"krystal" poems
Oh Selfie Selfie Selfie!
You're taken here and taken there
Anywhere and everywhere
In random poses we prefer.
From wide smile and duck face
To looking cute and being fierce
Searching for the right angle
In order to catch the likers.
Some say you show too much vanity
But who are they to judge so harshly?
When all you want is for them to be happy
And express themselves perfectly.
Krystal Marcelo
01/18/2016
Jan 18, 2016
Jan 18, 2016 at 9:37 AM UTC
I'm sick and tired of hearing you
In different occasions and venue
The way you're fixed in their minds like tattoo.
You're in a child and adult's mind
Uttering you like they do know a thing
About places, people, culture and beliefs
Which you're set in that we ought to believe.
They're stating you as if you're a fact
Never doubted your reliability
If you're being too good to be true
Or too exagerrated to agree with.
I always find myself contradicting their knowledge about you
And wish that I could change you
But you'll no longer be stereotype if you do
'Cause that's what makes you----You.
Krystal Marcelo
06/28/16
But originally written 04/17/16
Jun 27, 2016
Jun 27, 2016 at 7:54 PM UTC
Leaving home for the quest of finding me
Missing home like it's killing me.
Krystal Marcelo
01/25/16
Jan 24, 2016
Jan 24, 2016 at 8:47 PM UTC
mine øjenlåg er jordslået
jeg græder krystal mens jeg smiler
alle mine sårbarhedder er skrevet ned i tilfældige litterære samlinger og forsvundet i oceanerne
smerten hvirvler rundt i min krop og i mine blodbaner er der sne
min hud sidder løst på mine knogler og du forstår ingenting
du har ridset dit navn ind i mit sind med et sløvt skår fra et ødelagt spejl
du har beskadiget mit indre, på en fason hvorved jeg holder af smerten
jeg ændrer mig så jeg kan passe ind i de tynde sprækker og hvor ville det være nemt hvis vi kunne spole tiden tilbage
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 5:29 PM UTC
Same exact date but of different pace
Now reminiscing what happened in that place
That chilly night as we race
Through the situation of life and death.
I still clearly remember
As I was murmuring prayers
Which I poorly and randomly constructed
Even God can't quite understand clearly.
In the midst of the night, we rushed to the hospital
Advised that she must be confined
So my father left me behind
To tend her and to keep an eye.
She told me to take some rest but I disagree
Under her sweet voice I fell asleep unnoticeably
Wishing I never did
'cause that cost me a lifetime of guilt.
Waken up to see her in hysterical
Of the squeezing in her heart that could be fatal
Enough to make me frantic
Trying to think of the essentials.
As I watched her struggling for her breath
I tried to held back the tears that can't help but stream
Not wanting her to see me losing
Hope for her so she'll keep on fighting.
Hoping for a miracle as they recucitate her
I knew it there but still in denial
And at the crack of the dawn
I lost her...without even saying "Goodbye."
That is one of those times
When you want to gather all those spared hours
And add every single second of it to that very moment
So you could change the course of fate but couldn't.
The feeling of helplessness
Like a bird without its wings
Can't think of anything
But weep about everything.
Thoughts running in my mind
As unstoppable as the river flow
Tears running down my face
Streaming like the waterfalls.
The pain was unbearable
Especially when you got no one to lean on
Because the one you can always count on
Is the one you're bleeding for.
It's been three years
But why do I feel devastated after all this time?
Then someone answered me,
" '*cause the memories of the past never go away.
They are with us till the end of our time*."
This may be a memory of the past now
But unlike any other, it will never be forgotten
A past that's always a part of my present
And will always play a big role in my future...
Krystal Marcelo
01/22/16
Jan 22, 2016
Jan 22, 2016 at 8:25 PM UTC
It took two words from Edward to Krystal.
"Hi"
Krystal looked up from the book she's been reading and saw Edward stood in front of her.
Krystal's eyes darted from side to side. No one's around; well, not around her, nor around him. Unmistakably, Edward La was talking to Krystal Kim.
"Um ... hi?"
Edward smiled, a lopsided one. Then, "Bye."
"....bye?" Krystal was frowning hard, but Edward only nodded contented with the confused goodbye as he walked away, hands shoved deep into his pocket while whistling.
At night before Krystal closed her eyes, she faintly remembered the song Edward whistled to; it was a soundtrack to Pirates of the Caribbean, wasn't it?
Apr 21, 2015
Apr 21, 2015 at 8:23 AM UTC
I want to put a dream catcher on my headboard
Hoping that it will take away my bad dreams
Letting me sleep peacefully at night
Wishing that you'll kiss me goodnight.
