I have no words to write
     Just tears to cry
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Sadness
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I have been alone
      I forgot what it feels like to be around people.

Of our love
Of our smiles
Of our bond
Of our secrets
Of our trust
Of our dreams
     It's a portrait of we
      Of me and you
        Of us.

I can see a star
from my window
Twinkling
Shining
Lonely -
Speaking to me.
He says he knows all I've lost,
why I shut my doors.
He's been here for long,
he sees your dreams every night.
And he says I look familiar -
He saw me in your dream,
He sees me now.
And that made me stop listening,
start smiling.
But when I looked again,
he wasn't outside my window.
Whether it was a desperate dream
or real,
I hope he comes tomorrow,
to tell me if we had found love,
Or we were dying.
Because I need my alive or dead,
I am a twinkling lonely star.

I learnt to fly,
Spread my wings
Let the breeze of love
Carry me away.
But then it started to rain
My dear sunshine was no more
A bad storm,
it pushed you away from me.
I crashed into the ground,
Broke into many pieces,
With no strength to rise,
I'm fallen.
Lost.

When you said you'd love me,
Were you ready??
To deal with my moods,
To cope with my temper,
To make me believe in love again?
To understand that I'll make you wait,
That it won't be a smooth road,
That i break apart easily,
Now that you want to leave,
I'll let you leave but I'll ask one question-
were you ready??

Too much hate in this world
She lost her smile
She lost the sparkle in her eyes
She lost the love in her heart
She lost the warmth in her heart
She doesn't care
She's cold
Ice cold
Cold
As
Ice.

When I stare into your distant eyes
I wonder if you were meant for this distant love
If they'd look the same,
If we held on to hope, love
If I saw you face to face
If you saw me face to face.

I wonder if I still smile in your dreams
    If at all you see me.


I stopped smiling,
             Started wondering.
                              wandering.

When I closed my eyes
I saw you, like I've done for the past whole month.
I was running to you-the good you
I was running from you-the you that hurt me.
This time it wasn't a fragrance nor a whisper,
It was a heart that seemed too sincere
I will always run to you in my dreams
because in my mostly childish naivety,
I dream of seeing your face and grazing it will my finger
I dream of kissing your lips and hearing you say you'd fight.
I wanna sleep forever, never open my eyes, because then we'll share a life,
And because then,
I am a teardrop and when the sun comes up, I'll fall and become a million grains of salt.

I slept with​ the moon smiling at me
    I dreamed of you.
But not all dreams come true,
    Because sometimes,
          We die in our dreams.

The only friend I hug
When am lonely
Is my pillow.
She knows my tears
My dreams-
That never come true
My happy times
My silly smiles when he texts
Or sings.
Now she knows my depression
All the things am doing
That I shouldn't be
That give me temporal comfort.

Sorry pillow, am lonely
everyday.

I loved what never belonged to me
A love so sweet
But so not right
A love so wide
Yet such a secret love
A love so broken
And still so captivating
A love so fake
But unbelievably bewitching
A love that never was
Which faded in the end
I lost what i learnt to love
And cried for what never was mine.

Maybe what I need to heal
Is to get a way,
And let my depression **** me
Let your memories fade.
I hope I'll be over you.

It's not about how i felt
It's how am feeling.
That you're the one who lights up my world
You are my smile
You are blueberry ice cream
You are the perfect I've cream cake
You are my favorite.
And we are an ocean,
We still our dreams and memories
Memories we'll never lose,
Because our life is made up of jokes, smiles, memories and love.
You are my love.
My best friend.

The moon today looked unfamiliar
The stars tonight are beautiful
I see you in every single thing
And baby am amazed by you.

Love doesn't ask why
i left my tears long ago to dry
my heart slowly to heal
because for every second i ****
am saving me lost soul-
now it's all damp and foul
But soon enough I'll be real
Coz now it has taught me to heal.

