloodied all the pools and lakes
But hey now blame the God of War
I only know what I speak for
Your demons are out in daylight
Your lust for blood you can't deny

And do you think you're still alive?
Come now all of your heartsores
Surrender yourself to the sword
Lay your heart down to the God of War

A war inside your head is on
And you've been barely holding on
Revenge is all that you crave for
Denial is all that you stand for
You took the lives, you stabbed and swiped
And You killed till your heart felt awe
But hew now blame the God of War
I only know what I speak for

I know that you're aren't alive
You've been my minion all this time
You had but been a big wild boar
Your heart has me, the God of War

A silent breath
and a realisation
You're alive again

The malicious sheath
and a realisation
Mischief's afoot again

But the birds chirp
the wind howls
Look beside
A lover found
And you decide
Nothing is disturbed

In the shades
lurked a beast
who wished nothing
But to feast
On your dreams
In the least

A heartbeat skipped
and a realisation
You're chained

The earth shook around
But rage didn't consume you
You bowed and mistook
And death went through you

The beast ravaged
All you loved
Life was an endeavor
And you dropped
Your arms

A tear crimson
and a realisation
of the frission

Your heart, mourning your death
You hope for the best, you do
Refusal, denial, fear
But death went through you

The beast afraid
Of your light
Life was loved most
But you'd dropped
Your arms

It started to rain
Touching you
It started to pain
Where you feel them butterflies
Where you soak yourself
During anguish and pain

The war cry
and a realisation
You can still try

The chains broken
Melted the prison inside
The beast thawed
And led away
Disbelieving and dismayed

Your spirit unbroken
Though death went through you
Words yet outspoken
Though death went through you

Your fight is over
To be in peace
But yet to begin
Is another epic
Live the feeling

The heart back from stone
and a realisation
That you're not alone

The revelry of wanderers
The mystic hunger of lovers
The amusement of the wise
The sun shining for the flowers
Falling in, you realise
The love and its wonders

A speck of shining metal
And memories ethereal
And the plots you devise
Can only get more surreal
Falling in, you surmise
The love is corporeal

The thoughts make you shiver
And you shall surrender
To memories you fraternise
Though one must remember
Falling in, memorise
The love was real

The easiest thing
Is to live a lie
Slowly tempting your body and soul to an event horizon which has no escape here
Its the easiest thing
Done by a broken heart
When it is lied to
Always remembering each goodbye and moments of affection piercing through
A list of melancholic ways to die
Staggering your brain
Inviting you to dance and sing
For when you lose home
And when you lose hope
Its easier to live a lie

With my bones I made a cage
I wanted to keep you safe
But who knew I'd be dangerously close
To drift off, drift off in space

So I tore the cage apart
And you went back to the start
But who knew you'd tether me down
Tied down with the strings of your heart

And you unravel
Unravel till the end of time
And I drift off
Hoping I could see you once again
As you were

Shivers pass through
Your every breath
Uncontrollable fear
Nothing is clear

Shivers pass through
Your every thought
You could run away
You could stop and stare

Slow-mo sickness
Know all the grains of sand
Repetitiveness
Destiny in your hand

Shivers pass through
Your every word
Soul-stained, taint
Incoherent and quaint

See you're thinking
Remembering the old
The loving
and the untold
Stories,
Forgetting
A moment I didn't miss
I couldn't help but kiss
The last remainder you were
In my head you are
In my heart you were

Stars reposition
to bring the
already happened
long lost cadaver
Lets stall the inevitable
The longing indubitable
The longing insufferable
The last remainder you were
In my head you are
In my heart you were

Your inquisition
Is in denial
And there is
No justification
No consolation

The darkness envelopes
Your desires
But you should know
Erased by persistence
The ignominy of existence

Drum beats falling on
Up on your innermost heart
Raise your shackles
Pull the burden on
To where the lights lead on

Your destination
Is from your own heart
And there is
No alternation
No surrogation

So cut the rope and
Fall loosely, breathe in
The sweaty air, the despair
The broken heart of the land
The footprints on the sand

And drag the shackles
Till they crumble, or you do
Till your feet bleed
Till the very earth rumbles
Till the dictator humbles

Sleeping heart
Beats slowly as if fighting
The hands of time
Sleeping heart
Wounded from the warring
Thy ****** crime

Sleeping heart
Croons slowly, out of tune
Whispering lullaby
Sleeping heart
Howling under a blue moon
Cowardly calamity

Liar liar
Weeping slowly
Liar liar
Scheming
Dastardly liar

Sleeping heart
Calmness and composure
Corrugated tin roof
Sleeping heart
As you were
As you are
Your dark innocent grave
Sleeping heart
Fly away to dreams

Still learning what to say
What to feel and what to wear
Deranged and damaged goods we are

Like madmen running naked wild
Like old men trying to play with fire
Deranged and damaged goods we are

