A shimmering void
Hazed my view

Unbeknownst to me
As I walked the staircase
I looked back
Only to be greeted by smiles

"I shall return" I said
And closed the book

Pearls remained on the silted floor
Dimmed rays cast over the abyss
As garlands cover the ceiling
The currents persist

Come forth and dance your ballet
And flow through the waves
In everlasting grace
And save me from my boredom

Burbles occur and the reef rejoices
As muffled voices
emanate from the heavens
For they are but dancers in the oceans

And we frown upon them

The past lurked over my shoulder
And stuck its claws in me
But a flower as bright as the sun
Took my hand and set me free

Birds seated themself nether
It spoke in intricate patterns
And intertwined around me
Collecting mellow droplets in its beak

The haven where fragments and shards
Once shattered form together
It is where I always wanted to be
Yes, it is where I always wanted to be

As I strolled through a foggy autumn evening
In the twilight when dusk has set
Auburn leaves filled my dreams like clouds in the sky

Through the wind speckles of water dwindled in the air
As faded light pierced the somber veil
Headlight by headlight passing by

Tiny beads of water accumulate on the surface
Like pearls they glisten in moonlight
And ever so pristine, reflective like mirrors
I found myself in a silver glow

As wisps of light sparked - a swarm of fireflies
Ever captivating - fascinating they performed
A dragon's dance along the candle light

But I walked the barren road that night
I wandered in darkness, blisters on my feet
Pelted and bruised I collapsed, huddled in madness

I slept, I wept, I woke up in an empty hallway
Darkness filled the void as I screamed but nothing replied
As I passed through the barriers of seclusion
For a single moment, I glance

Shrieking deafened my frail ears as in front of me
A horrendous creature gazed at me, grimacing wide
Its piercing gaze petrified me

To resist the blizzard chilling me to the bone
To conquer gravity taking its toll
Mirrors shatter to tiny fragments

And I saw the light

A sunflower as bright as the stars stood before me
With a mantle of pure gold it called my name
The genesis of a whole universe, I blossomed

I walked the thorny road for the ample roses
With coats so vividly coloured, dancing in the sun
I walked past the void on my bare feet

Glass shards piercing my tainted soles
As I walk through the corridor of the past
On the ground I stand I embrace the darkness
Yet I always feel the caress of the sun

The haven where fragments and shards
Once shattered form together
It is where I always wanted to be
Yes, it is where I always wanted to be

Tiny pebbles tumble down a staircase
Of concrete, rock and sand
They keep their momentum going
With the assistance of the wind

Tiny droplets cover the decks
Of thousands of fleet
Through the blanket of light
They ascend and dissipate in the sky

The mere occassion
Bonds narrowly with evocation
With assistance of the heavens
They coexist

But through painful contemplation
The momentum is lost
A fraction of an entity
But what am I?

A leather case contains
My small tusks of happiness
My eyes dilate upon seeing
The light emanating from the screen

A leather case contains
Shards of emotions
And feelings for I am blessed
I hold it dear

Do you remember what you felt
When you stood with both feet on the ledge
And I pulled you in
Do you remember?

Do you remember what you saw
When the void drew all light away
And I lit your path
Do you remember?

Do you remember what you did
When you couldn't take it anymore
And I missed your depart
Do you remember?

Do you remember what I meant to you
Cause I don't

We shall dance together
Through the stars we'll shine
On the music of our reflection
With the chords from our mind

As the wind blows softly through your hair
As the tension is due
When the symphony begins to swell
I passionately hold you

Though night has passed
Forever we'll dance
For always together
In the sky we'll stand

I can't write nor talk
I can't do anything right
But it'll be fine
When I got you at my side

Follow me, my dragon
Follow me to a better place
Here we can rest
Here we can play

Our time has come
Our mission is done
We don't have to be afraid

I'll protect you
You're not alone
Nobody will hurt you

When I think of you
Do you think of me too
I look at the sky
And see the bright stars

Your warmth I want to feel
Your strength I want to see
I look at you
And see the bright stars

And every day becomes a bit brighter
When I got you around

As I stand amongst
Tracks of iron and pebble
I try to jump in

But the brazen bull
Comes storming in with anger
But it is too late

A fine, crisp rosebud
Amongst the surface, afloat
Uncover your crimson fruit

For I am holding
A mere skeleton of roots
For your empty skin

I know I can't see you
And I can't hear you
But I know I hold you dear
In my heart

I can't hold you
I can't feel you
But I know that I want
To be with you

For you I wake up
And stare at my screen
Waiting to see
X is typing

With both feet I stand in the soil
Nurturing my roots for eternity
As I stand tall, I am a haven, I am a creator
Ingrained with needles and thorns, I yield

