love is not just letting go of the memories, the laughs and the past. it's letting go of the present moment and its comfort. it's also letting go of the future and its potential to becoming tangible.

Lately our love has been too much to carry
I don’t know if my habits have
Caused our relationship to look
A little less flattering on me
Or if maybe I’ve just outgrown you
But I feel like we are ripping at the seams
Our talks used to fill me up
Like pockets filled with sweets
But now it feels like
those pockets are flipping inside out
Maybe it’s time to let this go
sew in new seams
And patch up what’s left
of each other
And cut the thread

You are the shadow
that follows me where ever I go
You are the cuffs
That criss cross my wrists
To bedposts
In Egyptian cotton sheets
With a blindfold covering my eyes
I’ll never know whether
Your breath on my neck
Will follow with a kiss
Or with hands clenched
Around my throat
I know I’ll never be able to touch you
But you still manage to get me
Back into this bed
I don’t know why you want me
As much as you do
I don’t know why I can’t see my life
With out you in it
Some days you feel like
A crazy roommate
That I don’t want to live with anymore
But don’t have the money
To break the lease
I remember the first day we met
You smiled at me
And told me your name was fear
I had never heard a name like yours before
Maybe that’s why you consume my mind
I wish I had the strength to tell you no
Your seduction is my sickness
And I just can’t seem to let you go

The happiness that I should've kept
Only become empty memories
Farewell, to our memories
That I once treasured, So dearly
That it's the only thing that occupies me
Now, its the only thing that shatters me
Will I ever have the courage
To let go of the things I held
And hold back the tears
In my eyes, that was once gladness
Or let it flow, to ease the pain

we haven't been the same
it's been years since you called my name
at least not in the way you used to
is it bad if i'm still thinking 'bout you

you're my ghost
you've been haunting my home
when i'm all alone
i still feel your cold

i've been drinking too much
i've been getting ****** up
been thinking way too much lately
been so long since i had a good night's sleep

lost in the memories of us two
dreaming 'bout the things we used to do
i'm in a slump without my muse
but trying to get out is just no use

you're my ghost
you've been haunting my home
when i'm all alone
i still feel your cold

cold inside this heart of mine
brain's on fire but not alive
just one night would be alright
why haven't i killed the lights

Thru I still think of us.
In the past.
I mask the pain.
With a smile.
The simplest way.
To keep sain.

Though you are in sights.
I resist from contact.
Through I know.
The consequences.
Of going back.

Here I stand...
Sit...
Lie...
With worry.
On my mind.
Did I do...
The right thing?
Of letting you go.
Letting you leave.
With no explanations.

Worry leaves me.
When happiness.
Overflow my being.
Through pretending to smile.
It became a reality.

All I wish now is.
For us to.
Never cross paths.
For that may.
Bring back.
The love.
I have.
Hidden away.