all along I thought you
hated me enough
to hurt me

but all along you didn't
love me enough
to want to

{have you realized, my love?
        that you are
                all i breathe,
    all i seek
                up above
in the sky and clouds
            i’ve encountered
    a path
            in absence of
        you
        it leads me
to a vast
        and desolate
                darkness.

    the path is
            fragranced
    by your sweet
                and
innocent scent,
        your blissful energy
    trapped in captivity
            cries out to me,
my love

    my love, you are
        brandished
            by gold and ivory
    i'm in love with
your shine, but
            undeniably
    you aren’t looking
                    at mine.

    you, my dear, are
                magnetic,
transcending and
            everlasting joy
    rushes my heart
        while the thought
    of you

            rips.

                    me.

        apart.}
­
-melancholicreator

Pretending that your feelings doesn't exist is one of the worst punishment a man can do to himself.

That self, that version
The one who's been forgotten
The one they never accepted
The one who was hidden
That inner self, that inner nerd,
The one without no emotion...

Time has come!
The song has been sung!
No point in running no more...
The time has come..

Time to unleash the "one"
Time to be truly "me" !!!

I used to think contentment was the thing to live for
To make a life of
It made sense,
I don’t know why

I do,
It was because of you.
Because in this decade of love that is coming to an end

I looked for everything of purpose in you
Then I found myself & thought we were so much of the same

Then I realized it was a fantasy & it wasn’t a game  

It took me so long

There was so much confusion much less delusion

I feel as though I’m slowly finally letting go
I just can’t keep running back to a thought that isn’t going to help me grow

I’m sorry & I hope there’s no resentment because this hurts me just as much
& I know it’s absurd but please
would you please still let me in  

Can we find new purpose
Because I feel as though we need much more & I still stand by what I’ve said
I just feel like living is much more than just being content

Birth on one side,
Death on the other.
Fire runs down the middle.
I watch my life,
Taper down.

Woke up, saw a face.
Looking down, on the bed.
Looking through, my eyes.
My soul, and my sight.

My blood, pumped up.
My heart started to weep.
My brain, needed more oxygen.
To get me out of this heap.

How did this happen,
Where was I lost.
Why couldn’t I figure out,
What happened after the dark?

Getting out of the covers,
Took like 10 freaking hours.
As I looked at the date,
And went off to mars.

I had to do it quick,
My life was on the line.
One wrong step,
And I’d weep so much that I die.

Fortunately for me,
My saviour had come.
Panic was telling me,
Take a deep breath and began.

******* monkey,
You ruined so much of my time,
But the real monster was here,
A beast in disguise.

I began, with a breath.
And a big glass of coke.
It told me to be calm,
And remain for the toast.

It showed me what I needed,
It showed me a way.
But first it told me,
To remain calm is the way.

I worked for hours,
And the days to come.
Took deep breaths,
And played games in the dim.

All was not lost,
I still had my sight.
Thank you panic,
Showing me a way, from my might.