What is this longing that i feel?
Is the moon getting older
or everyone around me bitter?
My heart is streched,
into millions of pieces
Unable to recognize what it's calling for.

Who do i talk to, when it feels the loneliest?
The house is getting cold,
my feet heavy.
It is creeping on me
How do you help,
how do you soothe
when you feel
the weight of the worried on your shoulders?


Do you ever feel the pain of your loved ones as your own?

I fought a war
I won
Maybe
See, sometimes I’m not sure if I did
because the war is over
but my hands are still dripping red
they drip all over this better future I’m trying to build

I am opening the ledger to my childhood
I can taste dust, sweat, and tears
I can taste innocence again
only now it feels wrong
like I should have known better
They took home from me
gave me scraps and told me to grow
"Big and strong baby you have battles to fight."
years later I am finally learning
how to take a deep breath
without my own blood choking at my lungs
with only my mistakes to pay the consequences for
I drip far less over this better future I am building


-Would you call me a martyr if I told you how many times I sacrificed myself for my future?

Yet to live
We searched for more
Shamed of your desires
to even the score
Open your eyes to see
Misty winds
Counting the minutes
It takes to breathe in.

This person has a headache,
Another’s got the flu,
Someone has a broken heart,
The other’s got a bruise.

She’s got a paper cut,
He has many scars,
Their *** is really boring,
Some dude stole the car.

One guy’s got an ache,
One girl's got a pain,
“Doctor, please prescribe us something,
strong enough to fry our brains!”

Everyone has a problem,
In our mind or on our skin.
When did life become the game
that only pills can win?