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Jeremy Betts Oct 2024
I've never felt the comfort of being comfortable enough to be me
...
Do you know what that's like?
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Like floating dead center of the deepest sea
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And trying to ride a mangled bike
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Like climbing to the weakest part of the tallest tree
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Then stepping out to start the hike
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I can't locate the key to unlock any different reality
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Try as I might
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So I struggle significantly to just be the Jeremy others want to see
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When I don't even know if that Jeremy is someone I like

©2024
Jason Adriel Oct 2024
it gets better, someone said
after a while, it gets better
impatience killed too many
and often life is too much to bear

i am still holding out for better days
at night, i kneel and throw out prayers
like dying prophet, i call out to God
will it mean anything, my dripping blood?

my fallen teeth, the uncountable tears
sweat and times i wanted to give in
my heart, a thousand have pierced
i still swing my blade like a fedayeen

if there is something big awaiting me
if there is light at the end of the tunnel
i am willing to fight for it
i will never throw the towel

for once, i will do what's right
for once, i won't die without a fight.
life will get better.
Ken Pepiton Oct 2024
Any alienation possible on Earth,
is speculative, at best.

Chances are we are all bits.
Relativity, given a will to make sense,
at one stage the subtle hiss says we are

one mind, can not make sense of another,
all is mine, my mind, I run the decision tree,
intuited in code, init
from one seed,
proceed consideration,
ah, wait, seeds from nothing,
Chicken and egg sequencing, in mind,

rightly dividing, soul and spirit, will and way,
who can say,
we think, we live, with no forethought,
no plan to become, yet, then
now, jetzt wir sind, denken.

Nada mas. The upright walking man,
is unstable in all its ways, wombed and un.

Which leads to why we walk with toes
pointing everything thing in us to home.
Superior problem solving creative mind form filler, fix the pinball balance switch it continually flashes tilt... or is this a gamble, can we win... more than we invest... like a ***, satisfied with plenty?
The beauty and the struggle in loving,
It’s really something,
I love, loving.

The affection, the passion, the slight imperfections of the affections I hold dear in my heart,
It’s something authentic,
There was a time when Jada and Will was the aesthetic….
But now I want nothing that resembles them,
I want my own fairy tale a little like the ones on the movie screens, and the book shelves,
One that shares the true beauty of love,
And the beauty of struggle,
The combination of both of them, that makes relationships real,

Now a days I don’t see the balance,
There’s more love, less struggle, or the complete opposite,
All over media, there’s either this perfect picture couple,
Or a toxic situationship
There’s nothing passionate, affectionate, or authentic about it,
This new age is all about “no labels” and throwing in the towel over the little stuff,
Letting the struggle consume the love, over the little things, with arguing, and blocking, and posting subs,
And It ***** because,
there’s truly a beauty in the struggle of loving,
It’s really something,
I love loving.
Blessing Thabane Oct 2024
I used to wonder, used to judge,
How lives unravel, how souls begrudge,
How bottles cradle shattered dreams,
And promises fade like distant screams.

Whiskey was a word I spoke
With distant pity, a careless joke,
"Why not fight?" I'd boldly say,
But now I see how hope can fray.

Life rushes in, swift as a flood,
Dreams turned to dust, hearts bruised with blood.
I’ve seen the years slip through their hands,
Plans abandoned like drifting sands.

I don’t seek whiskey's cold embrace,
But now I see the tender space
Where some give in, where strength subsides,
Where the light dims and courage hides.

I used to judge the broken years,
The quiet falls, the stifled tears,
Those who reach their twilight days
With tangled paths and unhealed frays.

But now I know—how life can bend,
How even giants break and bend,
It’s not the weakness I once scorned,
But silent battles left unmourned.

Yet still, I rise, though skies grow dim,
With heavy heart and trembling limb,
To chase the stars, to stand my ground,
To seek the dreams that still resound.

I understand why some give in,
Why whiskey calls beneath the din,
But I’ll face the storms that scar the land,
No whiskey in this steady hand.

For I have learned the weight they bear,
The silent grief, the whispered prayer,
And though I walk through nights untamed,
I’ll keep my fire, unashamed.
I used to judge adults and the ones who came before me but now I see their stories etched in shadows, not of ignorance but of life's cruel toll. Through my own trials, I've learned that wisdom is woven in scars and understanding flourishes in the soil of experience. Life comes at you fast.
Lemon Black Oct 2024
How many lose their way
in woods that stand in grace,
in everlasting silence,
like in a fog shrouded,

that can’t be pierced with eyes
and thickens as you stare,
so wanderers, unaware
of how to cross these parts,
their constant search for signs,
they fear they cannot bear.

Once felt led astray,
they pick up the pace
and turn words to prayer
with inner strength united.

A voice that casts its spells,
to brace, fight, and repel
apparitions and wraiths
that it had just invited,

to make a rightful claim
on what it cannot gain,
as it cannot be lost
by conquered trees and ghosts.

