Sa relasyon bawal ang makasarili.

Sa bawat pagtatalo, pilit kitang iniintindi
Sa bawat paglayo mo, pilit akong tatabi
Pero nakakasawa pala ang paulit-ulit.
Mas mabuti kung hindi ko na ipilit.

Hinayaan kitang lumayo,
Di dahil di na kita mahal,
Hinayaan kitang lumayo,
Upang puso mo ay di ko na masaktan.

Hinayaan kitang magmahal ng iba,
Di para ako'y kalimutan.
Hinayaan kitang magmahal ng iba,
Kasi sya ang iyong kasiyahan.

Hinayaan kita.
Ang tanga ko.

"Hindi ka pa napapagod,
O di kaya'y nagsasawa?
Sa ating mga tampuhan?
Walang hanggang katapusan."

Kaya pala paulit-ulit **** pinapatugtog
ang kantang ito,
Pag kasama ako.
Kasi sawa ka na sa ating mga alitan at tampo.
Kaya pala wala na ang tamis.
O sabihin **** ako'y iyong namimiss.
At wala na ang mga lambing ****,
"Babe, wala bang kiss? :( "

Tayo yung long term "lovers"
Na ngayon ay parang "strangers"
Ang relasyon natin parang isda,
Kasi "tuyong-tuyo" na.

Ako yung kanta na noon, favorite mo.
Ngayon, hindi na.
Dati enervon natin ang isa't isa,
Ngayon stress, at totoo,
Nakakapagod na.

Mali nga ako na pinipilit ko pa 'to.
Mali na lumalaban pa ako.
Hindi na ito yung dating ikaw at ako.
Kaya sige,

Tama ka.
Tama na..

I yell and I yell
enclosed by the air
and yet I can't feel it.


I want to hurt myself
just so I can feel something
So I try and I try
but not a drop of blood shed.


I shoot and I shoot
I clash my cymbals
I set myself on fire
I bomb the whole **** cloud.

Nothing moves.


I am stuck in an infinite circle of an alternate reality.
Isolated from life.
I sit and sob
in a cloud of white air.

I wish the heart didn't feel,
I wish I could forget,
I wish the tears would stop falling,
I wish I could see your face again,
I wish I knew what to do,
I wish you were here,
I wish the blood to flood faster,
I wish my heart to stop,
I wish to be free,
I wish I would die.

I wish you could guide me again,
I wish that I could hear you again,
But just hold on because I'm on my way,
The tears are falling and the blood is now flowing faster,
just wait a moment and I will be with you, in your arms again

I don't know why
I love this game so much
It got me tangled into situations
That even I could never imagined.

I guess this is my consequences
Of trying to figure out the difficult
Of trying to lighten up the dark
Of trying to mend what's broke
Of trying to lift what's drown.
Maybe I did play with fire
And I'm loving the way you burn me.

When you call me up
Saying you need me
I came running to you.
And the moment
When I want us to stay
You'd left for someone else.

When I want to talk
You'd shout and walk away,
When I needed you
You'd ingore and shut me up.
Isn't this so toxic?
This love is complicated,
But I guess it never was,
Since there's only one that loved
The other one thought she wasn't enough.

And just when I'm out of air
Saying baby you suffocate me and you're the air I breathe.
This is our endgame,
Baby I won't say "please stay".

There’s nothing left worth fighting for,
Lower your ****** fists,
Scraped and scratched over nothing but a thought,

Admit it’s all for nothing
Just let it go,
JUST BREATHE.

But you still choke,
Nothing but air fills your throat and lungs,
The air slowly piles out and your lung collapses,
Your heart is the next to follow,

Crushed,
Beaten,
Empty,

You think you’re close to the end,
To winning,
To letting it all go,

But as your eyes pan up,
You see the brick wall in front of you,
Not a single chip in it.
done.

I miss being praised.
Is that narcissistic? Selfish? Self-Obsessed?

No matter how much things may improve, the lack of a constant reassurance that used to exist leaves a gaping hole of insecurity.

You may improve yourself, get better, but if someone is not telling you that you are, have you actually improved? Are you truly getting better?

If progress is based off your own assessment isn’t that biased?

I Give Up.

If you have to ask, "Why me?"
When you're feeling really blue.
When the world has turned against you
And you don't know what to do.
When it pours colossal raindrops
And the road's a winding mess.
And you're feeling more confused
Than you could ever express.

When the saddened sun won't shine
When the stars never align.
When you'd rather be
Hanging by your neck on a tree.

Please practice the art of giving up on giving up.