My heart was all dark
with pains that would never lack
My one ***** seriously cracked-
by one word that now *****.
Eyes that would always glare;
Like a wounded angry mare,
i would always flare.,
For then, i never seemed to care.

Now am all so outworn,
Very rare smiles its always a florn.
All the memories are gone.
My heart, like shattered pieces of glass on a floor.
My life has been all lone-
And now gone.

If it is real,
It will hurt.
And
You will endure.

Do I remember those eyes
those lies
hidden beneath?
Do I recall those lips
those slips
of a reeded tongue?
And were you even my lover
now that it's over
the times we shared?
You were here-
my heart to ****
you weren't for real.
It's a painful confession,
A burdened admission.,
T'was a ******-
Illusion!

To live doesn't mean
       you're alive
To be alive doesn't mean
       You live.

You're locked inside your head
Let go of the demons inside
And you'll realise you were the demons.
But demons are just fallen angels,
Heal your bruises
And rise up.

He is Gachi
because he is
   my bestie.
And
I love Gachi
because he is
  the art my heart knows
Am keeping Gachi
because he is
  ..........lifeline.

Is what he said
And I believed him.
But he killed me
     a little while before he stopped loving me.
He kept his promise,
He loved me to death.

Love hurts hearts.

~I feel like I should know you more
Like you and I should be the same thing
Share in your joy and pains
I feel like you are in me
I am in you,
Feeling what you feel
Needing what you need
Replica.~

I can't reignite it
    I can't go back
         I only sit helplessly
             Waiting for your return
                  Then I'll be a shadow
An art in your heart.

I just want you to
wait for me.
We can make our dreams
  a reality.

We take risks

But in the end, people show their true colors-
              and they are ugly.

There is zero emotion in your eyes
But
the way we cuddle,
makes my heart warm.
But
When I think of loving you -
my heart ceases to beat,
I realise I am only here
because I'm scared to be alone,
scared to love.
And so are you.

We loved so hard
dreamed too much
I felt our souls connect-
in the deepest parts of the ocean
we were drowning,
Faces white,
we struggled to breathe...
Held on tight until our hands turned red
We knew we'd fail,
as we did in our past lives,
as we will in our next.
And the fishes stared,
waiting to eat our carcasses,
We'd done this before,
We knew how it ends but we did it anyway,
I was luna, maybe you were my astral twin.

You are a student of science
I am a student of art and science.
Space is art,
Space is science.
It's illusion -
peace.
But -
When you want to get back to earth
I'll be long gone-
a supernovae
Maybe I'll be venus to strike your morning sky,
And just maybe I'll be lucky enough to see you wake up with her in your arms.

You looked into my eyes and saw
Saw the love that connected us
Something only you and i could feel
You looked at my lips and pictured -
The many times you'd kissed them
Something only you and i were sure of
You held at my waist and said
All the magical words you'd memorized
Something only you and i could hear
You looked into my eyes and saw
Saw the love that never was
Wondering where the feeling was from
You looked at my lips and thought
Of the many times you'd kissed them
But surely it was barely an year.
You held your hands together and -
Watched me walk away slowly
Regretting and cursing the day we met.

At the edge of a cliff
we made love
under grey skies
your love came crushing over me
pushed me to the edge,

There was pain
rushing through my veins
and
pleasure, peace
with your soft skin against mine
brushing swiftly,
quietly,carefully
possessively gripping me
black and white-
now grey,

My lips parted
your name
escaping them in a gentle whisper
of relief,
of pain
knowing I might be repeating a mistake.

Your words-
hold on to me,
I'll never let you go
I reminisce holding on,
tight
   right.

Hazy sights
I couldn't feel you
my dream
was alive
you let go,
I heard the sound
a bell
in your grey eyes,
I saw the sun
a smile.

If you don't save me
again
I will hit the ground,
become a million grains of sand
when I come back,
in a different form-
a vase for your sunflowers
reminding you-
we made love
die
in our hearts.

I wish someday
I'll be considered old enough
To feel.
To feel love
To feel emotion
To feel hurt.