Nung ika'y aking nakita,
pakiramdam para sayo ay wala,
Ngunit di nagtagal,
Naglaro si kupido at tadhana.

Pinana ng pana ni kupido
at binaluktot ni tadhana
landas nating dalawa

Isang araw, nakita kita sa isang tabi,
ika'y nilapitan at pinangiti,
Hnaggang isang gabi,
Puso'y di mapigilan, sinigaw sayo
Mahal kita, aking sinta!

Nung naging tayo.
Walang umangal ng kung ano,
Hanggang sa dumating ang araw na
tayo'y pinaglayo.

Hindi kinaya ang pagkukulang,
kaya winakasan,
sapagkat sandata ng kalawakan,
oras at distansiya ating kinakalaban.

Bakit kailangan ganito?
Pero anu pa bang magagawa ko?
Huli na lahat, para ipaglaban ko,
pag-ibig na binalewala ko.

Kasalanan ko,
Pagdurusang dinaranas ko.

Write 10 negative things about myself. Here they are:
1. I am fat.
2. I self-harm.
3.Stupid.
4.never learn.
5.everything is always my fault.
6.I am a bad person.
7.I am worthless.
8. I am a *****.
9. I'm a *****.
10. No one will ever love me.

Me:
Is it all my fault?
The way I feel?


Monsters:
Of course, you are sensitive, stupid, and naive.
You are making it worse and worse.
It's all your fault. Every last bit.

This
My Fault
This

I felt your light upon my
Chest
With melting Streams
And Rivers
I did Fear

Oceans of Goodness
So Intense
No Thought of Myself
Could I Take

No other could be Greater
For This
I am Alive
Blameless Life
I'm Sorry.

It's my fault that everything is wrong and falling apart it's my fault everyone is fighting and not getting along ....it's my fault

im not really fine
and im sorry
and i almost did something
and i don't regret it
im sorry

ive caused so much pain
its all my fault
im sorry
im so sorry

I told you this would happen;
I would hurt you and you would be empty,
I warned you I was a **** up,
But you thought you could fill me whole again;

So the first time I pushed you, and
Took my problems out on You,
You bandaged your wounds
and smiled like it didn't hurt;
     The second time was different.
You yelled and hit and pushed and cried
back at my knife
Digging into your heart.

And with every screaming fight and boxing match would cut
A new hole into your heart,
Letting it bleed out all emotions. To become unattached
Like I already was;


And when you were finally through;
When everything I was to you became worthless,
I could feel your frigid insides;
As numb drifted through your veins,
And every part of you became empty as you drifted away;

By the time you had the courage to leave me,
A new scar had formed over your wounds
That will never fully heal;
And your broken heart will just be
a reminder,
That you can never love some one that
Cannot feel;

I told you this would happen;
I warned you never to get close,
Because now you'll be like me;
Empty

hahaha
silly girl
silly girl
what are you doing
this is all a dream
no matter
no matter
there will always be blood
in the street
on your hands
you think behind closed doors
you're invisible
but no
you're not
you're just behind a door
they'll open it and
see you
they will see you  
but it's a dream
because you don't matter
why did you collect it all
pooling around their vacant bodies
you paint the white walls
the same thing
each time
you paint a rose
but the rose never stays
it runs red
with the blood you use
because the greatest lie
is that you're in a dream
**when you are the nightmare