Since the day you went away
I just wanna close my eyes 'til i sleep
Cause I rather see you in my dreams
Than wake up without you

I didn't notice you,
I didn't care,
I've been reckless,
So in the end I was the one hurt,
I wish I've noticed you before,
I wish I've been careful with you,
I wish is all I can say now.

Sometimes balancing on a rope
            is easier than being alive

That blade took its time as it tried to saw through me
But those words had no problem slicing deep
I could have cried when the scarlet poured down my arm
But I waited till the world was fast asleep

I guess you didn't notice anything alarming
Or you ignored what you didn't want to see
I locked my demons with my secrets and I hid them well
Even though I wanted you to find the key

God who's gonna cry for me
Feel the pain, hurt inside with me
When I'm alone and the hurt is too heavy to hold
God who's gonna cry for me
God who's gonna pray for me
Shine a light, bring some hope to me
If no one dared pray for Satan as he fell from the Lord
Then God who's gonna pray for me

my heart has run out of tears to shed
it feels wrong to be in love anymore,
to want to be held in arms that make me feel safe
to be protected within the walls of your eyes seems like a desire burning in the cremation of my soul,
I have lost nights to your memories
my days are shadowed in the darkness of your words
butchering the core of my existence.

Give me the words to fuel the fire
burning in my gut
It's growing stronger with every addition,
every insult, every cut
It's catching my blood a ablaze,
I feel my body burning up
Give me the words to fuel the fire,
I haven't had enough

Scares up my arms

Cuts down my legs

Memories fill my mind

Pain competes my days...

I pushed you out
I moved on my way.

Thank you for causing me so much pain, because now I can go a day without wanting you. And I am completely okay... So I say

Something is wrong with me,

I don't know what,

but I am different,

I feel different,

I don't feel like I fit in,

There is no place for me,

not in this society,

I am sorry,

but I am not -can not- be,

who you want me to be,

I am different,

Something is wrong with me,

I don't know what,

But something isn't right,

I am sorry,

I am not who I should be,

sorry that I don't fit in,

I can't help that something is wrong with me

Welcome to our society.
Where the teens are depressed,
And the students are stressed..
Where people will hate you,
For what you wear and your weight..
Where there's only *** no hugs,
And there is no candy just drugs..
Where we cut form an escape,
And the parents beat and ****...
Where laws forbid people of  being gay,
And everything is weary and grey...
So I hope you enjoy your visit with society,
Just try not to get depressed and anxiety..........

Silently you keep on walking fast
Bursting like bubbles that dont exist
You come and disappear like a shooting star
Tilt in directions against all my will

Slips from my hand like desert sands
You Affect the life of a million men
Like a gentle raindrop falling down
You make my past look dull and brown

You wont stop for anyone
For moon or stars or for us none
Look our time has just begun
Livin in its moment is what makes it fun

You have the power of almighty god
To paint a rainbow or set a sun
To give a birth and make him run
Or take a life and give him peace

You are the necessity of all our needs
You  start an evolution or make it seize
You are the witness of our ugly wars
Or our long everlasting history

You wont stop for anyone
For moon or stars or for us none
Look our time has just begun
Livin in its moment is what makes it fun

You act like a rollercoaster giving me thrills
Cant stop keeping an account of our daily bills
You run fast while my warm gentle kiss
Wont you care for my grief or bliss?

Time my friend is your standard for
To keep a check on these endless hours
And I wish all will spend it wise
It cant be brought back like a melting ice