The first time I fell inlove
I never knew I'd fall so hard
I never knew
It would be this hard
To love and be loved
The happiness
Engulfs you
Leaving no room
For imperfection
Everything seems perfect
But in reality
It is far from perfect
The heart matters
And everything else doesn't
Like a spell
You can't help it
Until that spell
Slowly melts away
And reality
Slowly seeps in
I come to see
What's really in front of me
And it's nowhere
Near from fantasy

This 2019, This year
May be different from others
To forget all of you
And to ultimately
How to let go, of you

I hate myself for loving you
You knew how to catch me
Yet leave me hanging
Always reaching for you
But never for me

It's 2019, I thought I knew
Better than to keep you
Wondering in my thoughts
Yet again, finding its way
Even in dreams you knew
You knew how to catch me

You shouldn't be on my mind
I told myself a thousand times
But still find your way
Creeping and lingering again
In my brain and my mind

Why do I even like you
You have the qualities that I don't like
But it seems something
Is pulling me towards you
Like a magnet to a metal
I can't resist to you
And whenever you're there
I can't stop smiling
And whenever you're not there
My mind is pre occupied
With the thoughts of you
My day starts and ends
With the thoughts of you
And leaves me thinking
Will there be a day
That you would even think of me?

Sometimes when I feel down
I can't help but frown
Something deep down
Causes me to frown
Obscure, weird and unknown
Something inside boils down
Bit by bit, it screeches
Laceration so deep
I can't help but smile
To hide the pain
That haunts me
Even if I smile