A Generation in a haze
All our dreams have been tased
Too many noises all around
Too many hearts broken abound

Running and jumping
We're just desecrating
The flesh and blood in the fire
Screaming and shouting
We're just all repeating
The anthems of denial

A generation in a haze
All our dreams have been chased
Too many noises all around
Too many hearts broken abound

Like psychopaths defile
Like those in pain who smile
Deranged and damaged goods we are

Like demented empty shells
Like a living regret
Deranged and damaged goods we are

Capsized
My heart has sunk again
As a crimson iceberg struck
Bittersweet disdain
by the Gods above
Realizing I got stuck

In a starry sea
Under moonlit remains
We met in a hurricane
Capsized
My heart has sunk again

The moon whispers soliloquies
Legends and tales of eternal love
Mysteries and Immensities
Legends and tales of you and I

In a fiery haze
Under the silent refrain
of the crackling of fire
Our eyes met again
Nothing else made sense
Nothing else mattered
Nothing

Capsized
My heart has sunk again
Don't save me
From love's domain

Fall from the clouds
Never looking back
Fall into the sea below
Never coming back

An eternity shall pass
But the shadows of your being
Will endure forever
Thoughts do trespass
The unliving, believing
Delaying the delayer

A fall of freedom
Shattering the bonds
Here comes queendom
And betraying chords
Of lovers and justices
For words are never the same
For another unbeliever

Falling down
Memories will catch your heartbeat
Rend your soul
Into a thousand brilliant suns
Beyond control

An eternity shall pass
But the fragrance enduring
Will linger forever
Thoughts do trespass
The unliving, believing
Delaying the delayer

Close your eyes
So that you don't see a thing
Logic defies
And you're finally a prisoner
Bonded to death

That breeze through your hair
They way your knees go weak
You just want to stop and stare

Particles shatter
To show you the unknown
Nobody else matters
Now that you're a prisoner
Bonded to love

That smell of dried blood stains
Forever encumber your soul
Make you clutch your heart in pain

Take a breath
To remember the forgotten
Its undeniable
That now you're a prisoner
Bonded to life

That pain makes it all real
Inside your head
Inside your head

Naturally you wonder
Why gravity pulls on us
Why insanity asunder
That dastardly love
Makes you and I, Us

That dark rain
Separation down the street
Still is, yet I wonder
How I got to remember
How I got up to my feet

Naturally I wonder
Why the heart beats
Optimistic bequeather
It still hopes and beats
Where the aurora sleeps

They came marching for Us
They hated what we had
They came marching for Us
They wanted us to flee
Flee for all we had

Sharp stabs over and over again
Learnt it the hard way
Left me in a heap
A lovelorn defunked stain
Washed away in a stargaze
Annihilation

The rockets came over to call me
Call me back to life
But I was never away
Imperfection was my game
Call me back to life
I pray over and over again

Death has the strongest hold
Yet we fall into hallucinations
Wish to live forever
Love is the most painful jolt
Yet we dive into affections

Sharp stabs over and over again
Learnt it the hard way
Bedazzled my love
I'd take all of the pain
To be a reminiscence
Souvenir

The heart is broken
The dark swallows
All that is left
Words that were spoken
The rest will follow
Like emotional theft

Symphonies of destruction
Have raided us
Annihilate the peace
Words are banal notions
Of half dead masses
Half-slaughtered

Save yourself
The comfort
of Denying the reality
Your demons shall all
Be laid bare now
The frailty of banality

Its time
Finally
To wake up
Go shake
the leaves
come upon you
And wake up

Hustle
Through the little death
Ragged
The sword in sheath
Rumble
Through your fear
Thunder
It will all clear

The shining light outside
Is the biggest ever lie
Get to the dark side of the moon
Yet hope there shall find
The nook where everything lined
Makes us human, makes us cry

Surrender
To nobody, not even you
Obedience
Is a humdrum virtue
Traveller
Everywhere alone
Reverence
Don't heed

Its time
Finally
To wake up
Recover
The debris
Your heart
And wake up

Come under this shield of mine
Hold on so very tight
Excruciation may turn you down
Though you may go back in time

The seeds of frustration around your feet
Let go of all but this shield
Embracing all but this defeat
Let go of all but this shield

Never ask what you'd never tell
Come as close as you might
You might still turn the night down
Holding back, you never fell

Raindrops falling down on us
All I have now is my shield
Fueled up by my desires
All I have now is my shield

Fires want to consume you
And I would gladly burn down now
Taking your miseries out of town
Can't let you feel the blue

Demons and Gods and everything else
Nothing can touch you now
My heart, My shield won't let you down

Returning a favor
I had once owed someone
Much more than all of this
More than all of me
Returning the favor
I had once seen far and wide
Feelings my spirit screamed for
Trembling
Overwhelmed

Innocuous as it seems
I have owed others too
They who turn the wheels
On this broken down station wagon
Crank it up
Or slow it down

