When spoken words can no longer
Bear witness to the fire within me
Let the screaming silence be my ally
For it is a truer friend to a wounded soul
Than any whisper made at the devil's hour

The cleverest game in life
Is where you know not
Who the winner is
Nor who lost everything

Your heart is full of fire
Coal black but gentle as the moon
Your sun is fierce and full of grace
Are you mad at the way
The earth revolves around them?
Or is your soul yearning
For the stars that give life
To the endless summers?

She goes to parties
All dressed up
With her lipstick on

There she is
All smiles and laughter
Saying hello to the boys
And giggling with the girls

One kiss, one look
And off she goes
To wherever the night
Will take her

She turns the keys
And takes off her shoes
On the mattress she lies
Her mascara no longer a lie

In the land of angels and demons
Most angels with the purest soul
Have the darkest demons
Inside their minds
Waiting for the right time
To trap you in your own head

You stood by the gates, with eyes wild like a lion's and a smile as gentle as a purr. There was never any deception, lies, or mess between us. You are crystal clear, and so am I.

We said our hellos and by the next minute, we were laughing as we are: old friends, long separated. You are the brightest, the dearest. Ease and tenderness, jokes and flirtations and laughter.

The years, apparently, have changed us into the version of ourselves that we need to be for each other. What a blessed, blissful time.

Do you love me?*

Which answer would you like, the truth or the lie?

It takes a great deal of courage
To wake up every morning
And put a smile on your face
Even when the only thing
You feel like doing
Is going up to the 36th floor
And letting yourself fly

I am not your muse
Do you know what that means?
I am not the one
You dream of at night
I am not the one
You seek in your distress
I am not the one
You yearn for in loneliness

I am not your muse
Do you know what that means?
I am not a part of you

Watch me
As I spin
And turn
Your heart
Against those
Who love you
The most

I would leave in the morning
And you would follow me a while later
We would keep quiet to keep it a secret
No one needs to know about you and I
And we would take the train
Going to someplace you love
On the train, our fingers found their way
Into each other amidst the crowd

Maybe the next time I see you
I will put some lipstick on
And your fingers will find me
The way nobody ever will

Maybe the next time I see you
We can sit next to each other
And your hand could rest
Somewhere no one should know

Maybe the next time I see you
I can rest my head on your chest
As you rest your heart into me
With the world fading into oblivion

I will say your name
Before I slip into the oblivion
I will say your name
Before I fall into the deep waters
I will say your name
Before I say my morning prayer
I will say your name
In every breath that I take
Until I become nothing

I write about you
In the back of my hand
On the margins of my notebook
Between the lines of the day's lecture

I write about you
When the morning sun reminds me
Of all the times that have been in vain
And of all the kisses I wish I could give you

I write about you
Because you are somewhere out there
And all that I am left with
Is the memory of whatever we might have had

Had you been born as another
We would have gone to buy
Expensive coffee in the afternoon
We would have sit and talked
About the cyber crime
Or the new capitalism

Had you been born as another
We would have spent anniversaries
On vacations by the beach
We would have let the sun watch
As we kiss in an endless summer
Crashes of blue all ignored by us

Had you been born as another
We would have become liberals
Seeking the comfort of the Ivory Tower
We would have left the city
And let the stars be our guides
There is nothing money cannot buy

Had you been born as another
Would you have been just as unattainable
As you are now?

Had you been born as another
Would you have become the beautiful man
That I fell in love with?

Whatever happened
To the boy I loved?
It seems he has gone away
Only to be replaced
By the man I have come to love
As it turns out
I like the man in you
Better than I ever did the boy

An apartment overlooking the city
Lazy Sundays, messed up sheets
Books here and there all over the room
Protein shakes and green tea
Your hands around my waist
My favorite T-shirt lost somewhere
Plans to have no plans for the day
Escaping whatever responsibility we have
Your hands fitting mine
What a perfect life

You show me the effects of seeing the world only as a cruel, dark, unhappy place.
You show me what can happen to someone who treats others with little care
You show me how protecting your loved ones can eventually suffocate them
You show me how far insensitivity and anger can get you
You show me the importance of having a kind, gentle heart
You show me the value of being compassionate and considerate
You show me everything a person should be
By being someone whose grip is too strong to be calming
By being a cold, unhappy soul who does not want to attempt any tenderness
You were supposed to be my first love
But now I see you with a heavy heart
Yes, I love you
But that doesn't mean I do not feel anger

Dear God,

Let me keep this moment forever. Please.

I'd choose you over her
Hell, I'd choose you over any other girl
You know what? I've always loved you
Somewhere within me
I know that you've never really left my mind
Perhaps that's the thing about us
We spent too long not talking to each other
But I always knew that if I could've been sure
I would've chased you down and asked
If you'd want to go out sometime
And I know we live different lives
But perhaps that's why you've always been
A great mystery to uncover
I've seen your faults and you've seen mine
Let me set things right now
Let me do what I should've done years ago
Would you like to have a quality time with me?

This boy is special
If only you would show him
All the wonders you have ever seen
This boy is special
If only you would look at him
The way you are supposed to look at him
This boy is special
If only you knew the man that he'd become
And if only you knew
What you know now

I desire you, all that you are, all that you can be, and all that you are not.

Waste the rest of your youth with me
Let's pretend we know the ways of the world
We can forget where your money is from
And act as if we were the cool kids

Spend the rest of your life with me
Let me fall asleep with your arms around me
I will do what I can to give you serenity
And you can find your home with me

Sometimes you kiss him well into the night
And sometimes when he holds you
You feel as if you are a memory
That he desperately wants to keep

He will never call you the love of his life
But when he makes you face the crashing waves
With his hand firmly holding yours
You know he will never need to

You lie on your stomach
And I sit upright on the mattress
We'd turn on the TV
You put on a movie
Something gory and violent
We'd laugh at the characters
And we'd analyze the plot
And you'd tell me a thing or two
About the corrupt bureaucracy
Or how money rolls in the court
We'd talk long after the movie is over
Perhaps I'd fall asleep first
So you hover over me
Thinking all the things
A gentleman is not supposed to
And doing all the things
A gentleman will do to his lady
Come the dawn and I'd find you
Arms around me, face of an angel
So I'd slip back into where I was
Take your scent into my lungs
Praying that this can be our forever

Come away with me
I know places
Where you can be
Who you want to be
Without having to worry
About anyone knowing
Who you truly are
There is only you
For me
And there is only me
For you