This is my
This is my
Nightmare
This is your
This is your
Dream
We're not seeing eye to eye
I think it's time to say goodbye
Just need to figure out how to leave

You won't miss me when I'm gone.
In fact, you probably won't even know.
We never did get along--
so why should you notice if I go?

I've got my mind made up,
my bags all packed.
I've got some money in my pocket
and a full tank of gas.

I'll be leaving come daybreak.
I'll spare you the goodbye.
I wouldn't mind getting lost,
so I'll leave the map and just drive.

All I wanted was an excuse to stay;
All I got were reasons to leave.
So I'm getting out of this place
to find somewhere better for me.

You were always the strongest one among us.
But you payed the price to be so externally tough.
And now that our world has crashed and things have gotten rough,
we struggle completely by ourselves.

You never were one to cry so loudly.
And the pain behind your tears is quite astounding.
I want to pull you close to keep you from drowning,
but I need my limbs free to save myself.

Every time I swear I'm over it,
Something reminds me
I ain't over ****.

I see the madness
Festering inside
I watch it unfolding
From where I reside
Not quite within
But not without
Just barely and torridly
Floating about

If I remain here
I'll be eaten alive
But if I flee
It'll eat me up inside

Spinning 'round
Tumbling down
Falling ever faster

Can't catch my breath
Scared to death
What a disaster

With nothing else to do
I reached out for you
But no one was there

I dreamt too long
Reality has gone
All that's left is the nightmare.

We're both walking out the door,
Both in search of something more;
Neither of us sure of what
We are meant to be looking for.

They say you know it when you find it,
So I guess I haven't found it yet.
Age old question in my head:
What if this is as good as it gets?

They keep talking about love
Like it's some universal fact---
But from what I've known of love,
It is anything but that.

So don't throw it in my face,
Don't assume I'm incomplete,
If the person in the mirror
Is the best I ever meet.

Tell me of rivers that run through the glen
Elucidate the trees stretching high without end
Take me to places I've never been
Whisk me away in a song

You close your eyes
Now its through.
But he said that
He loved you.
But I guess
They always do.
Only, this time,
You loved him too.
Broken hearted,
Drowned in pain,
You try to run
But can't get away.
It's amazing
how you cry.
Deep within you
something dies.
Music fills
the empty space,
But your pain it can't erase
and his love
it won't replace.

You thought he'd listen,
But he won't.
You thought you'd care,
But you don't.

In a story never ending
little upsets aren't upending

You thought it was forever,
But it wasn't.
You thought it mattered,
But it doesn't.

You keep dreaming of
The idea of love
You read it, you weep it--endlessly seeking
But it's falsehoods that breed it
No wonder it's fleeting

And as it goes
In the madness you wallow
The empty, the still: a hard pill to swallow
With only the night to hold you tight
Nothing but wind caressing your skin

You want the man on the page
To love the girl in the mirror
You want the tears on your face
To purge, to erase
And make the flaws disappear

And it's not long before
You're falling once more
Can't find arms to embrace you
Nor lips to kiss you
And until mortals can soothe you
These abstractions must do

They're not but distractions
But they're all that fate has granted you

Here's to summers in the sand
All our best laid plans
That we never could see through
Here's to loving me and
Knowing you and

Days
Lost now in the haze
Romanticized by memory
Not truly you
Not really me, just

Time
That we have left behind
A time I never will forget
A time of love, and yet
A time I can't return to
That's not me
That isn't you, we've

Changed
Love faded away
Worse or better, whose to know
New things come as old ones go
I guess we'll see
So here's to you and
Here's to me

A lot of questions I never asked
(you didn't either).
A lot pictures scribbled black
(no reminders).
A lot of reasons I left like that
(I'm not a fighter).
A lot of times I swore I'd never look back
(but I'm a liar).

Sunburns that hurt like hell--
All the secrets we would tell--
Summer nights that wouldn't end--
Thank you for being my friend.

I want to write
to feel all right.
I want to bare my soul.
But I fear I bared it all
a long, long time ago.

I want to write
to feel all right--
to not bear it all alone.
But I am crushed by all I've borne;
There's no more of me to know.

Remember those nights?
In the summer? So fine.
How we ran around
and forgot about time?
Remember those games we made,
thinking us clever?
Oh, how we believed
that it'd last forever.
Climbing trees.
Scraping our knees.
Childhood laughter--
caught in the breeze.
Growing up was
so far away.
Monsters in closets
is what we believed.
And the friends that we had
would always be near;
There was nowhere else
except for right here.
But time came, at last,
when we started to change;
We cut our hair
and hated our names.
We started to think
about "wrong" and "right."
Breaking petty laws
in the cover of night.
Friends all changed,
along with the things that we did.
But I'll never forget
being a kid.
Back when troubles
didn't exist.
Back when it was
gross to be kissed.
And I'll always cherish
what we use to do.
Back in the day
when I was still friends with you.

I wander,
I roam;
someplace far from home.
All on my own.

I ramble,
I wade
through rivers and lakes.
For my own sake.

I venture,
I seek,
though tired and meek,
for something complete.

You stay sweet
You stay kind
You stay with me—your memory—
Entombed inside my mind

You wander out there now
As someone I have never known
I wonder if inside your head
The ghost of who I use to be
Also roams