“I could have done better” said the Schizophrenian Guy
"Seems no one valued the gorgeousness that dropped into my skin by the sky
No one care about the talent that destiny gave into my heart
Such a foolish judgment, to then I befriend the dark"

“I could have ended it well” his voice in a bit louder rhyme
"If only I’ve waited for the right and appropriate time
I could have written the greatest inspirational poem and story
But I let those evil, snatched that glory"

“My fate could be not like this my friend” in a smooth voice now
"Imprison my head in a box, letting seeds of darkness to grow
Blind and crippled are playing life with a courage
If only I’ve learned from them and did not act so stupid"

“I can’t change my fate now my dear co-poet” he said while eyeing at me
"Parking my pen too early when I did not get the applause  that I love to see
The last poetry that I’ve written was all about self harming and suicide
I wanted to change that with love and peace but now how can I"

“How I love to ask you to say goodbye for me to my dear ones
But that was foolish I know they won’t give you a slight chance
I’m done my friend it’s time, the light is calling” to then he stop talking
He started to walk away, left me with so much thinking

“What a journey!” I’ve said to my self
An encounter with schizophrenian ghost, really did rock my head’s bookshelf
Looking at my scar hidden in order not to be trace
Dreaming I can make an inspirational poetry someday…  but surely with a twist…


Written: September 17, 2014

Mysterious Aries

I wear a white mask
A happy smiling face
A face wherein they couldn't even trace
This darkness in my head temporarily being erase
They praise me everyday
To them I'm good, great in every way
Little they know that I'm only holding back
Without a mask they'll know
Know that my head possessed the biggest crack...


written: july 22, 1014

mysterious aries

I talk to her at first
Indeed she filled my thirst
She told me her name was Jane
And her favorite color was green

We chatted like we know each other then
And now we are destined to be again
I'm happy I found her here
Though worlds to me remains unclear

It's time to say goodbye
I glanced at her I saw her cry
Our morning walk was done
The best walk ever second to none

And now to make the story short
Just like me
Jane possessed these
SCHIZOPHRENIAN CURSED...


written: July 23, 2014

Mysterious Aries

I barely sleep
How can I? faces keeps haunting
Whenever I close my eyes,  It's like a movie scene
Fairies, ghost, angels and demons
Dramas, thrillers, actions, comedies and fantasies
They're just one blink away

Tell me how to sleep
When a lot of voices enter my head
Some tell me to be good
Some persuade me to do the other way
Even I put my two hands in my ear
Still voices i can hear

Rarely I sleep
Just a nap thanks to those sleeping pills
It helps me show my sleeping skills
But I can't have it daily
I don't want it to be my habbit

Maybe you wonder
Why schizophrenian amnesia not insomia
I don't know the difference of day and night anymore
The scene was so vivid always keeps me awake
Awake that sometimes I don't remember how to sleep


July 3, 2014
Mysterious Aries

Indeed, I love her!
But can't muster enough nerve
I had rehearse those lines
But as if someone tied my tongue

Afraid of venom of pain
Afraid to be stung
Better to hide it this way
Regret is more painful at the end

She was so alluring
A beauty that could only be mine in a dream
She was every of my fantasies
But how can I charm her
Everything about me was so simple
While she was extra-ordinary

I must act now...

Then I lied...

I told her I am a prince
That I owned the stars
But I saw her shaking her head
She was nothing compared the sun
She was nothing compared to the blue sky
I lost my self control

I began grasping her
Kissing her torridly
Even though a lot of people witnessed what I was doing
Little do I care
I want her badly, crazily...

And then laughter
everywhere....

