Sliver in my finger,
Oh why must you linger?
You have become a part of me
Cut you out I must, pardon me

Have you ever wished you never embarked on that journey?
Have you ever wished you never picked that call?
Have you ever wished you never said hello?
Have you ever wished you never joined that group?
Have you ever wished never attended that meeting?
Have you ever wished you never attended that institution?
Have you ever wished you didn't say 'I do'?
Have you ever wished you never terminated it?
Have you ever wished you said no?

Well the truth is, as long as you're alive you'll still make more mistakes and you'll still wish you never made them.
You may never know how terrible a road is if you have never plied it.
Just don't stop believing. Stay positive!
Learn from your mistakes and rise above them.

my heart weighs
heavier
and heavier
with all the sins
but
I look at what's in front of me
with ill intent
ready to pile more gold
onto my soul
and drag it lower
all the way to hell

The horizon calls me home
I walk alone to it, silent.
My feet swollen yet stubborn
Take me true to my home.
Am I a knight of penance, or -
A pawn for ill fates to vent?
I'll never know, I know, but still
I walk to that light - my end.

This sadness is taking me over.
Blue sun is above and inside.
I haven't find five-leaved clover.
Regrets don't have end. I'm so tired.

There's no one to blame. I am useless,
Responsible for all mistakes.
Why's always my fortune so cruel?
Anxiety's hiding my face.

I wish I could blow out the fire
Of powerless anger and pain.
How quiet cries terrible liar
Knows only the night and the day.

1 breakdown in
2 different bathroom stalls with
3 layers of mascara dissolved

1 chance and I gave into
2 stupid words that separated the
3 hearts involved

1 cigarette turned to
2 turned to
3 turned till none left at all

“1 drink” I said until it was
2 in the morning, the liquor settling the
3 mistakes I made in the summer

1 month, to lead the other
2 months just hoping it'll be better for
3 without even

1 breakdown, no I'll have
2 minutes to calm down
3 breaths, in and out

1 chance and I blew it,
2 shots to the throat left
3 stomach turning down falls

1 friend turned to
2 friends turned to
3 turned till none left at all

1 loud voice silenced the
2 quiet voices telling me the
3 things that I need to face, to see

But don't tell me
It's as easy
As 1, 2 ,3

We had driven each other crazy
We had hurt each other so badly
Truly,
We just were not the right ones for each other
The old versions of ourselves deserved better
Indeed,
We needed time to heal
We needed time to grow

Yesterday,
All we could feel is pain
We were full of regrets, of hatred, and of questions
Today, I can say
The horrors of the past are finally free
Now that we’ve found the missing pieces of our puzzles,
The past can rest

The better versions of ourselves are now with the right ones,
With the ones whom we can love better than we ever did before
With the ones whose patience, understanding, love, and everything in between, are more long-lasting than ours before

Today,
All I can feel is happiness and gratefulness
Thank you for all the memories we had shared
They might not be the best ones
But I have learned and grown a lot
I am still deeply sorry for all the pain I had caused you

But dear,
Everything worked out just fine
And that's what matters