My tongue moves
as metaphors
washing up against sandy shores
to gently break and build
the beach
to how it stood
just years before.

I am just so sad
So so sad
It feels so heavy inside my chest
It feels like a fight I cannot win
Over and over again

It just wont let me go
When will it let me go
Give me a break
Let me breathe

I am too tired to tell it to stop
Stop whispering in my ear
Stop telling me what I did wrong
What I'm going to do wrong

It is drowning out everything that is good
It is telling me to be selfish
To leave
I wont
But I get tired of fighting at times
And tonight, I cannot put my shield up
I am too sad

the rain's melting glass
moulding our views
and moving intentions
to rooms where it started

in grey skies and days
gripping tightly as tea melts between
afternoon darkness

the city at evening
turned pines into curtains
drifting on branches

and in sudden still we walked out between them
in tunnels so soft words can't escape we
shook them together
the snow freezing down
between coatings inside the stitched cotton
we're both waiting there as cars drive below

the rain's melting glass
and scatters through streets
and cracks in the frame
are beginning to show

I’m not saying I wasn’t a good person, but YOU bring out the best in me.
I’m not saying I didn’t enjoy alone time, but sharing with YOU is most fulfilling.
I’m not saying I was not expressive, but YOU're the only one to know everything.
I’m not saying we never fought, but YOU're always the first to make amends.
I’m not saying our relationship was perfect, but YOU make it happier with every passing day.
So, how can you think that I don’t love you just cause I’M not saying it everyday?!

Let me be:
The makeup on your skin,
And the fragrance of your perfume.

Let me be:
The breeze that grazes your face,
And the unspoken letters on your lips.

Let me be:
Your hidden secrets,
And your full moon.

Let me be:
Your smile, your laughter, your tears,
Your wishes, and your happy dreams.

Hussein Dekmak