Look, I really appreciate whatever it is you're trying to do.
But, I’m really gonna need you to just
Shut the ever loving **** up;
Because you mean well
But you don’t listen to a word that comes out of my mouth.
You offer hollow advice
And you sound a hell of a lot
Like a guy I really wanna ******* deck in the face
So now you’re kinda morphing into a guy that I
Kinda want to deck in the face.
And hey, maybe I just really need to ******* deck somebody in the face.
But then you blame me because you don’t understand,
Well you never tried to in the first place.
I’m sorry my problems are not wrapped up in pretty packages.
I’m sorry they’re not easy to clean up messes like water on linoleum
I’m sorry they’re red wine on white skirt
I’m sorry I drank all the wine
I’m sorry the fact it looks like blood makes you uncomfortable
But blood is thick and messy and it stains
So don’t expect wine to be much different
Only because it’s more socially acceptable to make a mess with it
So please,
Take your halfhearted help,
And give it to someone who halfheartedly gives a ****.

Hindi mo alam kung gaano ko nakipag laban sa mga kaaway.
Hindi mo alam kung gaano ko nakiramdam sa mga patay.
Hindi mo alam kung gaano ako nakinig sa pipi at bingi.
Hindi mo alam kung gaano ko isintabi ang sarili
sa gitna ng mga kuro kuro,
pag aalala
at pagkalungkot ko bawat gabi.

Hindi mo alam kung gaano kalamig ang init ng tag araw sa tuwing gigising akong wala ka man lang sa aking tabi.

Para kang buhay sa bingit ng katamayan.
Para himig sa kawalan.
Kawalan ng paramdam at kawalan ng malay.

Kasing lamig mo na ang kapeng tinimpla sa mainit na tubig
Kasing lamig mo na ang kanin bahaw sa tabi.

Anong nangyari?
Bakit tila isang bagyo ang nagpawala ng tayo at tanging bakas na iniwan satin ay ito.

Bakanteng lote puwang sa puso
na ni isang ugat ng pag mamahal ay parang ayaw nang tumubo.

Mindblown
I love myself, I let your security go
4 years into high school puppy love
With kids names chosen and a home under construction
But my dreams and ambitions were under demolition

I love myself,I let the mindless love I had for you go.
Cause you loved another
You look at her and me and our faces melt over each other's
I love myself enough to let me hurt;at least it'll save me

i say i'm moving up in the world
while i run in place
and no matter how fast i run
i'm not going anywhere

a plant crowded in its ***
a dog stuck in his cage
a girl caught in bad habits

everything hurts
my head
my heart
my hands

my head hurts
for i cannot understand you
i do not understand
the reason for your tears
your anger
your sorrow
your resentment
towards me

my heart hurts
for i feel the consequences
of your pent up emotions
once bottled up
now exploded
onto me

my hands hurt
for i cannot reach out and touch you
not like i used to
not like you used to want me to

most of all
my eyes hurt
for you cannot look at me
in the eyes
not the same way
not like you love me

Sometimes it hurts
Hurts because you’re not there
Hurts because you are there
Hurts that you want one thing
And another the next
That when I’m about to fall
You’re the one who’s pushing me
I hate
That you’re the one who can
Break me
That you control me
That you can’t stop
Before it’s too late
That you can’t choose
And when you do it’s never me
That I never know
Until it’s happened
That you don’t know when it’s too much
That you lose control
That when everything is falling apart
You don’t know how to pick up the pieces
That when the world gets big
You get smaller
Sometimes
Most times
I hate you
But
I hate
Even more
That when I look
In the Mirror
It’s your eyes
That stare back