Indeed people saw me grasping and  kissing someone
Someone in their eyes...
Was only a tree...

written: July 4, 2014
mysterious aries

"Stay safe, Stay strong" my old friend giving me some words
"Have Faith" they've said "Give your trust unto the Lord"

"It's easy for you to say" I've said
"You see and hear nothing  that will rock your head"

"You are right, They are wrong" voices of my friend from outer space
Supporting my conviction asking me to shout for them to leave our place

"I'm still here waiting my love" said a lady whose name was Jane
Indeed I remembered her, my heart keep calling her name

"Love her? She was nothing compared to us!" those beautiful nymph again
Showing their naked body seems so real that let me forget something

"No one could ever help you' No one could ever heal" my mother voice to feel
"It's only you my son can cure yourself, can give your wound a heal"

"We've won again we've won!" all of them again cheering
While looking at the shadows of my old friend, my love and my mom leaving

"Sir here's my handkerchief" a voice from a nurse unfrozen myself freezing
To then I've realized that my eyes turned into a dark cloud
and now it's really raining...


written: August 27, 2014 @ 8:35 PH standard time

Mysterious Aries

Things haven’t got better
Those clowns turned into a ghost and beside me seems they were forever
I’ve started smoking, taking marijuana and *******
Might help me get out from those faces that really haunt my brain

I’ve drunk a lot of wine for them to my head be lost
Relieve me for a while but really I’m getting worst
Lately I've realized that I did have this cursed
My head can’t take it anymore seems going to burst

This is not what I crave
But to the stars might be already been engraved
A fate that no one could ever delete
I am so very wrong thinking that I belonged to the elite

They’re coming in numbers pushing me to the edge
I ended up looking for a gun… a rope… a blade…


written: July 31, 2014 @ 7:00 pm PH Time

Mysterious Aries

They said I need to see a doctor  - a psychiatrist
What do they think of me that I have this mind disease?
They just don’t want to accept the fact that I’m just so unique
Who see the story from the other side it was my very gift

They are just so envious that I am so genius
My IQ was unmeasurable to them that’s so obvious
They said they were my friends but they turned me down
But that’s ******* okay I have always by my side - these funny clowns


Written: July 29, 2014 @ 11:25 PH time

Mysterious Aries

Finally i'm free, finally i am
Away from that cage,  far from that hell stage

Been two months since I'd stopped chatting with them
They've never ceased stalking me, talking to me
But I fought them with gallantry
The courage of not making a noise
The bravery in silence

Finally i'm free, finally i am
Away from that cage, far from that hell stage

Might be the last visit of my loved ones that affected me so much
Gave me a true strength to overpower and block
They've danced, sang, even performed a magic tricks
But all are in vain, the coin was finally flipped
Until totally no voice from them, no sightings at all

Finally i'm free, finally i am
Away from that cage, far from that hell stage

It has been twenty minutes since we left the sanitarium
Finally i am away, finally i am far
"His situation is fifty-fifty" said the nurse that accompanied the body
As i looked at him to my curiosity
Oh God! It was my body in an ambulance...


written: September 1, 2014 @ 9:16 PH standard time

Mysterious Aries

Thankfully my brother didn't surrender his life
I really don't know what to say to his daughter and wife
That event brought me here
My mother love me, but can't now keep me near

I was often silenced at first
Almost rejecting everything that will keep my pulse
Food, water, medication if only i can reject air
To make an end to this head that was so unclear

I saw a lot of me here
I know how hard for them too
Some are losing hope
Others not giving up trying to cope

To then i remember the pages that i've wrote
Most are poetry that are giving hope
I miss that passion and that feeling
Giving me a reason to fast track my healing

Now I have a reason to be alive and not to be dead
All I want now is to keep my body this head
I will be free soon and fly like a balloon
And I will write a poetry about the shining moon

"Come let's make love" those nymphs voices again
"Join us praise satan our god" that demon shows begin
"No let's go to heaven and sing" what an angelical voice
"Hey let's play" clowns giving me a wonderful toy

"No, No, Never..." I told them "for now i'm such a big boy"
"Come let's write a story" a dead poet say
I followed him so quickly
And we began to write ...... an unknown poetry......

written: august 5, 2014 at 11:00 pm PH time

Mysterious Aries

High breed they've said
They just don't know how often we've prayed
Our knee was so severely wounded
Pleading Him to erase this delusions' that we've been bounded

Lunatic! They've always called us
Pushing ourselves to wished to be among with the  dust
The crazies' they've said making fun of us
Now we don't know whom do we trust

We tried to live in a masks
But to no avail still our head been crashed
Now' we live in a cage like an animal
Away from home' near to suicidal

High breed they've said again
Instead of helping they don't want us to  begin
We are like a child being bullied
Their thumping words trained us to be stupid

