The air in my lungs no longer live there anymore.
It's been replaced by the words I never said
and the feelings I never expressed.
They will live on in there till I set them free.
If I don't they'll die along with me.
I just wish there was another option because
Telling you has past
And death is too long to wait for.

I love to be in the rain.
It's the only time that i always cry,
without anyone knowing that I'm feeling sad and lonely in a desperate way.

Walls without window
Floor without feet
Room without Roof
Shouldn't I feel free?
But instead my throat is sore
And my eyes stream with pain
**I don't think life was meant for me
And these years have been in vain.

Lost and all alone.
I always thought that I could make it on my own.
But since you left I hardly make it through the day.
My tears get in the way and I need you back to stay.

I wander through the night
And search the world to find the words to make it right.
All I want is just the way it used to be
With you here close to me.
And I've got to make you see,
That I'm lost without your love.
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of.
And I'm as helpless as a ship without a wheel,
A touch without a feel.
I can't believe its real.
And someday soon I'll wake
And find my heart won't have to break.

Yes, I'm lost without your love.
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of.
All I want is the way it used to be
I need you here with me.
Oh darling can't you see,
If we had love before,
We can have it back once more

I blared my favorite songs throughout the car
and ignored the speed limit on the country roads
yet I still cried and banged my head on the wheel
because ironically, all my favorite songs are yours, too.

I attempted shopping and picking out pretty things
and I was happy for the first ten minutes
but then I broke down in the frozen foods section
and walked out with nothing but more grief.

I picked up my guitar to strum my pain away
but I zoned out thinking of you and staring at my reflection in the mirror
as I thoughtlessly picked the same string over and over

and that
is what I am
without you.

This is a collaboration work I wrote with a good friend of mine, Benjamin Patterson. These words are mine and his, and they tell a great story.*

Have you ever been down?
That dusty old road?
The one with no paths,
The one that grows old.
How did the young become proud?
How did they find it all?
Even though I hit the ground,
The hardest hit was the fall.
You know what they say.
“Turn the glass, spill the sand.”
I never felt so alone.
Without your hand in my hand.
I’ve been gone for so long.
Standing out in the rain.
I need to find a place.
Where I can just rest my brain.
No one stands when they fall.
The end was never so clear.
I always give it my all.
But I'm lost without you here.
Sure life has its ups and downs,
Even though I say I'm alright,
I scream out loud.
And again, I lay alone tonight.
There are no distractions.
I’m too busy thinking about any and everything.
After this past that I've been lain,
Just thought of what my future brings.
I've been through it all, the scars and the pain.
Riding on my Pegasus, I fell off into hopelessness.
I had made it through, I thought I conquered it.
But the past, which was you, came back and knocked me into unconsciousness.
I've been gone for so long.
Standing out in the rain.
I really just need to find a place.
Where I can rest my confusing brain.
No one stands when they fall.
But I always give it my all.
The end was never so clear.
I'm lost without you here.
I've tried my best, I've done it all.
Now I’m just standing out in the rain.
I survived the hit, but not the fall.
And now I’m laying here with scars mixed with pain.
Let's live in the moment. I'll leave the past behind.
I spill the sand from the glass.
We could be together again, or at least tonight we could try.
This moment will indeed be our last.

Life without you is like hope that’s lost in me.
I'll try to pull through, but will I?
I guess we will see.