nobody prepares you
for the day
you lose
your self-worth,

nobody tells you,
"just because you can
do something, doesnt mean you should"

i have nothing left to lose
and so much more to gain

I just want to love
you completely,
unrestrictedly,

but I also have to
protect the very
thing that wants
to that

To my abuser,

I know you will never
be attached to me
the way I am attached to you,

but dear,
that's because you are broken
and you're addicted to
projecting your pain,

and I'm here picking up
all of my pieces,
trying to heal.

I pick me,
I choose me,
I love me.

No,
I don't wish you the best,

because that would be
getting to hold me
in your arms,
just like in the good old days,

rendering me
stuck in your trap.

you envy me for my resilience,

but you forget
the way I break harder than needed.