He forages on my doubts
Keeps me sleepless with distress
The real me is envious of me
She is all he wants
Can she stand the real me?
I resent the disgraceful me
Can't look at my reflection in the mirror
He threatens my core existence
So I fight to keep him burried
He mocks, taunts and mortifies
Even as she tells me I have beautiful eyes
It is good she cant peep inside through those windows
And see the struggles inside
I keep him padlocked in the depths
Listen to music and tour nice places
But in the quietest of moments
He creeps back to me
Dampens my spirit
Telling me I am way below
Not good enough
That I will ***** up as always
It is worrying what he can do
Destroy a lifetime in a day
Turn love to hate in a moment
But I wont let him hurt her
I'll leave her if I have to
The struggle to be a perfect man