I want to put a dream catcher on my headboard
So that I could get rid of waking up in the middle of the night
Sweating hard with untamed throbbing of the heart
And not being able to go back to sleep.
I want to put a dreamcatcher on my headboard
So that my sweet dreams won't turn into nightmares
'Cause you keep on appearing in my visions
Wondering if you have something to convey.
But if those nightmares
Were the only thing that keeps on reminding me of you
I wouldn't have a second thought
Of putting this dream catcher away...
Krystal Marcelo
07/12/16
Originally written 06/05/16
Jul 11, 2016
Jul 11, 2016 at 7:22 PM UTC
Telling them the truth
That I turned out to be a failure
Would make me feel small,
But telling them lies
Just to make it sound good
Would rip the very last
Of dignity
That's left in me
And whichever I chose
Would cause me the same effect
Not only for my ego
But for my whole being.
Krystal Marcelo
01/30/16
Jan 29, 2016
Jan 29, 2016 at 7:58 PM UTC
He's just a blurred figure now in her memory
But his love will last till eternity.
Krystal Marcelo
02/06/16
Feb 5, 2016
Feb 5, 2016 at 12:20 PM UTC
A discarded Bazooka Joe gum wrapper
Two pieces of aluminum foil
14 pixie sticks of various flavors
A packet of fire sauce from Taco Bell
A half-gallon carton of spoiled milk
A half-eaten roast beef sandwich, covered in olive green mold
A wilted red rose
A broken picture frame with a picture that was ripped in half
An empty champagne glass with red lipstick in the shape of a woman’s lips on the side
One double A battery
A green rabbit’s foot
A 9" long strand of shoelace, frayed at both ends
Many crushed, empty beer cans
A torn white t-shirt
A strand of friendship beads
A partially legible postcard from Milan, Italy with a woman’s handwriting on it that read:
“...just can’t handle...anymore...
Life is...just want you....
away...
-Des... [Rest of signature illegible]”
Several ***** pennies, scattered about
21 cigarette butts, some spilled from the ashtray, all the same brand
A $173.44 electric bill
A deck of playing cards from the Pyramid Casino with a hole through the center, the Queen of Hearts is shredded and strewn about the driver’s side floorboard
A pink feather boa
A stale half-full box of cheap cigars
A pen featuring the logo of the Las Vegas Hilton
A business card from an insurance salesman with a non-descript name
The label from a bottle of Krystal
Several flyers from various escort services
On the passenger’s door: A large splatter of sun-dried blood
In the dirt outside:
A pair of men’s sunglasses
One shell casing from a .45
A Kimber .1911 handgun
A male skeleton with a hole in the skull’s right temple
Sep 21, 2019
Sep 21, 2019 at 8:41 PM UTC
It's funny how I forgot all of it in just a snap
That moments ago, I'm craving for it like it's some kind of drug
Then getting rid of it
The way I get rid of my thumb ******* habit.
I have learned the art of being numb
And taught myself to be contented of what I can only get
Right now I don't even know how to approach you
And I can't even look you in the eye.
I can't even remember the last time we talked
Without using that high pitch voices and grumpy faces
I can't even recall if you have ever
Told me that you love me.
And now's a very different situation
Guess who's reaching out to me---YOU
But don't you think it's a little too late
To make amends and do what you should have done years ago?
Nothing's ever too late really
It's just that I can't retrieve that part of me
Who have always wanted this time to come by
'Cause all that's left in me is hatred.
Krystal Marcelo
01/28/16
Feb 2, 2016
Feb 2, 2016 at 12:53 AM UTC
Fond of scribbling words
Especially when I'm down
A way of letting it go
A way of easing me down.
Now scanning a notebook
Full of unreadable writings
Like it's some kind of stenograph
Which I only can understand.
Some say that I have the gift
And some say that I'm brave enough
To tackle about my life,
To write about my pains.
But I can't see it that way
'Cause all the words in my mind
All the ideas I'm writing down
Isn't enough to express what's inside.
I'm dying to write all of it
To lessen my burdens
But I hardly find the words
And not all of it could be shared.
As ideas struck my mind
And I'm starting to write it down
It's where the complication start
As the words wrestle to form a phrase.
I can't make it rhyme all the time
But it doesn't matter
As long as it's lyrical
A free verse poem will do.
I follow no rule in writing
'Cause the best way to write for me
And the only way I know,
Is to write from the heart...
Krystal Marcelo
04/28/16
But originally written 04/16/16
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 1:00 AM UTC
Going back to the old days
I never dreamed of anything big
Not of wealth, not of fairy tales
But just a little space in your heart.