Though some giving us good words' for our hearts be encourage
But don't make any difference now' we are very deeply engaged
Lunatic' crazy' high breed' why just broke our hearts?
If you can please! just tear our body and soul apart...


written: August 19, 2014 - 7:30 am

mysterious aries

Remembered my friend Jane
It’s been a very long story after then
She’s very thankful too she met me here
She told me I help her a lot  to make her vision clear

The relief I got from her was so incomparable
After those long chat I found her so admirable
Indeed she aid me a lot now I don’t chat to those demons
I felt good even I don’t take my anti-psychotic medication

Her words was way better than those of counseling
Really with her I am on my way to healing
She too get well so fast I think I can say
She’s so normal now everything about her looks okay

I thought today was an ordinary day
I saw her smiling and face was so gay
She told me she just drop by  to give me a hug and say goodbye
The doctor will release her no more schizophrenia in her eye

Then her lips say so “remember the guy I told you to him I'm coming back”
Indeed she told me a guy she love before in our past chat
I never uttered a single word I was frozen so shocked
I don’t know what happened next  I was lost in every track

"Doc we found out that this guy resists to take his medication
It’s been a month he seems okay but today we can’t understand his emotion"
I hear that voices from  a woman talking to a man both wear whites
Little do I care I was so busy chatting to these strange people
                    whose faces so bright…



written: July 24, 2014 @ 9:40 pm  

Mysterious Aries

Now at ICU, I've followed my body
I did won battling my lunacy
But the prize was so high
My poor body gave up, my soul flied

My  friend, my brother, my mother and my Jane
Weeping so much but still hoping, wishing and praying
Fight my friend, stay my son, wake up my love
Their emotions are so true, no one will ever doubt

What am I doing? I must do something
Now that I know that life still has a lot of meaning
So I shifted and laid my soul in my body
They are the reason why I must not give up that easy

I try to move my hand, did they see that?
Try to smile, hopefully someone look at
I must force some nerves, to truly wake up
Praying hard that I can blink my eyes and finally be back

"Oh God!" they've all shouted "doc, doc he is crying"
I counted one, two.... they will be surprised I know
Three... I'm so hopeful, and force my body to sit up
"I'm so sorry we've lost him" said the doctor as I look at my body, now a smiling crying corpse...


written: September 8, 2014 @ 4:55 pm

Mysterious Aries

“Please No! No!” said the fairy as I slashed her head
I decided to clashed back and make them all dead
The first victim was a demon I stabbed him by surprise
Then those ghost disappearing when being touch by my magical knife
Those elves, aliens and clowns I spiked all of them who dare
Even him who said “Please No! I am your Guardian Angel!” I killed him I don’t care

When I was done killing them with no mercy
I look at my hand with a knife it was really so ******
“Why did you do it?” I’ve heard a voice from a woman
“Oh my God! He was your brother!” No that voice belongs to my mom
“What have I’ve done?” I said, as I look at my brother who’s really was bleeding
“This is not true….” How I wished that I’m only was dreaming…


written: July 31, 2014 @ 10:00 pm PH time

Mysterious Aries

Hello I've heard what happened to you when I was gone she said
I am too was so unlucky since I left here my bed
Remember that guy I've told you; he broke the promise he made
He never waited for my healing; and he married someone instead
But to tell you it doesn't matter never hurt a lot
You see I am so okay never cause me any scratch

It's been a month since I left; but I did come back
I remembered everything; all of our happy chat
Though I'm there outside no days I forgot
Lovely days we've been together; I've treasured it so much
I've come to realize that I must follow my heart who he tender
I can feel then our feeling was mutual; so it must be now or never

To then I looked at her and I began to say
I've known all the women that I've meet my way
I can give all their names from A to Z
They kiss me every night; we make love that's so alright
Amanda, Belinda, Cassandra to name a few
All of them have wings to the sky they flew
I'm sorry miss; I'm sorry
I did listened to the words you've said
Whats your name again, Jane?
I know Deniece and Ellaine their eyes are both glowing and green
But never in my life... I've met a girl who's name was Jane!


written: July 28, 2014

Mysterious Aries