I had once heard
Deeply, freely
Music that emerged
Cacophony unbalanced
But innocence immaculate
Returning the favor
As I return to where I was
Holiday's over

But as I return home
Something has changed
The sounds of musicals
Something has changed
Ineffable, invincible
I have owed a lot
I hope I've given enough

Jettisoning off all
Wilting away all
Like an autumn memory
Like an instant tragedy

Crumbling away
Moldings of affection
In a nuclear winter
Without armageddon
I died
A soft shell annihilation
No dreams but nightmares
I died
A lovely execution
Nothing but emptiness

Eradicating away all
Except you, nothing at all
Like an autumn memory
Like everlasting banality

A palace on the clouds
A dream on my skin
A love unaffordable
A life in my rein

Shallow doubts
on the existence
I know not who I am
A part of the resistance


Anyone can run
Some may still fight
But I shall stop
Jump off the horizon
A sea of serenades
Awaiting my return
A time of waiting
A time to mourn


Break a glass ceiling
emblazon the heart
With a wail of the proud
A never-ending run
A forlorn start
A piece of the brave
A piece of the strong

On another day
like a feather in a cloudless sky
I'll run, as I've never run
I'll do, as I've never done
Things from my heart
My innermost desire
Wishes of the liar


You have been denying
The thoughts millionfold
Running amok
'Cause you never jump up high
'Cause you never fly in the sky
Reality is reserved
The cautious denier
Wishes of the liar


Deem it unsavory
Words don't do justice
for such a feeling
Stop and stare, beyond the stars
Stop and stare, its yours, its ours
Live a future
Of love-stoked fire
Wishes of the liar

When the sun stops shining
And the thunder starts
When the winds start blowing
And the hope departs

Stones and ashes, blood and bones
All remains buried and broken
Walking necropolises
And seemingly lovestruck zombies
Loving in despair
**** your heart before you love
Loving in despair

When the seas stop grinding
And sickness arrives
When the orbits dwindling
Shall all collide

Cruel and despondent slaughter
Ritually cannibalistic
Talking brevities of pain
And seemingly awestruck corpses
Loving in despair
**** your heart before you love
Loving in despair

When the stars are exploding
And the dreams shatter
When the trees stop flowering
And the Earth denies all

Your faithful betrayal
Of love and all its colors
Your truthful denial
Of hurt and all the stumbles

Your fight against the world
Your fight for us
As you went against the world
Your fight for us
Lay in shambles
Just as your heart did
Just as my heart still does

I surrendered ere long
To this sweet misery
And sweeter despair belongs
To our story

Your ferocious cherishing
Of life and its ecstasy
Your eternal anamnesis
Of you and me

Your fight against the world
Your fight for us
As you went against the world
Your fight for us
May not have saved us
Neither our serendipity
Neither our inseperableness

Justice lay dead
Lying on the floor
The three that died inside

All I felt was
Desperation
I wish I could deny
The bullets that would
Hail around
Still felt me yet alive
I still lived
But for a reason
A bloodlust deep inside

I took my gun
And went to war
I killed till none survived
Looked around
There were a million smiles
As though it was divine

But justice lay dead
On the floor
And I saw my face inside
Demons My Divine
But I'm his own criminal

She fought for you
A ride despicable
And you saw the truth
The truth undeniable
In her womb lie mysteries
Mysteries of love
Love and hate


She whispers
In slow shallow words
The song of a mother
The lullaby
She whispers
In the toughest times
The song of a defender
The warcry


She taught you fear
Fear from your own demons
Fear of the depravities
Fear, that makes you dead
She taught you love
Love for all the things
Love for the unkind
Love, that makes you alive


So sing for her
For not just her pride
For its her life

When my old friend
Walks through the door
He's come a long way with me
Constant companion
My fiercest combatant
An old corollary
Of my ****** up existence
I simply take him
Close in my arms
And rest while weeping tales away
Waiting till he wanders off
And someday he'll be back again

I just wish
When my old friend revisits
I'm jolly stocked with hearty ale
And songs to sing of old and new

Robbed
Of light and sanity
Recourse
Is dead and buried
The final frailty
The fallen saintly

Your breath is slow and sure
But time reels off on its own
Just another trip around the sun
Just another destiny set in stone

Robbed
From the event horizon
Flung
To the galaxies far
The final mercy
The fallen star

What do I do?
With all these thoughts
They run around in this room
Where I fear their doom
What do I do?
Of the quiet ravages
These savages cut me inside
Where lies a deep divide

Thousand words
Dumber than space itself
The beast lies still
As the beauty dies

Remember when you said
You'd remember me forever
And here I am stuck forever
In this painful void
Where I fear my doom
What do I do?
Of the quiet ravages
These savages cut me inside
Where lies a deep divide

Thousand words
Dumber than space itself
The beast lies still
As the beauty dies