She took the joy.
She took him.
She killed me in the process.
My carcass decayed.
I was left for dead
But life began to make
Its way through me again.
Coneflowers sprouted from my ribcage.
Vines began to tangle up my spine.
Lilacs grew through my skull
I was alive again
with new strength and a
Bliss that came from within.

You say you hate his guts
Yet he's in all your poems
You talk of all his girlfriends
Yet you sit home alone
You count them off by name
Your own misery list
You can't ignore the facts
And we all get the gist
Why you think about this guy
Who has caused you so much pain
It's like setting yourself up
For an emotional drain
Loving someone who hurts you so bad
I have to wonder if maybe you're mad
It's just that you should know it is true
He may be the foe
But the enemy seems to be you

Sometimes you touch me
So unexpectedly
Like a gentler side
Of a gust of winter’s wind
Blowing a thin white veil
Down from its shelf
In the branches above
Just in time to caress
My fevered cheeks
With a cool
Exhilarating rush.
Thank you.

days have passed without your face
I wonder who will take my place
through my mind you run, a fast pace
my heart is yours if you win this race

lust is the only thing in those streets
I pray for love, I play for keeps
I fell for you, a reckless leap
tell me you want me, don't be discreet!

I want to be the last thing on your mind
before you fall asleep
I want to be the first thing you think of
as you open your eyes

but

...

you only text me when you're ******
looking for a good time
before you fall asleep
you only call me when you're drunk
in the middle of the night
when all you can do is open your eyes

one.
two.
three.

why’d you leave me?

four.
five.
six.

it’s indeed our last kiss.

seven.
eight.
nine.

i lied when i said “ i’m fine “

you used to drop everything
you used to hug me for days
you used to like listening to me vent to you
you used to always find time for me
you used to brag about me to all of your friends
you used to bring me flowers
you used to surprise me
you used to take me on dates
you used to enjoy our time together

now i come last
now i force hugs on you
now you never listen
now you're always too busy for me
now you complain about me
now you say flowers are a waste of money
now everything is expected
now we never go out
now we fight

i don't know what to do
can you please help me
figure this out
i want this
i hope you do to
but i don't know
if we can

reach out
thats all i want
reach out to me
are we in this
forever
are we making a mistake
are we sticking through this
what are we doing

i need you to talk to me
what is happening
i always feel like I'm out of the loop
now
but
i want this
i think

i don't want to lose you
everything reminds me of you
i love you
i want only you
but I'm scared
that I'm the only one who wants this
the way that i do
so tell me
what do we do
now
time is almost out
so tell me if so are we