Silence
Is what you did
Silence
Is what you said
Silence
Is all I get

Begging
For words
Begging
For something
Begging
You to say anything

Time passed
You haven't called
Time passed
I haven't stopped
Crying

"I need you" was all I said
Silence is what I get
"Say something" I begged
Silence is all I get

Did I say something way too honest?
Did I make you run and hide?
Did I really say something that bad?
Or I should've kept my mouth shut?

I wish I understood the silence
I wish I knew what to do
To ******* get to talk to you

And I'm sorry
For always crying
And I'm sorry
I talked about it
But please, I don't deserve silence

Why
Do I have to feel like this
Why
Do you always do this
Why, please tell me why

My ship is sinking
And I can't help thinking
I'm gonna drown again
In the ocean of my tears

Why oh tell me why

You said what you said
Theres no going back

Don't tell me you're sorry
When I'll have enough strength to attack

Yet you talked behind my back
You talked and you talked
Why, please tell me why

And I'm dying
Again, I'm crying
Yet you keep on saying
"Poor him, sad being"
Why, oh tell me why

And you think I don't know
And you think it's all right
But it's not, it's really not
And I'll tell you why

Nobody cared when I was crying
Nobody cared when I was dying
Nobody cared when I had something to say
"Seen" was all you did
"Seen" is what you do
To ignore the **** I'm going through

And I'll forgive, even forget
Why? I don't know

Why. Just tell me why

Think outside of the box for a second
Just one, please
Forget all about what you know, want, feel
Look at me, us with no power, knowledge about any of this

He cares, he asks, he's looking for you, he wants you
But "just as friends"
He fights, he wishes, he's doing all he can to stay with you
But "just as friends"

I sit, I cry, I lock myself in a cage up in the sky
I wait, I cry again, I hope for everything to end
Therapy, tears, anxiety, is all I think
When you just sit and talk to him

You know it hurts me
You wish for everyone to be ok
Yet you always say "it's not that way"
I swear to you he's *

But it hurts, and I cry
And I never fall back from the sky
Because I always feel
That "what if" running through my veins
It's evil, it's dark, it makes me do things
I never wish I've done

So please, one second
You don't know me, him, us
You look, you analyze everything
From the outside of the box

I don't know how to start this
But I swear it's ******* with my mind
Cause the way you never miss
And the way it makes me cry

Why's she always first?
And the way you always seem to make it worse
Why can't I just ignore it?
For her I'd just die for it

It makes me sick
It makes me cry
It makes me wish I could denie
Denie the fact that she's important
To repair your broken comportment

I hate your jokes
I hate my life
It's tiring me
It makes me die

And yet I always seem to come back trying
Trying to keep myself from falling
Into that deep cage again
Where I never seem to be the same

And I love her
I really do
But your indecisive way of being "you"
Makes my mind go back again
To the place I've always fell

And I tired to ignore it
Annoyed I avoided
Avoided my feelings
Desperate to cover the grave
Where I hid my toxic trait.

Dreaming about you almost every night
Forgot about my ex love, and last time I cried
I think I'd be ok in my own fantasy world
Cause they won't be able to even say a word

Sparkles, everywhere we look
Feels like the world is spinning around us
Stars falling down the sky in loops
Like your sparkly whispers surrounding us
Telling me it's time I open my eyes
Realizing I was dreaming all this time