I’ve never killed anybody, but
I may as well have
You see, I’ve spent so much time
Hating
So much time tearing others
To shreds that
If every callous comment was a casualty
I’d be the world’s most successful serial killer

Although, I guess it’s not just me
No
It’s every single teenage girl in existence
It’s every inferiority complex
Every dysmorphic body
Every ounce of self-hatred
In the nation
Wrapped into one
Spewing gossip and resentment like Diet Coke-infused lava

I’ve never killed anybody, but
I sure have wounded some people’s pride
Fueled their ego-scalding tears at night
Just to protect me and stop mine
Like somehow that makes it right

I’ve never wanted to be a bully, but
Sometimes
It’s **** or die

every night i'm all alone
i wonder where things went wrong
i hate every part of myself now
and i thought you couldn't do any harm

I lay myself bare
In front of your eyes
My hardened heart of ice
Couldn't take as you mock me

Tears in my eyes
Nothing but knives.
Hurts too much to feel
I need other kind of pain.

To mute your words
To stay in this world.
Can't let you see it more
You cracked my core.

I shouldn't stay I think
My heart won't take the hint.
Needs and wants don't meet
You are too important to leave.

So I will lay myself bare
And take all the pain
Sleep on tears for pillow
Keep myself shallow.

So no one can tell...I'm dying on the inside.

the moon used to follow me
when i was a child
and filled with joy

but now i don’t see her quite as often
she is busy mourning
the children that she loved
after they grew up
and didn’t love themselves

I look at the scar on my wrist
It was opened one more time
And no-one cares
If my nails are blood-red

Not worth the pain
It's always the same
When I wake up with shame
It's only me I can blame

I just want one more day
Filled with love, not hate
Too loud inside with pain
My smile is just a facade.

So you can't see me
While cry in the dark.
Leaves my mouth only plea:
Let me leave the world.