I feel the rush in my blood
in my bones there's something
a tension like a current in a river
like a storm against a tree
like a foot on blades of grass
something took ahold of me
and i couldn't quite shake it
that unnerving feeling that left me wondering
questioning
thinking
and i didn't really know what to do
so i called you but you didnt pick up
so i sat in the dark
so i thought to myself and anyone else who was listening
my mind was numb from chasing away those feelings
chasing away the darkness
chasing away my fears
and i always kept thinking
until you called me back
but it was half past one and i was tired
and all that time i wish you would have told me it was going to be ok
i wish you would have held me close to you
i wish i didn't give you unrealistic expectations
but i was hurting
and it was a wednesday
and i was only wishing for you.
I don't think any of this made sense
but you sure do
I think?
xoxo
-sunshine