The roaches on my doorstep They show nights of neglect Follow me to darkness for I’ve not yet wept Sweep me under doormats and follow path The untimely death was apart of the wrath Breaching the veil I’ve not yet pushed through Legs start to quiver at those thoughts of you Will I be met by the moon Or shall she lay dormant Whispering to stars of my utter torment Clawing at life she has found her strife Not until mourning will I be cut by son’s knife Whisked away the smokes of today Unable to lay safely in the bed I have made Clothed in mindfulness I shriek at joy Just another game; and I am the toy
10. I’m sorry that it’s taken me this long to immortalize you in writing- To put you in a place for the world to see and for me to always find you. 9. I’m sorry that upon learning that I could ask for help from you, I made it a pattern and climbed you like a trellis for my personal growth 8. I’m sorry that every time we sat down to have a meal together, it felt like I never got the recipe right: Always missing a little color, a little spice. 7. I’m sorry that I used my 'passenger break' so much Not only when I thought you were going to crash into the car in front of us, but whenever I felt like we were getting to close to each other. 6. I’m sorry that I’m jealous of the girls across the room. Please try to understand that I spent months, no, years telling myself that I couldn’t be, would never be, worth “it”. Whatever “it” may be. 5. I’m sorry that I tried to give you advice, that I tried to weave pieces of my own story into yours, when you clearly aren’t finished working on it. Feel free to unknot those memories and take them out. 4. I’m sorry that I never made it a point to tell you how much I loved your skin. To this day I find myself falling asleep with my forearm to my mouth because I miss feeling your warmth on my lips 3. I’m sorry that I can’t let go; That seeing you succeed and do so well tears me right down the middle where my stretch marks have always been. 2. I’m sorry that I have a hard time trusting you when you tell me that I’m still important to you, and that this isn’t the end of our story. We’re both going to change and you know it. 1. I’m sorry that I couldn’t make you believe in us enough to make it work. I trust that this is for the best. But I should still tell you, I’m sorry for everything.
I made him leave because sleeping next to someone that smells differently than you would be a nightmare in itself. 2. I'm more lonely every second you ignore me than I was every year I spent alone 3. I don't know which is worse, the death I've felt since you left or the death I wish I had before you had the chance to leave. 4. How am I supposed to move forward with my life when my future was supposed to be with you? 5. An hour shouldn't feel like a galaxy away. 6. I watched it eat away every beautiful piece of you. 7. You were a volcano and after your irruption I don't know where to begin rebuilding my city.