Then back to where it started,
to woods that stand in grace,
in everlasting silence,
like in a fog shrouded.
It's difficult to avoid turning the search for inner peace into an expedition—with packed provisions, marked route, identified challenges, and a backup plan. Having set out on such a journey, we quickly learn that it is impossible to traverse the unknown following established pathways. This might come with frustration, with fear of being lost, only for us to identify and overcome, again. But these victories do not come with the wished rewards, leaving us lost in the woods, again. Until we realize that there is no fog, nor are there trees either, and with this newfound clarity, we can finally follow the way as it unravels.
Klausyuer Oct 2024
"

My brothers and I once leapt like bunnies through this lonely forest,
Giggling like monkeys while swinging from branch to vine.

Granma's rainbow smiles while holding her fresh apple pie,
Scented with lemon and wine,
Lured us from the trees of vibrant Eden.
While Grandpa’s stormy voice echoed, sharp and strict,
As if bruises from needle-like sticks and tics
Were not enough to teach us fear.

We laughed like children from dawn to dusk,
Until we mourned each night,
When caskets lay beneath the six-foot graves.

Dark-veiled clouds gather to mourn,
As raindrops cascade, pouring out my tears.
The warmth of laughter fades like whispers in the rain,
A reminder of what was lost, of joy that now feels vain.

A single soul drifts through the grieving rain,
While the breeze of rotting, lemon-wine-scented pie
Entombs me in ice,
As I shiver in dismay
At the sight that they died.

Now reminiscing alone, aimlessly wandering
Down the withered Eden,
Where we once strode hand in hand,
Keeping me in the secrecy of mourning lilies,
As the regretful forest drags me back,
Lost in the haze of time’s stagnation.
"
-Klausyuer: The ****** Poet
About someone not letting go
Aaron J Tabbert Oct 2024
Welcome, welcome my friends
to where it all ends
but first let me offer you
some proclivities? or perhaps a cold brew?
I'm sure our kitchen can put something in queue
as you can see, this place is your mirage
in a desert so cold, your mental barrage
walking through such a grand entrance
through the glowing rooms we advance
to get to the Dance of Darkness
show off some finesse
with that familiar feeling
that is never healing

We can promise you
this dance is quick to learn
and in return, yearn for escaping
your mind; reshaping
lets keep moving forward
we already have your drinks poured
strange walls that are these halls
everything dark and dreary
every passing moment, grows ever so wary
pale candle lit walls
the souls of its victims scout
spirits and apparitions throughout
through the rooms we glide
your facade, it cannot hide
behind the lies, drugs, and alcohol

Turn around, have enough of it all
psychedelic hallucinations
absurd explanations
broken promises
lost bets, empty threats
chalked full of regrets
through the grand door
and out onto the floor
three sheets to the wind
ride the waves, ride the waves
dancing your dance again
Jesus saves, Jesus saves
just serenade me in the moon light
the end is not in sight
let this be our night
but your mind caves, your mind caves
your mind; this dance enslaves
at your darkest of hours
your inverted crescendo
when your mind is aglow
you stumble and lose balance
but regain composure and take a stance
struggling with your own dance
with a sharp glance you say...

~~~~
so you really want to know what its like
we all have a dance we dance
but this dance of darkness
will grip you and hold you
take all the things you love and scatter them miles from you
cuz thats what it does, thats what happens
take what you remember and force a bottle to their neck
seeing things through a rose colored lense
but the next day not recognize
the face looking back at you
only thinking about yourself, when you can get the next fix
and then when the shakes are in full force, you remember...
so buy another bottle *****
scratch that itch
go to another party and tell yourself its okay
again, dance the dance
then pray to your god to give you one more chance
pray your lover will take you back
pray your kid forgives you
pray you don't die before that happens
the withdrawals are enough to make a strong man cry
and a weak man, die.
the fun times are over
im lying in my own sweat and ***** on the floor
yeah, i dance again because im starting to remember
and alls i want to do is return to that rose colored embrace
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as it impedes on your ability
to see what you need to see
why this cannot be
why are you this way
As the night continues
Second thoughts to stay
and everyone's darkness consumes
The dance is in full swing
its time to show them what you bring
its time to rock and roll
and as anxiety and fear takes its toll
at this very moment, is when you'd lose all control
taking a step forward, hesitation sets in
becoming as stiff as a mannequin
turn around, let this be a win
the 1st step is always the hardest
remember, you're just a guest

like falling to the dark side
lets avoid it like the plague
the path that takes and takes
increasing the stakes
every.single.day.
with a heavy price to pay
What do you say?
its time to move off this dance floor
too poor, bank account drained
this soul has been stained
like a memory etched in the fabric of time
an exact moment, where stars precisely align
whatever demons that block your path
you dont have to face them on your own
like medusa, lets turn them to stone
if they ever lay eyes upon you when alone
There is a backstory to this poem. Written for those who struggle with addiction.
Malia Oct 2024
i was messy crying but you
took me into your arms and
told me that you loved me
and that i would be okay.
i am far too scared to let you see
my tears, most of the time,
but sometimes they break free
and i color blue outside my lines.
i thought, somehow, you would leave
me to my tears, alone, but you
did not, and picked me up, brushed off
the dirt, and let the dam break.
it is not always like this, but today
you keep me safe.
the inside of my mind was as harsh
as any bleach, corrosive, acid,
so harsh it needed a warning sign,
so harsh that i could hardly survive,
but now it is quiet and warm and suddenly
i can breathe again when i thought that
the oxygen had run out.
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