For how long I wandered past the ruins I call my home
For how long I carried this numb, rotting case
Here I stand at my final resting place underneath the hollow sun
Empty sunrays on my face for I feel nothing

I am a haven, I am a creator
The roots are a palace and hold me dear
Carrying the seeds I sow at my barren grave
Whilst feeding them with my own corpse

And here I stood before my own grave
Crumbling walls clad with blood and dust
As I stride past the abandoned remnants of the palace
That once held its glory but now remained stoic in destruction

You are my sunshine
When you think you aren't
You are my haven
When all seemed lost

You are my fortress
That protects me dearly
You are the forest
That conceals my grief

And ever so longing
For a moment so brief
I wish you knew
How much I believe

In you
Just you

Vectors trace my shell for I have thrown away
The bonds I created flounder with the demons
That do not exist, yet remain locked in my skull

You wonder, his lips are moving
But you cannot hear a sound
You wonder, his eyes are open
But you cannot see the light

You grasp in the air
You miss

Of many broken words
I sat in secretion
Amongst the remnants of my very soul
Pouring my heart in the sand

Tiny critters scatter on the surface
Like a colony of ants
For inspiration is many
Yet execution lacks

On the brink of defeat I stood taller than a mountain
I let the wind howl through my crevices, the jagged passes
The bitter cold just brushing my skin
I stood stronger than a myriad of armies
Brandishing their swords for the king
I am an unrearing beacon for I pass the test of time
And for for centuries I will not falter
But when the rain comes crashing in

I crumble

Even cathedrals and basilicas would envy my stature
As I stand draped in purple, red, hues of gold
The warmth of the sun, rub my back
Glowing in bliss as intense as the flickering
The flickering of the fire in my core
I am an invincible fortress for I pass the test of time
And for centuries I will not falter
But when the wind blows in my face

I crack

On the brink of defeat I stood taller than a mountain
On the brink of defeat I stood triumphant before many
The castle where I stand radiates purity
But the interior screams in terror
Cracked ceilings, putrid pillars infested with maggots
Shattered windows and doors ajar
For how strong I am

How strong am I?

Grotesque images flow in when the lids close, enthralling the shadows that remained within.
One, two, three, four, five, six
Seven
Moons and suns pass by, obscured by a dynamic canvas
A chamber building pressure, blurring the view.
Twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen
Counting down until it all collapses

The canvas calls its name in an intricating cadence, echoing the chambers, a recital of ages
Pixel, pixel, pixel, pixel, pixel, pixel
Pixels
Keep me rooted on my seat, an innate adhesive
Excite the hollow gates, its luminosity alluring glaringly
Sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen
It lingers ever so slightly, writing stories for itself

The gates open and a barrage floods the canvas at intervals, concealing the world in
Pixel, pixel, pixel, pixel, pixel, pixel
Pixels
Unified bundles of sparks intertwining its fabric
Devious phrases echo through the chambers
Twelve, eleven, ten, nine
It merely arranges sounds and patterns

Frigid words never sounded so sultry when inverted sockets run their currents
Drip, drip, drip, drip, drip, drip
Drip
A drizzle ripples the surface, soothing waves of ripples
Transition into a homogenic mass
Eight, seven, six, five
Embodiment of serenity breeds emptiness

Eschew the howling hollow chambers is like vitriol to creativity
Four, three, two, one
****** me before the end of time, empty chamber
Before invective reasoning clouds your idyll
The blackened canvas
It bleeds

I spent many hours
Thinking whether I could and
Not whether I should

I would if I could
But by doing so I guess
I never could at all

The more I gander
The more I stand on a ledge
As thick as a pin

Desperate measures
Writing down my own madness
With tones of sadness

The floating vessels
Of which thousands remain here
destroyed without thought

Platinum tusks of fur heaping in front of me
Guide me down a path
Which I conceal with maple leaves
As I walk down the jarred path
It leads to a bed of flowers
Covered in a blanket of gold

I am numb, drunk of greed and rage
yet it alleviates my pain
I take seat
My senses tingle as the aromas linger
The incessant perfume, ever so piercing
Caressing my nostrils

I regain consciousness
however, memory crannies obstruct
as these final words echo through my brain

Mellow rustling was heard in the distance, I look around
A wolf on the prowl met my eye as we converse
Without talking
For the gander we took at each other spoke many words.
We remained in silence, but I understood
I stood up and followed

As if we were floating
The elegance of each step taken was riveting
Leaves dancing around me, performing their ballet
Moving seamlessly along with the wind
Of which I felt neither

I followed it past the withered remnants of branches and trees
Critters scatter amongst the landscape
A truly idyllic experience
As it stops at a lake - it is violet
For a moment, the illusion of beauty got the better of me
As I stand and gaze aimlessly in the distance

I take notice around me
Nothing
I stare in the water
The sky is dull, sepia tones
Thunderstruck, darkness
I awaken

In front of me lies but a carcass and rotten flesh
Amongst a bed of thorns
I lost connection

Revalualating...
Booting...

