If you were just a dream and not real
You would have been the best dream I've ever had
And I would have never wanted to wake up

She smiles in public
But cries behind closed doors
Scary what a smile can hide

The pain kept getting unbearable
As the blade slit her wrist deep
But she didn't stop cutting
With tear filled eyes
she screamed "I just want to feel if I'm still alive."

Their love was ocean deep
But they drowned in it because they couldn't swim
Maybe forever was there at the shore waiting for them
They will never know

She cried out loud as he pulled out her heart
Leaving a gaping hole in her chest
Not caring about the pain she felt
Breathless, she fell on her knees
Sobbing, she watched him walk away with her heart
And with that she whispered lifelessly under her breath knowing he will still hear her, "You called it love,I called it pain."

Lately I've been lost and trapped in my head
I feel so alone with no one to talk to
My anxiety is high and I'm mess
Tell me what do I do when I feel lost?
One minute I'm ok and the next I'm not
I hate this inconsistency in my mind
Thought I finally found my self
But I feel lost again

When people look at you
They see a happy me
And not the sad you
They see me laughing
And see my beautiful smile
But no one sees you crying
Or sees you hurt

Please take me off
Because I care about you
You have spent your whole life behind me
And I hate that I keep lying to this good people
The more you keep hiding behind me
The more you keep dying inside
Let the people see the real you behind me
And set yourself free

Lived each day thinking I had more of it
Wasted it when I had it
Now I‘m running out of it
“Time”, they warned me about her
But I didn't listen
Thought I had more of her
But she waits for no one
The clock keeps ticking

Maybe we don't really know what it is
People say it doesn't exist
Others say it's beautiful
Maybe no one really understand what it is
But I would love to experience it
Even just for once

I found it so hard to stop thinking about you
Maybe it was your good looks
Maybe it was those eyes that looked at me and made me feel so much warmth
Or that beautiful mind of yours as beautiful as your heart
A ******* masterpiece
A work of art
And just like a star you are so high I can only dream
And even if I will never be able to call you mine
At least we are under the same sky

And now
Waiting for him to notice me was like
Waiting for a ship at the airport
Waiting for rain in a drought
And waiting for snow to fall in summer

What if you are on their mind
As much as they are on yours
What if they miss you too

Not just writing, but a friend
Thank you for being my escape
From this cruel world

I write about you
But you do not exist
I don't even know you
But I wish to meet you

Look at you now
Beautifully covered in art
You don't need to cover up anymore
Your scars are beautiful