You and I are the same though your big owl eyes stare me down asking "who?" and I'm wondering too recently things haven't been easy to spin and to spread snip snap there goes the thread of the fabric of time and space as I race the erasure of my mental merry go round of broken thoughts and drunken dreams filtering them through the soul by means of ego exciting the innovative rush of waves crushing my lungs with currents of love floating through one ear and out the other tracing my brain along the way through the angst and anger around the dark deceit and laughter and wriggling round the goals I'm after emanating out my ego directly into the black hole we call life where we are sure it exists but mysteries of its nature persist unexplored and unexaminable depths of delusional conclusions masked in illusion of love given down from above yet there is no higher than thy own mind and heart and death may never due us part since I'll forever be your light in the dark the lantern and key to release you from your worst enemy the silhouette of shadows a no named menace mincing and mashing memories and the scary thing is the villain is already inside disguised within dark thoughts on a dreary day yet we keep him at bay in the subconscious soliloquy answering "who is me?"

It was never once a question
Of whether or not she loved me
. . .  Though I did question it . . .
Of course she loved me
She loved everyone
Misfits, rejects, broken hearts
Why would I be different?
But in the end,
That was the question
Was I different from everyone else?
And if so,
Why?
She never once gave me an answer

Get out there
Yeah I'm talking to you
Who else would I be there's nobody in this room

Anyway, I see you've been oblivious to the outside world my friend
Don't worry, for I will help you from this worrisome trend
There's a lot more going on beyond the hills and past the evergreens
Even thousand of miles further where the Queen meets the teens

By all means, you can stay here if you so choose
Just know you will be missing out on the world's best views
An adventure of fun, and experience that is second to none,
in a beautiful destination with plenty of women and ***


It is not healthy to just stay in once place too long
Your perspective can get narrow even if you feel like you belong
You learn most from your fellow people with each moment
building upon the last creating an incredible wanderlust that you are very fortunate to have

So get out there
The world isn't going to knock on your door

I'm a puzzle with no corner pieces-
complicated and frustrating
but breathtaking when finally put
together.
Faded blue jeans, bare feet, and
a mass of wild curls.
Southern accented blunt truths
and sharp accessing eyes
that have forgotten their true color.
Messy scribbled words on heaps
of discarded paper
and gorgeous journals with empty
pages.
I am a piano player in private
and a singer in the shower.
Paint splattered hands
and a girl finding beauty
behind a lens.
A quiet thinker
with a head full of screaming
thoughts.
I am a lovely mess of
contradictions.

I want to believe
Im who I want to be
But what if who I want to be
Isn't who I'm meant to be
Im meant to be who I am
Im gonna be who Im meant to be

i finally have it
i came up to her and say it
the words came trembling
shivers all over my mouth

but finally it is done
i feel somewhat relieved
but then
she said

“who are you?”

Place the moniters on the right surface.  
Everything dances to a diferent frequency, hert

Scanning a pond of rocks
Recognizing  
Each fingerprint, pit, dimple
I rerealize now the specificity of everything
And amplify anything
listening in on the correct…. His/her voice can be heard
A medium is its own sea.