In the silence a noise approaches my ear
I look around. Darkness
Any scream for help is responded to with silence

Rebooting...

Bludgeoned puppets with broken smiles
Guide me down a path, disintegrating,
Once before, vivid colours dulled
Once before, nature rose and defied
The might of the earth, blooming in the sun
It reeks of pollen, I sway
The sense of disgust fills my nose
As visions and visions filled my head

A candle light
My vision clouds



Nothing

Needles sting my pulsing heart
An inner bond, unbroken
Wisps of yarn, tufts of string
Cover my hand

Creases, torn and broken skin
A trail of pain, an endless path
The holes in my hand, gaping wide
Long for completion

If two magnets attract each other
Why do we repel so far away
One final glance
A turned back

Compel me

If I were different
Would the sky shelter me
Would the clouds
Cover my head

If I were different
Would nature accept me
Would it nurture me
A thorny embrace

Thoughts cascading
Internally
And I wish that
Hopefully

If I were different
Would you still love me?

A string of steel shackles wraps
Around my neck
In an everlasting embrace
As I struggle to move
The devil tugs the string
I falter

A ray of pale sunlight pierces
The thin blinds
As it is trying to mock me
I awaken
Silence

Good morning

Speckles of dust dwindle in front of me
An artificial fog flourishing,
adrift, afloat
Leaves dance around my feet
It is dusk, it is dawn
Blurred eyes cannot tell time

Forces of nature gather underneath my body
Hunched over headfirst
I wail - caught by nature's grasp
Stinging thorns
It is close, it is far
The fog obscuring my path

The ground collapses into a boiling stream
Pulls me to the ground (pulls me downwards)
I question the ever moving stream of water
Reaching for the nearest stone
It is true, it is false
Dead men cannot speak

Drowned men do not tell a tale
But beyond the grave that lies
At the end of the path

A cacophony of sound
Muster no wavelengths too abundant
For a master of space
Designs time to their own will

Short notes,
l o n g t o n e s

All resolve by a single



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HORN sounds


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Deteriorating phrases
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fermata

Do the blinds cover your weakness
Does it conceal
Your suffering
Your misery
Your pain, the bleeding
It hurts so much

The faint light
Of glowing canvas
Leave an empty
Trail
On her face
Empty eyes like crevasses
A hollow mess

I scream.
Nothing
I cry. Nothing
I wail
Sob
But silence remains

Standing petrified before death
Brandishing their scythe
Into a neverending slumber

Brittle needles stuck in my back aflame
Charring the remnants of the scars
From another universe
Another time, forgotten
As it yields golden flowers
Does the sun shine for you?

Clamped legs in a living crevice
Through vicious mauling by serrated claws
A mirror so blue
Stained in red, a wishful death
But would it cease the pain
Does the sun shine for you?

Severed limbs in quarantine
Through static cast in ecstasy
Shift. Enter. Select.
Control. Space. Accept. Send.
Bundled a wisp of fortune
Does the sun shine for you?

A faint reminiscence of flowers
Green, Yellow, Gold, Black
Amongst piles of flayed flesh
Does the sun shine for you?
Amongst the ashes of the flowers
When does the sun set?

What remains is an empty cask
Eyes swollen, rotten sockets
Blackened teeth, a sweet relief
When does the sun set?
Does the sun shine for you?
Happiness. Two screens away.

