Slower and sadder,
Jealous and envious.
Happier and brighter,
Loud and raucous.

Looks like waiting seemed better,
Hopeful heart setter.
Looks like I saw an illusion,
a needed delusion.

An option was made,
A second choice created.
Time might have fixed it,
Waiting might heal it.

My daily facade is growing old,
But my spirit must not show it.
Weakness only attracts them more,
Indifference repels it.

They are the hyenas,
In my kingdom of prey.
One false move I die,
One false move they say.

I've built up my walls,
I've put on my armor.
But it only does little,
To cease all the clamor.

The truth is I'm scared,
But not eager to say so.
Now keep your distance,
Before you're 6ft below.

A trickle, a glimmer,
a ray of hope.
Starting from nothing,
Ending to elope.

Fights in the middle,
Smiles in between.
Whatever happens to us,
this is the best I've been.

I love you so much today,
I'll love you even more tomorrow,
The love we have can never leave me hollow.

My dear you had surprised me,
My friends you had planned.
To help you in giving me,
That something in your hand.

Obvious? A little bit,
But sweet as you ever were.
A rose as blue as the sky,
Another friend saying hi.
A white chocolate for more sweetness,
And doubled as ever for your concern.

My life's beginner and Ender,
Thank you, I may be scared,
But I will endure,
Any relationship,
We might conjure.

Every wall I've built,
Every place I've kept in,
Each stone you have thrown,
Each one you burst in.

Every time I ran,
Every time you followed,
Each time I stayed away,
Each time was simply borrowed.

Each day you would get through,
Every time I'd push you out.
Every lie I'd made,
Each one a dying shout.

I'm not used to affection,
no less, yours.
Hoping for a miracle,
truth must come by force.

Chained by truth,
Chained by tears,
Chained by dreams, and
Chained by fears.

Coward to self,
Victor to all,
Fears naught but one:
Which is Death's call.

Annoyance is plenty,
A straight face is kept.
Tears of joy,
Have never been wept.

Bane is joy,
Boon is sorrow.
Was there still hope,
To be a morrow?

Never change,
Never bother.
To show weakness
To another.

Why does letting go
hurt so bad?
I thought by doing this,
I’d make both of us happy.
I dunno about you,
But I think I was happier
when I had the slightest chance
to come back into your arms.

But Lord knows what is best for both of us.
Far away as we are taken from each other.
I hope you find the happiness I know you deserve.
And I hope I can find a way to be a better person.

Here it starts,
Another journey beginning,
I had no idea
A surprise was in store.
When I was to open that creaky old door.
All was pitch black and I waited to see,
If there was possibly a person to scare me.
But when I peeked through,
In the middle was you.
In hand were flowers and a chocolate I see
You started the song and played it for me.
I was overwhelmed couldn't take it all in,
All I did was gasp and wait for it to sink in.
After all that was done I didn't even know,
You still had friends to join the show.
"Will you be my Valentine"
Burst through the door
while in your hand you still held more.
Forever? A lifetime?
I still couldn't speak.
All my these feelings left me so weak.
I had to choose, I was red as a rose.
So the best and happiest one I chose.
Yes I say and yes I will.
I'll stand by my choice until time keeps still.