Sleepless night breaks to dawn of exhaustion, still I rise.
The burdens of pain lock my feet to the ground.
Cowering and cloaked in a robe of sadness.
Deep breath.
Visions of your eyes in my head show reflection of myself, a glimmer of beauty.
I shed the layers of weighted grey.
Hands reaching down with all my strength, pull one foot at a time out of the boots muddied by my tears and trodden soil.
I stand tall, shoulders back.
Hesitant to move I close my eyes,
back to the reflection of yours.
New found courage conjured by your unconditional love.
Exhale.
I step forward wearing hope.

Be still my rebellious, rambunctious heart.
For you often beat too fast for your own good,
when you haven't the first clue at how to start.

Be still and know, my soul, the voice of God.
For it is still and soft...just a whisper
Because he is close, and I am awed.

Be still my judgement, you shouldn't have to move at all.
You should know your place is for thy self.
You needn't be in use for others, this is not your call.

Be still my understanding, for you are lesser than the understanding of God.
You have a narrowed perspective.
But I am only human, a sinner, and this understanding I have is flawed.

I don't want to be the big banyan tree
majestically standing tall in the field
jealous men scratching it all day, I can see
stealing it's shadows and breaking the branches
still it offers home to all these lonely birds
in all this brutality, how tolerant it can be !

                         I am not worthy of all this empathy

I choose to be a small ****, instead
hiding in the beauty of so many like me
and making this barren land, bucolic green
I am happy with a butterfly, hugging me once a while
for after a short life, I will either satisfy a cow's appetite
or be stamped to death by the ignorant juvenile
                              
                 Wishing­ for happiness, but being stealthy
                      *I am not worthy of all this empathy

Deep in my thoughts
Alone inside as wind blows
The thought of no one cares
The battle everyday to fix the puzzle
That  is me so miss understood
I wish  you would understand
I wish u could see me for me
The thoughts flow threw my mind
I wonder if  people can see me
So lost inside  on my knees
In the middle of the road
With no place go
All i have are my words
The sadness keeps me wake
But when will this end
i can't give up but i have  to change
In this world we battle and see road is to see hope

It's funny how people keep talking about love

but when anger comes
love fades away

©IGMS

Don't expect too much from me

'cause my days are numbered

'cause my lights are limited


In the end

You' ll gonna throw me


broken

©IGMS

Just pretend that you don't know me

And I'll just pretend too
That I don't have feelings for you

©IGMS

I talk
                                                            ­               but all of my words are sin

I move
                                                            ­               but all of my actions are sin

I think
                                                           ­               but all of my thoughts are sin

I dance
                                                           ­               but all of my rhythms are sin

I sing
                                                            ­              but all of my tones are sin

I write
                                                           ­                but all of my poems are sin

All of me is a sin

I am a sin

©IGMS

You came to me as a glimmer of hope in my eyes, making me whole.
The joyous days with you passed in a matter of hours, seemingly seconds, gone.
You exited my world mirroring how you entered...
I felt you part,  tearing through my body, ripping through my being,  
leaving me an empty pile of self on the floor.
Only your silhouette space left in my heart.
I can only hope, with all the will I still cling to...
One day your energy will return to me, a new soul reunited.