I saw my reflection blink
Once...twice...and a third time
Shivers run down my spine
As I take in those deep eyes of mine
Staring
Gawking at my features
What’s there to look at?
The look of pity she has
That I have, fills me with rage
What does she know?
Don’t judge me or else
I might just...
No, not today, maybe next time
When you’re not looking
So I’ll cover you up in order to stop that penetrating gaze of yours

A cold breeze caresses my skin
Gentle, yet sharp at the touch,
My cheeks flush at sight
I gasp rushing my arms around my waist
Memories flood my mind
A smile creeps on my face
There I am, phone at hand just typing away
“Where did that girl go?”, I wonder
The feeling of nostalgia takes over
Only that this time, it’s for the worst
Tears stream slowly as if time decided to torture me once again
This pain will never go away
Regain your strength beautiful,
I whisper to myself over and over again
I need to get back, or I’ll be gone forever
Wipe away those tears
Blink them away if you must
I’m up ready to face the world but first,
Let me plaster a fake smile
That’s what I do best
For I am a master at this

autumn will now be your season
you are plastered all over it
and no matter how hard I try
you will always be,
a memory is not enough

It’s nights like these where I need you to hold me,
and tell me everything is going to be just fine.