Our bond was strong and thight,
We could not find a reason fall apart.

We were anything but normal,
our passion for each other were matchless,
in its own way.

Because of you, my worst has be revealed.
Because I kept no boundaries with you.
I poured everything, everything that was in my heart
at my worst i am cowardlyand full of insecurities and fears,
I showed you,
I wanted you to see the real me. the ugly me.

beyond that, you also revealed the best in me,
As a hard working provider, as a caring father, as a loving husband, as a brave protector, as a responsible best friend and as a prayerful pastor.
These traits grew in me as I learned to love you,

Come back I ask, and I will give you love.
Everything of what I knew that is called love.

I love you. And I will not give up. Come back.

Like paper
and a match,
you know
exactly what
to say to draw
my anger
to the surface.
You somehow
always bring out
the absolute
worst in me.
-JRM

Why do I always feel worst on the best days?

I hate loving you so much because it's like grasping onto a hot coal without ever releasing it and I see the way you look into her eyes as if she's the only lovely thing you've seen in your entire life so I just keep burning my palms with this stone because I can not let it go and keep the flaming sensation to myself
  I think the worst part about loving you is the fact that I swear to god you've seen the open-flesh wounds from the burns but you choose not to see it and return to loving her
  no, the worst part about loving you is that you will never, ever love me too
please try to notice the way my knees tremble and my body becomes weak every time you walk towards me
please

The worst thing that could happen
is that one day
I wake up
and don't know who I am

The worst thing
would be when I look down
and no longer recognize
the road beneath my feet

What if I've been wrong--
what if I'm not going where I'm meant to go?
What if my entire life,
my ears have been ringing
with lies?

What if, they tell me
What if you're turning Nothing
into the ultimate Something?

You're probably right, I say,
hiding shaking hands and uncertain eyes

I remember there was a time in my life
when He gave me guidance
and told me that the road was set,
it was just my job to run

I used to run outside until I got hurt,
and since then I've forgotten what it feels like
to press your feet against asphalt
and let yourself fly,
if only for a few seconds at a time

I have forgotten the joy
in feeling productive pain
and I have forgotten to remind myself
that there cannot be progress
in the shape of perfection

Love seems to test us
We could spend hours
But still never own someone
And, babe, before it's gone
I just want to say
I really had so much fun,
So much of you today

Love,
          
         You bring out the *worst
                  and best in us...

Winter never meets summer.
Summer never meets winter.
You've all found someone better.
she has him and her.
she has her and him and her.
he has her and her, who I wish he didn't have because I'd prefer it if he had me.
he has everyone under his spell.
she has her and her.
she has her and him.
Everyone has someone better.
And I have no one.

the tears
are the worst part
of depression.

the choking
the little sobs that sneak out
making you feel         p a t h e t i c .

you wipe your eyes
rubbing them raw
and wait for them to stop leaking.

though
it
takes
a
while
.