It's the first hour of the new year and I feel whole.
It could be because of all the champagne
Or the fact I realized that **** happens and you can't control it, so you might as well just smile
I'm pushing the thought of you away
I'm smiling and laughing with my mom and sister
I feel happy

1987 she arrived
31 years, man I'm happy she's alive
She wasn't supposed to live passed the
age of 5
The years have gone by
And I'm grateful she survived
Truly thankful to have her in this life of mine
My mom carried her in her belly for a very long time
What happened during birth felt like a crime
I learned about it when I was young
Got sentimental and I cried

I understand that pregnancies don't
always go as expected
My mom was in pain and the doctors
were so neglecting
The umbilical cord got wrapped around
my sister's neck and
There must have been something they
could have done to prevent it

I did some research and things like this could happen
But the doctors suddenly fell into a panic
The time kept ticking and it was adding
up so fast and
She suffered brain damages and a lack
of oxygen

They took a while before they could
remove the cord
It's almost like the doctors were not
aware of her position
My momma was happy to finally hold her
in her arms
But now, she has to live each day with cerebral palsy and mental retardation

My motive is not to seek revenge
I just want everyone to get a better understanding of an unfortunate situation
You must comprehend that they are
humans too
They deserve more respect and they do
not deserve humiliation

Even though she has the brain mentality
of a young child
She'll come give me a hug once in a while
She gets excited to hear my voice when
I talk to her on the phone
The happiness I get when I see her
lovely smile

And even though she's technically the middle child
She's always going to be considered the baby
I love her no matter what she has as a condition
She is still a child of God
She is such a beautiful young lady

you are the center, the sun in the sky
warming, lighting, guiding those below

you are the core, the hub in the wheel
forming, maintaining, strengthening the circle

you are the earth, the bedrock beneath
supporting, stabilizing, reinforcing our lives

you are the reason for our being, our births, our lives
nurturing, nourishing, caring for our hopes, our dreams

you gather, sort the fruits, roots harvested from the land
tending, stoking, reviving embers smothering in the hearth

your strength transcends your body, your mind, your heart
from the first child, to the last, your love, affection is forever

you cradle, caress, kiss, comforting the child
reassuring, protecting, shooing monsters away

you are the strong, tough, steady woman in our lives
fierceness of a lioness, tender as a kitten, loving her child

She's a warrior.
She's the head of her herd, protecting those closest to her
Never letting down or giving up.
She is a force to be reckoned with
Fiery and bold, one you can always count on.
She's been through hurricanes
Earthquakes
Natural disasters - disrupting her life and bringing her down with the damage.
But she always got back up
She flew through all the ruckus around her;
Creating a beautiful masterpiece with her life
She's a beautiful disaster.
She's my rock, my best friend.
She's my sister.

The flaming jewels now burn with phoenix fire
Red as rubies, alive as sunlight fair,
Within your woodland eyes, a glowing gyre
Each morn reborn to fly with splendor rare.
The forest dark, alive with creeping death
That lies beyond our cottage warm and true,
Writhing with wily worms and ****** breath,
Withers to meet such elven souls as you.
Your arrows straight fly true with poisoned peaks.
Each well-aimed word impaling wicked foes.
Your bow drawn taut will taunt the shadow-freaks;
Your mystic blades will blaze with azure glows.
Blow the sky-blast trumpets! Split the quiet night!
She wields the deathly darts; she fights with phoenix-light.

I know why you're mad...
I don't blame you for that
I would be too.

Your sister isn't the only one I hurt,
Yes believe it or not you have feelings too
But we are fixing what we broke.

So I hope someday you'll move past this,
I know it won't be easy
But I almost lost your sister,
And it would **** to lose you too.