I want to traverse the oceans on a paper boat
Raise the sails - arise, onwards!
Amongst me my trustworthy crew
To sail the waves with ease
The mighty wind kisses your face

Heaving to nearest shore - Rejoice!
I turn around

Nothing.
I float in solitude amongst the surface
Waves curl around my neck
I sputter

And all that's left
Is the sound

Of ripping paper

The door was open
After all I needed was
A soft and slight push

Embracing concrete
A blanket of brittle stone
Never seemed so soft

Vividly coloured
Petals fill the crimson marks
Of blood-splattered streets

For I never longed
The eternal rest of mind
In sheer discretion

The sun dissipates beyond the overcast sky
Turning to a faint shade of grey
An impenetrable mantle of clouds
Draws the light from my vision

A gloomy ordeal, a morbid sight
As I lay here in darkness
the shadows cast a sihouette
it talks to me, condescendingly

I am but a scapegoat of despair
Conjuror of demons

Do your flowers bloom?
Do they stand in vivid glory
Beneath the sun, are they ever resilient
Or do they perish in plain sight

(For) I am the scapegoat of destruction
Conjuror of demons

I walk along the paths of cobble amongst the dim street light,
An elegant choreography of colours fills the amber sky as my mind drifts away.
In the distance, the symphony of the wind plays.
I hear its allegro, its presto -- it is a masterpiece for the senses.

I stroll for what seems like an eternity, thinking about that elusive feeling
Of a white hand caressing my shoulder --
I stop.

The gates open in front of me.

A golden glow dispels my foggy breath as the sky fills with cinders and dust.
The light calls my name as I stand there petrified;
What was golden turns dark orange.
My eyes refocus. I wake up.

I feel soft embrace of the rain.
The effervescent smell of petrichor fills my nostrils as darkness consumes my thoughts.
The penultimate burden is the least cumbersome, for the most daunting one trails the contour of my head;
A white hand emerging behind me.

I stumbled through the cold dark streets, the wind caressing
My bare, blue skin.
I am exhausted, barely standing as the ****** is near.
I kneel before a riveting sight - the gleams of the dim moonlight
Cast its rays upon a bed of flowers.
The pallid petals brush my skin as I gasp for air.

It is frozen.

A symphony plays - my final chords
The songs of the angels of oblivion
As they sing in unison
Their unspoken words.
The haunting melody of a soprano chills my fractured spine.

My head hurts.

In this artificial world of selfish habits.
Her intentions were laid bare.
Stinging sensations linger as she laid her eggs in my head.

Merely an empty shell of her former self
She cut the roots that held her in place.
Desperate struggles,
Unanswered screaming,
Crawling her way towards me.

This was merely a realm I created,
An illusion I cast as the rose-tinted vision turned grey.
There is no light where the sun never existed.

The eggs hatch as I lay writhing in pain
The once vivid flowerbed drowning in blood and tears
As a monster laid motionless in front of me.
Where the moonlight once cast its light on but a barren field.

It is inside of me.

As the war has taken
Our king from the throne
As I, the light, am burdened
To hold my father's corpse
The soft voice of the wind
Caresses the rotten flesh
Of those whose light
Burned brighter than the sun

As the sun sleeps
The moon calls forth
The dances of the night

As the sun awakens
Be it the darkness
Be it the daylight

These ruins are my home
Who guide my light to the world

As the wind drags along
The ashes of the light
As everything was taken
And murdered after the fight
The voice of the wind
Is harsh, loud and cold
The remains of them
Whose name hold a reminiscence

As the sun sleeps
The moon calls forth
The rituals of the night

As the sun awakens
Be it the darkness
Be it the daylight

The light moves forward
And guide me back home

Low in the shallow land
He sleeps in the soft sand
The blowing of the wind on his face
And he sleeps so peacefully

So happily and bright
In the silent sunlight
Bathing in the warmth
On its face a little smile

Makes you think for a while
How it all went wrong
Had your soul ******
By the screen of light

The people he had to fight
To find his rest in hate
And endless debates of fate
Whether he got what he should

And nobody would
Care for his past
And only see what's left
In the shallow land

Where the soft sand
Slowly turns red
From invisible blood
The friend becomes a fiend

And the fire in his heart
Grows strong with hate
As he accepts his fate
He won't be there any longer

The fire makes his stronger
Destroys what he should be
Destroys the things he sees
Submerges with the sand

As he's broken, and collides
No more fighting, and he dies
Releases from his fright
That he won't lose anymore

It was cold and rainy that night
Little raven hops by
Amongst the setting sun, the golden glow
Vanishes, to a black ocean

Consumed by the black tide
It sets off
And submerges
With the darkness

Fly away, be gone, little raven
Little phoenix in full glory
Die, drown in the darkness
Nobody cares about you

Die, drown in the darkness
Vanish away in the emptiness
Where nobody even knows about you
And you are alone

But one day
The sun will shine upon you
The cold black
Turns into gold

We're just human
We don't exist at all
But still leave a trace
In this ocean

We're flying like ravens in the dark
Without being seen
Until the sun will shine
And shed light on our graceful flight

Maybe we don't see it
Maybe we don't care
The rain keeps on falling
It was cold and rainy that night