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Crystal June Dec 2015
Numb.
I'm the careless, selfish person I never wanted to become.

Eighteen years of being alone has left me jaded and believing love doesn't ******* exist. Guys will settle for my body for a night with no intention of knowing my mind.

And, perhaps worse, some even stoop so low as to pretend to be interested in me - ask me about my family, my religion, my passion, my stance on politics - with the underlying intention to just use me and never speak to me again.

Those are the ruthless kind of boys who give ****** up, broken girls like me a glimmer of hope. There's nothing crueler than making the hopeless hopeful - earning their trust only to crush it again.

And now I can't look at the stars without thinking of him. I knew we'd never love each other, and was honestly only remotely attracted to him.

He was just the first boy to ever look at me that way - like I was something to be desired. He took what he wanted under a thin veil of respect, then left me staring at the stars and feeling like the stupid girl I am.

We were never meant to be in love.
I never loved him.
DaSH the Hopeful Dec 2015
I miss you
Now you only exist through photographs
     And I wonder if you smile between the frozen moments I see of you
   I plead its true
          Cause I'm bleeding new negatives of myself
    But the only pain I've felt was putting you on a shelf
                 I can't see it any different
    I think of you an infant and now I see you crawling and I wanna call your momma but I wonder if it matters and when to cut ties
     I cut all the veins until most of it died
     I got blood on my hands but most of it dried
  Somehow the blood mixed with filth and a vine grew inside
      And I wonder if I can touch your face if I climb

        *
When is all lost?
When its all tossed aside and goes out with the tide?
                   I need a vanilla sky to make a horizon and bring back the water
             Meanwhile I hear mommas having a daughter and I want her to be a doctor automatically
     Cause success is something none of us ever got to see
Samantha Dec 2015
I discovered the untold
only because you let me
I don't know how
I don't know why

I wanted to believe
but I think I was deceived
I wanted to stay sane
but you've made me insane

I've seen you at the beach
happily holding your cigar
with a girl who's like a witch
and then head out for the car

how could you do that?
after you've said those words
you even brought her to the club
while on the shore, you left me drunk




(samber)
Mikoarenas Dec 2015
You've noticed their struggles and it called to you
They just naturally gravitate towards you

And it ***** because I can feel feelings filling my body and It confuses me
Not because I'm not ready
But Because it's been awhile
I've forgotten how to react and I'm not even sure if I want them

It's taken awhile but I've finally come to the conclusion
I'm only a friend and I like it
So I will continue to fight it
These feelings that are unwanted
Are far over due
Jellyfish Dec 2015
Right now I'm
outside looking
up at the sky
and I'm tired
of trying to
rhyme all
the time
everyone's
always
butting
into my life
it's as if they
want me to
be upset all the time?
one day I'm happy
the next day I'm not
but you know what
never changes?
Their screams that
spout from hatred.
Whatever happened
to telling me I could
accomplish greatness?
Because I'm tired of
waiting and chasing
while I'm complaining
as I'm suffocating beneath
your demands ****
I wish I'd just stand-
up to you.
David Dec 2015
Cupid is my homie
He likes to keep me high
Filling me with arrows
Every day
And every night
You might just call me foolish
Im inclined to think the same
But i saw her at a bus stop
I dont even know her name
We locked eyes for a moment
And her smile seemed to say
Ill love you til tomorrow
And then ill fade away
Maddy Van Buren Nov 2015
white people, white people, white people
I chase my drink
It won't come back
white people, white people, white people
here is something metaphorical
allegorical
white people, white people, white people
I heard someone spends thousands
to look like pennies
white people, white people, white people
**** your poetry in the bed
you tell cheap lies in
white people, white people, white people
my god
it's all so wrong
Im done with waiting
Im over crying
I don't believe a word you say
Ive had my heart broken many times
By your broken promises
I should of learned a long time ago
Not to let myself fall for your words
AM Nov 2015
once again, I threw myself to hell
faking every curve of smile on my lips
just to get other guy placed his hand on my hips
just kiss me tonight, do what he'd does
disinfect me from the lies he whispered
about how deep he was in love with me
make my body forget the way it yearns
for his touch everytime I undress myself
love me, love me more, and I promise
I'd say I love you and stay forever
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