#internal poems on Hello Poetry

Mitchell R Millett Jul 2014

We fight ourselves everyday,
A decision; to go or to stay.
Some we take and some we give,
all effects the way we live.
I made a decision to fulfill your wish,
but when it came time to deliver I became foolish.
I became scared and frightful for it's been so long,
since I seen you last all I could think about is our song.
I drove and thought, should this be?
Am I doing this for her,
or am I doing this for me?

#love #scared #lost #decisions #struggle #gift #internal

Jordan Harris Jun 2014

Brazen Mendacity

I perch distantly
not as a stalking panther shrouded in night
but in exile
society is welcoming as I chose my solitude
internally enforced diaspora

I claimed it was to marvel the awful expanse
a view of unabridged artistry
authentic beauty
however here
truth's firm grasp scrambles for a grip
but fingers could only ever scrape a void

I gazed across a projection
my utopia
a wish upon a whim

I walk the world with starlight in my eyes
to blind myself from the otherwise unavoidable darkness

I stride not at the center of galaxies
but in the emptiness of space forgotten
knowing resolution is inevitable
and I will either become a part of it
or its mirror

I will be whipped from the universe
an absent thought
lost in tumbling amnesia

#fake #sight #internal #brazen #mendacity

elizabeth Jun 2014

Decisions

I feel like the light is always on in our closet
Like someone recently decided who they wanted to be today
Or they are keeping it ready
In case they change their mind

#metaphor #change #light #personal #internal #closet

Ariana Sweeney May 2014

Internal Bliss

Always searching for somewhere
Anywhere else
To let my mind wander
Away from myself.
Free to live higher
than even the clouds
Floating on other's thoughts
Blending in with the crowds.

I'm searching, I'm looking
Desperate for escape
Because life is ******
And I don't know my fate.
What's the future hold?
Does it even exist?
Externally scrounging
For internal bliss.

#freedom #life #future #rhyme #escape #free #bliss #searching #internal

Invocation May 2014

Beauty

I am beautiful
I am any kind of beautiful I want to be
I am am every kind of beautiful
I am beautiful when I wake up
I am beautiful when I cry
I am beautiful when nobody is looking
And I am beautiful
In my own eyes
When I am alone
and in pain
I am beautiful
When I chainsmoke
instead of eat
I am beautiful
when I ****
I am beautiful
when I'm inebriated and asinine
and *****
and not
I am so beautiful
even when I harm my skin
because my beauty lies underneath the flesh and bones of
me

You are beautiful too

#love #cutting #life #hope #sleep #beauty #demons #help #**** #emotion #insomnia #ugly #care #fat #trauma #solace #internal

Kaazmeya May 2014

Lust

Tame this itch that refuses to be scratched
It starts behind the eyes, digging in your
tear ducts, pulling on irises, blowing pupils wide
Moving to lips causing a trembling, a stilling
Wet heat glides over, the pink muscle performs
Under every skin cell, the itch ripples through
Inside, the heart shivers, stomach flops, gut wrenches
Heat spreads, head to toe, burning extremities red

#love #eyes #lust #skin #body #feel #tongue #internal

AmberLynne May 2014

Monster Within

I stand in the Garden of Evil
Grinning in satisfaction
That you have to be with me
Though I hear your silent pleas
Staring in to those eyes
Soundless screams evokes
From within a place deep.
I watch the scars form
Visible remnants of my sin
But still I refuse to let go
And give you the peace I seek.
The blackness rising up
Inside us and around our bodies
I grin again, the malice in it
Reaching my eye
As you stare at me, gaping
Begging me to let this end.
I stop it all, give you breath
Deceit slowly filling my bone
Mysterious malignancy
I feel my internal grimace
Only to feel it rise again
My true evil reflecting in your eyes.
I could set you free, easily
But the darkness has taken me
Shivering in its clutches
I do its evil bidding
Not caring that it is you I hurt.
Lashing out with power,
The ability to destroy
Swirling ash envelops us
This time your screams are clear
Audible, and I sense fear.
We both fear who I am now
Too far gone to realize
The struggle has ended
Within my gleeful soul I dance
The darkness will commence.

Wrote this in '09. I really like writing the darker stuff. Whatcha think?

#evil #darkness #monster #struggle #within #internal