#uncomfortable poems on Hello Poetry

L Jul 2018

insecure

I put makeup on
but not too much
I wore my favorite outfit
straightened my hair

I felt good
and pretty

I left my house
my home
my safe place
then
someone looked at me
a moment too long
a little too judging

today I look pretty
I thought
that's why people look at me
I thought
I am going to be okay

I met friends
and a lot of people
and I couldn't help myself
but felt all eyes were on me
but
not in a good way
in a way
that made me feel uncomfortable
in a way I wanted to sink in the floor
and never come back again
in a way
that made me reconsider
my decisions
of dressing up
of putting makeup on
of straightening my hair
of feeling good
and pretty

#pretty #good #makeup #insecure #reconsider #decisions #uncomfortable #people #hair #safe

Mahati Jul 2018

Lunatic

Pointlessly lying on the ground
as if it would help ease the pain
Pointlessly exercising in my room
thinking maybe i haven't moved enough today
Pointlessly trying to get more sleep
pointlessly doing pointless things
hoping to get rid of the pain
The pain that i know will **** me one day
The pain no-one knows where and why
so they pretend as if it was normal
And yet again i fall to be helpless
when comes the day
where i
cry on my knees begging
something or someone to stop the misery
Crying holding onto my legs
hiding my head and also
trying not to rip it off
because i would
just to stop the agony
that is "normal"
When the pain comes
I look like a lunatic
It's not my fault
It's the society

#uncomfortable #pain #lunatic

D Baby Bey Jul 2018

lined up by the tree

it scratches–
just like the branches
of our faux christmas tree
that i stand by ***** for the photo
i don't smile
i don't want to
i hate wearing this dress

#christmas #moody #uncomfortable

An artist in making Jun 2018

put on a shirt

Why do you think it's okay
to send me snaps
of your shirtless self?

Maybe we were there once
Maybe I was okay with it even after we broke up
for a while
but life has moved on

I have someone else now

I don't need to see your chest hairs
when I talk to you

#uncomfortable #ex #why

Sam May 2018

******* Nausea

I’M FEELING IT AGAIN.

ALL THE ******* NAUSEA

Do ya ever feel that way?

You probably have a few times in your life.

But have ya ever felt it CONSTANTLY?

Every.
Single.
*******.
Day.
I feel it.

Sometimes it’s for a few hours.

But a lot of the time, it’s all **** day.

ALL **** DAY.

I’m so uncomfortable all the time.

Because of NAUSEA.

******* NAUSEA.

Forgive me for being a little bitter.

I’m just a little<a lot>nauseated.

I’m so frustrated with my constant nausea feeling. Ugh.

#depression #nausea #sickness #mental #health #is #poor #anxiety #uncomfortable

empty seas May 2018

so wrong

i feel so wrong
body distorted
my teeth are
vibrating
what is this?
why am i
this way
so wrong
distorted
uncomfortable
so wrong

i feel so weird

#body #pain #anxiety #distorted #wrong #uncomfortable

ab May 2018

chronic(ally ill)

Y O U

will consume me
from the inside and
swear it's for the best when i
start feeling the attack

Y O
U

want me dead.
i'm sure of it, i know my cells (and or)
you and your patterns and
the funny way you fill my face with

w
a
t
e
r

Y
OU

make me want to not die
just to spite the hell out of you
even if you leave me wheezing
and shaking in my bed (low low low)

Y O U

are doctors appointments without
the lollipop, the fear and longing for
sleep, the way i cannot breathe
when you are active (lack of empathy)

yOU
YoU
yOu
YOu

make me suffer
suffer make me
me suffer make
make suffer me
suffer me make
me make suffer

beep boop
i'm tired of tubes and needles
and pills

i look like a ******* ******

~ugh

#chronic #illness #sick #self #tired #exhausted #scared #frustrated #lonely #uncomfortable

Nylee Apr 2018

not ending soon enough.

This adulthood is the most uncomfortable place I'm in,
it will not come to an end soon like all the good things do.

#goodthings #soon #enough #notending #end #adulthood #nyee #uncomfortable