blossoms breaking through
pink and white softens hard trees
slowly earth wakens
her breath making old bones new
the earth inhales once again

her breath frosts the grass
she sings high-pitched but softly
earth is calm and still
fingertips brush roof edges
leaving fresh glass icicles

ice and fire at once
fat rain washing over me
lying on the ground
soft or hard, no way to tell
everything becomes nothing

stroking your soft head
a quick kiss before I go
fresh soup when you're ill
the way your brown eyes soften
when you see my emotion

looking at the floor
don't notice my shiny eyes
tightness in my throat
screaming into a pillow
damp cheeks in early morning

eyes darting, searching
desperate for some clarity
wrinkling furrowed brow
jumbled words, meanings, symbols
aching within the forehead

two upturned corners
crinkling, sparkling, gentle eyes
shoulders perking up
puffed up cheeks lightly pinking
body curled up and stretched out

knot in the stomach
what have I done to you now?
years of memories
lips cracked and dry from biting
secrets swallowing me up

breath restrained in lungs
a tiny bright light inside
not allowed to grow
ifs, maybes, it's possible
silent prayers to all who hear

lifted up inside
eyes and mouth widely grinning
hands clap together
anticipation rising
going through the whole body

chest lifting with breaths
eyes and brows diagonal
mind clouding over
fists clenched and lightly trembling
blood rising up through the skin

stab in the belly
cravings for the forbidden
quiet resentment
constant comparing to you
always unattainable

lost in the darkness
no mind, no morals, no me
something, anything
fearing present and future
clutch at maybes, broken nails

The wolves are at my door
I let them in
They are my friends

The wolves are at my table
I offer them food
They are hungry

The wolves are at my throat
I smile at them
They are just joking

The wolves are at my window
I am in pieces
They are satisfied

Perhaps the worst thing
Is that I can't tell you when I'm happy
Because I'm afraid you'll make me sad