Obsessed
With your memories
In the rain
I walk
My head held high
Tears of the clouds
Blend with mine
Watching from
Stained glass
I see your shape
As you hold her
At her waist
Twirling…

Obsessed with fear,
Obsessed with tears,
Obsessed with the years of pain and slavery to fear.

Alive and well,
the pain is real, you can't tell?
Awkward and weird.
Out of place, pure.

Crying inside.
Thoughts collide.
Obsessed with pain.
Obsessed with the moments filled with rain.

Too much pain.
Too much rain.
Too much to bear.
Wear and tear.

There I was thinking
I’d never feel this way again
The lost that I’ve felt
The dark places I’ve been

I came to an acceptance
That this is how my life would be
I found myself moving on
Became happy with just me

Then you came into my life
Everything about you was just right
You left an imprint on my heart
On that late November night

We each had our fears
We wondered if we were moving too fast
Be both fell in love
We said we hoped that it would last

For the first in a long time
I thought perhaps soulmates are real
The sweet words that you spoke
All the ways you’d make me feel

Your sweet lips against mine
Your warm breath in the air
You drove me wild
Running your hands through my hair

Things moved rather quickly
We spoke of tying the knot
But little did I know
That’s not what you sought

For one day you would leave
That was such a confusing day
“We can fix whatever’s wrong” I said
As I tried not to plead for you to stay

But your mind was made up
I was a little too late
To this day I question why
For that was never our fate

“Forever and always” you said
You wanted to be mine
I tried to give you the world
I gave you all my time

We were obsessed
Perhaps that’s the problem you see
Your feelings grew weaker
As you fell out of love with me

Now I’m left wondering
Was what you felt true
Or was it all an act
Simply because I was someone new

Was I just another warm body
To help you fill a void?
After everything we shared
Now I feel destroyed

Like a mad man thoughts go through my head like swarming wasps. Every single emotion stinging worse than the one before.
You're not mine,but in my head you are.
So everything you do is vital, everything you are is exactly who I try to be.
Just so you'll notice me, so you'll want me..
To you it's obession,
To you it's jealousy,
But at what point does love turn into toxicity..
This is all I have to offer; this is all I know how to give.
This love is too much for the both of us.
Will you ever let me love you the way I envision every night?
Or will you keep me in this ****** zone of "what ifs","maybe", and uncertainty...
You're killing me and yet you make me feel truly loved...

❝ i feel
so hollow
in this pale moonlight

i beg of you,
sunrise,
make me feel right,❞

My dear old flame
I'd sigh with your name,
follow you
then lost in your eyes.

No they aren't as clean
nor as deep or as blue,

they aren't the sky
or the ocean
or pools.

oh no, not pristine, luster of glass.

The closer I'd peer
into them
by the end
You'd appear to me, but an ***.

Serendipity in you
Oh ! my sweetheart

I don’t know what I am to u ...

I wish to know much I mean to u.

But I always am hesitating to...

I am always addicted to u

I want to escape from u

I am trying but I am failing in that too

The only thing which resides in my HEART now is U

I don’t want to accept but I have to

That I cant separate from u

Oh! Beloved, lover and dream of everyone

I am jus ordinary to be loved

I am nothing but a piece of BEAUTY

Searching for ur soul

Will u accept my presence? or u will reward me disappointment

I don’t know the consequences.... but I JUS want u

I am afraid to be pushed out

Don’t push me out ..

oh! BEAUTY

SAY SOMETHING

Do u want me too

Do u like me like i do

I am waiting for these answers foretime

And i will wait a thousand years

Only jus to hear that U LIKE ME TOO ..!!

Oh !! my adorable ,

Thou lookest only upon SOUL , not BEAUTY

My words fly up .. like UR BEAUTIFUL soul

LIFE without u ... is meaningless like me without U !!

MeEnakshi

I am obsessed with technology.
The noises from other people's lives are just loud enough to drown out my own.
The bright lights give my eyes something better to look at then this eternal mess I've created.
The videos distract me just long enough to survive into the next day instead of becoming another casualty of this world.
The people give me hope that there's something better out there, that if I can hold on a bit longer, something good might happen.
So yes, I am utterly o-b-s-e-s-s-e-d with technology.