A chance to be acknowledged
A chance to be appreciated
And patiently anticipating for the day
That I would not be invisible in your sight anymore.
There's nothing ever mattered to me
Than to be called as a "daddy's girl"
Probably I idolized you so much
That I'm mimicking every little thing that you do.
From the way you sit on that little porch of ours
As you smoke there every morning
To the way you pull your shirt halfway to your chest
When it's getting terribly hot outside.
I even remembered that time when I went home sobbing
'Cause I heard a bunch of men,
Whom you consider your true friends,
Backstabbing you which made me mad and wanna hit them that time.
I have done everything---almost everything
But all efforts were all in vain
And that concept of reaching out to you
Just disintegrate in my system unknowingly.
Krystal Marcelo
01/28/16
Feb 1, 2016
Feb 1, 2016 at 7:39 PM UTC
When Tina is around
And Krystal is too easily found
I stop saying the prayer of serenity,
And even my own identity.
I've lost days and weeks.
Even lost people to whom I used to speak
They can't accept me for me,
Or just let me be.
I'm a person of two.
I wish it was that simple.
You'd understand where I'm coming from
If you'd been where I'm at.
I don't wish that upon you,
That would be a sin.
That ***** is evil,
To all of the people,
She affects everyone,
From child to Grandmother
In one way or another.
Rachel Scott
Apr 18, 2013
Apr 18, 2013 at 10:29 PM UTC
"Who is she?", I asked myself
As the image came closer and clearer
This feeling that seems to be almost forgotten
Like I have known her for a lifetime.
When I realized who I'm looking at
The tears that I hardly held back fell down
'Cause I wanna show hate and strength
But my emotions cannot be deceived.
There's a lot of 'why's' that I wanna ask her
Starting with, " Why's my memory's telling me that you're long dead?",
"Why you're back so sudden after all those painful times caused by your loss?"
To asking her, "Mom, do you still love us?".
Yet nothing ever slipped out of my mouth
All the reasons I wanna hear doesn't really matter
'Cause all I care for now is her
She's back and that's all I'm wishing for since she'd been gone.
All my disbeliefs and doubts just fade away
As I reached for her and feeling her warm flesh once again
I wanna grab every minute to made her feel loved and special
So she won't ever leave again.
The joy was overwhelming at the moment
And it was drowning me, thinking of nothing
Hoping that it would never last
Before a dashing light filled my eyes...
I tried to reach for her inspite of the blinding light
But couldn't seem to find her
I'm screaming her name
Yet no one ever responded.
And as I opened my eyes once again
I'm back in the dark and was all alone...
Krystal Marcelo
07/12/16
Originally written 06/05/16
Jul 11, 2016
Jul 11, 2016 at 7:06 PM UTC
Not a premature baby
But as tiny as a kitten
Incubated for the first few hours of existence
And told that might be dying.
Those mentioned before just added
To the reasons you dislike me
Aside from the fact that I'm a girl
And you have always wanted a boy for your firstborn.
I remembered the line from the movie 'Noah'
When Ila asked him why he spared the twins
And he said,"*I looked down at those two little girls
and all I had in my heart was love*."
And wondered if you haven't seen that kind of love
When you looked down on me.
'Cause you held me in your arms
Without gentleness
Like I'm not vulnerable
Like I'm not from your own flesh and blood.
As I'm growing into my skin
The more I crave for your attention
For your affection
But I got nothing.
And as the day passed by
The more you made me feel how unwanted I am.
Krystal Marcelo
01/28/16
Feb 1, 2016
Feb 1, 2016 at 9:47 AM UTC
We never touched.
We never kissed,
Nor did our limbs entwine.
Yet your translucent beauty
made an impression in my mind.
We never spoke
I never met
this beauty of the screen.
A girl they called Emanuelle
In a film some thought obscene.
She is dead of Cancer now,
A Krystal so sublime:
All youth and beauty withers
How briefly it was thine.
Oct 19, 2012
Oct 19, 2012 at 8:49 PM UTC
I have to much energy senosing me in endless circles. I feel like I'm driving. Mad when I have to much things I can't win or drown in projects that seem to suffocating me.
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 all day and night the pure krystal bottle of ***** brings down the stress and anger
Nov 30, 2016
Nov 30, 2016 at 11:28 AM UTC
He is his mother's only son
He has his father's feature
But a little shorter than he was
Maybe because of working at early age.
His mother whom he adore
With all his heart
Left them to seek for the love
She never felt with his father.
Several months after
His father died
And inspite of being the only heir
He got nothing because of his greedy Aunts.
