i was once told before that i’m the kind of girl who deserves to be complimented. when i asked what kind of girl that is, i was told it was the girl who flies under the radar.
i don’t know exactly what that means but i don’t think it’s a bad thing.
i think i'm a girl who doesn’t want people to notice her, for fear that they will see all the flaws that she herself already knows. a girl who doesn’t talk with many people, because she has already had too many people come into her life just to decide it wasn’t worth it, leaving her wondering what she did wrong and what is wrong with her. a girl who you never see talking to a boy, as she has already had her heart bruised far too many times to try again, just to try and fail again. a girl who's seen reading, as reality is far too cruel and dangerous of a place and she would rather die a thousand hero’s deaths than face someone who has a harsh word upon a sharp tongue. a girl who is always smiling, even though she’s broken inside and refuses to show anyone the parts of her that hurt, fearing she'll be hurt even more than before. a girl who keeps to herself, thinking she is intruding and will be unwanted. a girl who is teased and laughs it off, secretly wondering if those teasing remarks are true and if that is what people really think of her.
is that what a girl who flies under the radar is? every word rings true for me. maybe i simply am a girl who flies under the radar. a girl who is invisible
a flashback from 8th grade