"Hey. Stay still", she said to her tears
as the priest gives his last blessing
to the body laid in front of them
with the rest of her family.

Hating at first
Not getting into any attachment
No intention to love
Never been imagined to
But now, I am looking for your shadow
Your shadow your face mask
You used to wear day by day
A statement started
And I can't help it not getting any close to you
No matter how I tried my best
To let it burst for others
I just can't
Time, effort, my ingredients
To catch your attention
And give me some
As time slowly walked by
Your shadow leaves you
A current flows in you
Creating your own and conquering my own
And I find myself longing to be with
No second, no minute, no hour, no day passed that I don't dream
Now and then, everything has changed
Like me, you show no interest
Aback was the impact
It soothes within me
And functioned in my brain
That connects everything
You leave me broken just like the others did
From being strangers to totally strangers at all
And crying is all I can do

She was waiting for him
He was too scared to tell her

5 years later

Chances has long gone
And memory happened.

Our memories fade
Just like the footprints
Whenever waves reach the sand

Of all the lies I believed,
I won't let you go
is my favorite.
And of all the truths I heard,
You're not enough
is my treasured one.

"Are you happy?", I asked him.
"Yes I am. And you?", he said
"Yes I am happy.", I replied
because finally, I stopped writing
poems about you, I whispered.

I'm beginning to believe
those toxic words
that plague in my mind
with the constant battle
of what I know
and what I believe

"I'm okay."
I said, trying the words,
that even in my mouth
it tastes bitter
that no matter how many times I practice
I still feel the pain
lying through those words

He's like a deep sea
and I don't know how to swim
but was I afraid to drown?
Its the last thought before I close my eyes
and a final breath before I suffocate

I want a breather
Because somehow,
I am at the point
where I'm tired of myself

And she looks at the mirror
staring straight into her iridescent eyes,
where she used to find solace in
but never found one, instead
a glimpse of self depreciation is evident,
she almost throw up.

Set an alarm clock
so that I'll know
when to wake up
from my dream
of being with you.