At the early pace of his life
And all the circumstances he's been through
Yet got no explanation for all that happened
He self-destruct himself and become a rebel.
He searched for love and understanding in other people
But always end up to another heartbreak
So he blame his mother for everything
And hated her for the rest of his life.
Then one day found himself
Standing in front of a coffin
And upon realizing it, it's too late
He ran out of time...
He grieved so much
But can't shed a tear
Maybe he had drained all of it
'Cause by all his pain.
With his unspoken words
And unexpressed feelings
He just strum his guitar
And sang a song from his heart.
Krystal Marcelo
02/29/16
Feb 29, 2016
Feb 29, 2016 at 5:43 AM UTC
Two weeks turning to three
Wondering when you'll be free
But as the same time it's crazy
How these doubts is killing me
Don't know if it's jealousy
But I'm afraid it's just simply
Us doesn't exist lately...
Krystal Marcelo
10/30/17
Oct 30, 2017
Oct 30, 2017 at 12:46 AM UTC
Words struggling to slip out of my mouth
Too painful yet so true
'Cause the truth always hurt,
A motivation for us to change.
Krystal Marcelo
06/28/16
Jun 27, 2016
Jun 27, 2016 at 7:40 PM UTC
Depressing days have come on my way again
Stabbing me on my unhealed wound
Tearing me inside for the same reasons
Making my heart heavy and these tears unstoppable.
I can feel the pain
But unlike the way it used to
I don't feel so blue this time
I wonder why is that so.
Then the thought of you struck me
Is that you causing this?
But I didn't even know you
Just your sweet voice and wise thoughts.
I should be breaking inside now
But knowing that I have someone
Who will willingly listen about my complicated life,
I feel so relieved...
You said that you are my number one fan
When it comes to writing
But just so you know, I'm a fan of yours
For your motivational words.
The way you make things lighter for me
With your crazy jokes
About 'Albert the monkey whom my Uncle adopted'
Who cares if we're the only ones who can relate.
But something's bothering me
As I've never been so vulnerable to anyone
And I don't want to get used to this feeling
'Cause I'm afraid you'll be like the one in what I read once.
It says that through our darkest hours
There comes an angel in disguise who will enlighten us
But as we learned to deal with our pains and get back on our feet again
They will be gone forever...
I know that if I ever take a chance on you and lose you
It will break me as I always did 'cause of loving
But if that means having you in my life even just for a little time
Will be more than enough for me to take the risk.
I am NOT afraid to love now
Instead I'm afraid that I won't get this chance again...
Krystal Marcelo
09/19/16
Sep 19, 2016
Sep 19, 2016 at 7:31 AM UTC
Tio Daniel,
I'm really happy that you decided
to join the Navy.
Just finished boot camp and then off to Japan, right?
I tried to go to your graduation
but my dad wanted to go himself
since he wasn't allowed to be there
for most of his little brother's life..
When we met for the third time
in San Diego, we spoke for
a while and I told you about
how I write and
how my mom is really tough on me about grades.
and you just sat back in your chair for a little bit
then looked at your girlfriend
and started telling me of how much I look like my father
but I'm like **** krystal because she always kept
journals when you and her lived in the group home
and that was her outlet
to get away from everything.
And through it all she turned out just fine.
A single teardrop made its way down your cheek
going right over your smile and then
you hugged me
and told me I'll be better despite everything.
Despite our family's past.
Despite what we still go through.
Despite our fear of the uncertain and uncharted waters.
must be why you joined the Navy.
Aug 10, 2017
Aug 10, 2017 at 11:29 AM UTC
I am a typical girl
An achiever in my own little ways
Not a famous yet not a loser
Not so cool but not a nerd either.
I do what others also do
Like it's some kind of rule to be followed
A girl trying to live a dream
Well---I used to be those things ...
Before a turning point came across my story
Turned my whole world upside down
I fell on darkness but I struggled to come out into the light
But I feel forever stuck in this kind of life.
It's like I'm in a dream
I am running yet I'm not moving
I am screaming
But no one hears me.
So many people trying to drag me down
But I know I'm strong to let myself down
Some people wanted to help me get on my feet
But their kindness seem so humiliating to me.
There's a lot of choices in front of me
And it's driving me crazy
Yet all I need is a headstart
A chapter where I can start a new life...
Krystal Marcelo
06/27/16
But originally written 06/08/16
Jun 27, 2016
Jun 27, 2016 at 8:45 AM UTC
Cradled by your love is my safest place
It is you I see within my farthest gaze.
Krystal Marcelo
01/30/16
Jan 29, 2016
Jan 29, 2016 at 8:01 PM UTC